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O incomprehensible God, how great is Your mercy!
It surpasses the combined understanding of all men and angels. All the angels
and all humans have emerged from the very depths of Your tender mercy. Mercy
is the flower of love. God is love, and mercy is His deed. In love it is
conceived; in mercy it is revealed. Everything I look at speaks to me of
God's mercy. Even God's very justice speaks to me about His fathomless mercy,
because justice flows from love. |
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There is one word I heed and continually ponder;
it alone is everything to me; I live by it and die by it, and it is the holy
will of God. It is my daily food. My whole soul listens intently to God's
wishes. I do always what God asks of me, although my nature often quakes and
I feel that the magnitude of these things is beyond my strength. 1 know well what I am of myself, but I also know what the
grace of God is, which supports me. |
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April 25, 1936. Walendow.
On that day, the suffering in my soul was more severe than ever before. From
early morning, I felt as if my body and soul had separated. I felt that God's
presence had penetrated my whole being; I felt all the justice of God within
me; I felt I stood alone before God. I thought: one word from my spiritual
director would set me entirely at peace; but what can I do?-he is not here.
However, I decided to seek light in holy confession. When I uncovered my soul
to the priest, [134] he was afraid to continue hearing my
confession, and that caused me even greater suffering. When I see that a
priest is fearful, I do not obtain any inner peace. So I have decided that
only to my spiritual director will I open my soul in all matters, from the
greatest to the least, and that I will follow his directions strictly. |
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Now I understand that confession is only the
confessing of one's sins, and spiritual guidance is a different thing
altogether. But this is not what I want to speak about. I want to tell about
a strange thing that happened to me for the first time. When the confessor
started talking to me, I did not understand a single word. Then I saw Jesus
Crucified and He said to me, It is in My Passion that you must seek
light and strength. After the confession, I meditated on Jesus' terrible Passion, and I
understood that what I was suffering was nothing compared to the Savior's
Passion, and that even the smallest imperfection was the cause of this
terrible suffering. Then my soul was filled with very great contrition, and
only then I sensed that I was in the sea of the unfathomable mercy of God.
Oh, how few words I have to express what I am experiencing! I feel I am like
a drop of dew engulfed in the depths of the bottomless ocean of divine mercy. |
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+ May 11, 1936. I came to Cracow. I was happy that
at last I shall be able to carry out all that the
Lord Jesus was demanding. |
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When I talked to Mother General [Michael] about
everything that had happened to me, she said, "Sister, I am locking you
in the tabernacle with the Lord Jesus; wherever you go from there, that will be the will of God." |
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June 19. When we went to the Jesuits' place for theprocession of the Sacred Heart, during Vespers I saw
the same rays coming forth from the Sacred Host, just as they are painted in
the image. My soul was filled with great longing for God. |
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"Know that these are hard and difficult
things. Your principal spiritual director is the Holy Spirit. We can only
give direction to these inspirations, but your real director is the Holy
Spirit. If you yourself have decided to leave, Sister, I neither prohibit nor
order you to do so. You take the responsibility for yourself. I say this to
you, Sister: you can begin to take action. You are capable of doing so, and
therefore you can do so. These things are indeed probable; all you have told
me up to now [before perpetual vows in Cracow in 1933] speaks in favor of
taking action. Still, you have to be very careful in all this. Pray much and
ask that I be given light." |
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During Holy Mass, offered by Father Andrasz, I saw
the little Infant Jesus, who told me that I was to depend on him for
everything;
no action undertaken on your own, even though you put much effort into it,
pleases Me. I understood this [need of] dependence. |
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O my Jesus, on the day of the last judgment, You
will demand from me an account of this work of mercy. O just Judge, but my
Spouse as well, help me to do Your holy will. O mercy, O divine virtue! |
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July 16. I spent this whole night in prayer. I
meditated upon the Lord's Passion, and my soul was crushed by the burden of
God's justice. The Hand of the Lord touched me. |
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July 17. O my Jesus, You know how much adversity I
encounter in this matter, how much reproach I must put up with, how many
ironic smiles I must take with equanimity. Oh, alone
I would not be able to survive this, but with You, my Master, I can do all
things. Oh, how painfully an ironic smile wounds, especially when one [appears
to] speak with great sincerity. |
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July
22. O my Jesus, I know that a person's greatness is evidenced by his deeds
and not by his words or feelings. It is the works that have come from us that
will speak about us. My Jesus, do not allow me to daydream, but give me the
courage and strength to fulfill Your holy will. |
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O my Jesus, how immensely I rejoice at the assurance You have given me that
the Congregation will come into being. I no longer have the least shadow of a
doubt about this, and I see how great is the glory which it
will give to God. It will be the reflection of God's greatest
attribute; that is, His divine mercy. Unceasingly, they will intercede for
divine mercy for themselves and for the whole world. And every act of mercy
will flow from God's love, that love with which they will be filled to
overflowing. They will strive to make their own this great attribute of God,
and to live by it and to bring others to know it and to trust in the goodness
of the Lord. This Congregation of Divine Mercy will be in God's Church like a
beehive in a magnificent garden, hidden and meek. The sisters will work like
bees to feed their neighbors' souls with honey, while the wax will flame for
the glory of God. |
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665 |
Father Andrasz told me to make a novena for the
intention of knowing better the will of God. I prayed ardently, adding a
certain bodily mortification. Towards the end of the novena, I received an
inner light and the assurance that the Congregation will come into being and
that it is pleasing to God. Despite the difficulties and adversities,
complete peace and strength entered my soul from on high. I understood that
nothing could resist or nullify the will of God. I understood that I must
carry out this will of God despite obstacles, persecution and sufferings of all
kinds, and despite natural repugnance and fear. |
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I understood that all striving for perfection and
all sanctity consist in doing God's will. Perfect fulfillment of God's will
is maturity in sanctity; there is no room for doubt here. To receive God's
light and recognize what God wants of us and yet not do it is a great offense
against the majesty of God. Such a soul deserves to be completely forsaken by
God. It resembles Lucifer, who had great light, but did not do God's will. An
extraordinary peace entered my soul when I reflected on the fact that,
despite great difficulties, I had always faithfully followed God's will as I
knew it. O Jesus, grant me the grace to put Your will into practice as I have
come to know it, O God. |
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July 14. I received a letter at three o'clock [ from Father Sopocko [135] ]. O Jesus, You alone know
what I suffer, but I will keep silent and will not say anything about it to
any creature, because I know that no one will comfort me. You are everything
to me, O God, and Your holy will is my nourishment. I am living now on what I
will live on in eternity. |
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+ July 15. During Holy Mass, I offered myself
completely to the heavenly Father through the sweetest Heart of Jesus; let
Him do as He pleases with me. Of myself I am nothing, and in my misery I have
nothing of worth; so I abandon myself into the ocean of Your mercy, O Lord. |
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July 16. I am learning how to be good from Jesus,
from Him who is goodness itself, so that I may be called a daughter of the
heavenly Father. This morning, when someone hurt my feelings, I tried, in
that suffering, to unite my will to the will of God, and I praised God by my
silence. In the afternoon, I went for a five-minute
adoration, when suddenly I saw the crucifix I have on my breast come alive.
Jesus said to me,
My daughter, suffering will be a sign to you that I am with you. My soul was greatly moved
by these words. |
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O
Jesus, my Master and my Director, it is only with You that I can converse.
With no one else is it so easy to talk as with You, O God. <p |
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In my spiritual life, I will always hold on to the
priest's hand. About my soul's life and its needs, I will speak only with my
confessor. |
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+ August 4, 1936. Inner torment for more than two
hours. Agony.... Suddenly, God's presence pervades me and I feel as though I
am coming under the power of the just God. His justice pervades me to the marrow;
outwardly I lose strength and consciousness. With this, I come to know the
great holiness of God and my own great misery. A great torment afflicts my
soul; the soul perceives its deeds to be not without blemish. Then the
strength of trust is awakened in the soul, which longs for God with all its
might. Yet it sees how miserable it is and what utter vanity everything that
surrounds it. And face to face with such holiness, Oh, poor soul.... |
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I was tormented by terrible temptations all day;
blasphemies thrust themselves upon my lips, and I felt an aversion for
everything that is holy and godlike. Yet I struggled throughout the day. In
the evening, my mind became oppressed: what's the use of telling this to the
confessor? He will ridicule it. A feeling of aversion and discouragement
filled my soul, and it seemed to me that I could by no means receive Holy
Communion in that condition. At the thought of not receiving Communion, such
a terrible pain seized my soul that I almost cried aloud in the chapel. But I
suddenly realized that the sisters were there and decided to go to the garden
and hide myself there so as to be able to at least cry out loud. Then
suddenly, Jesus stood by me and said, Where are you
intending to go? |
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I gave no answer to Jesus, but poured out all my
sorrow before Him, and Satan's attempts ceased. Jesus then said to me, The inner peace that
you have is a grace, and suddenly He was gone. I felt happy and unaccountably peaceful.
Really, for so much peace to return within a moment-that is a thing only
Jesus can do, He, the most high Lord. |
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+ August 7, 1936. When I received the article] [136] about Divine Mercy with the image [on
the cover], God's presence filled me in an extraordinary way. When I steeped
myself in a prayer of thanksgiving, I suddenly saw the Lord Jesus in a great
brightness, just as He is painted, and at His feet I saw Father Andrasz and
Father Sopocko. Both were holding pens in their hands, and flashes of light
and fire, like lightning, were coming from the tips of their pens and
striking a great crowd of people who were hurrying I know not where. Whoever
was touched by the ray of light immediately turned his back on the crowd and
held out his hands to Jesus. Some returned with great joy, others with great
pain and compunction. Jesus was looking at both priests with great kindness.
After a while, I was left alone with Jesus, and I said, "Jesus, take me
now, for Your will has already been accomplished." And Jesus answered, My will has not yet
been completely accomplished in you; you will still suffer much, but I am
with you; do not fear. |
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I have been talking much with the Lord about
Father Andrasz and also about Father Sopocko. I know that whatever I ask of
the Lord He will not refuse me, and He will give them that for which I ask. I
sensed and I know how greatly Jesus loves them. I am not writing about this
in detail, but I know this, and it makes me very happy. |
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During a Mass celebrated by Father Andrasz, a
moment before the Elevation, God's presence pervaded my soul, which was drawn
to the altar. Then I saw the Mother of God with the Infant Jesus. The Infant
Jesus was holding onto the hand of Our Lady. A moment later, the Infant Jesus
ran with joy to the center of the altar, and the Mother of God said to me,
See with what assurance I entrust Jesus into his hands. In the same way, you
are to entrust your soul and be like a child to him. |
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The essence of the virtues is the will of God. He
who does the will of God faithfully, practices all the virtues. In all the
events and circumstances of my life, I adore and bless the holy will of God.
The holy will of God is the object of my love. In the most secret depths of
my soul, I live according to His will. I act exteriorly according to what I
recognize inwardly as the will of God. Sweeter to me are the torments,
sufferings, persecutions and all manner of adversities by divine will than
popularity, praise and esteem by my own will. |
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Good night, my Jesus; the bell is calling me to
sleep. My Jesus, You see that I am dying from the desire to save souls. Good
night, my Beloved; I rejoice at being one day closer to eternity. And if You
let me wake up tomorrow, Jesus, I shall begin a new hymn to Your praise. |
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+ July 13. During meditation today, I came to
understand that I should never speak about my own interior experiences, [but]
that I should conceal nothing from my spiritual director; and I will
especially ask God to enlighten my spiritual director. I attach greater
importance to the words of my confessor than to all the lights taken together
that I receive interiorly. |
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+ Amid the greatest torments, I fix the gaze of my
soul upon Jesus Crucified; I do not expect help from people, but place my
trust in God. In His unfathomable mercy lies all my hope. |
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+ The more I feel that God is transforming me, the
more I desire to immerse myself in silence. The love of God is doing its work
in the depths of my soul. I see that the mission which the Lord has entrusted
to me is beginning. |
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+ Once, when I was praying fervently to the Jesuit
Saints, I suddenly saw my Guardian Angel, who led me before the throne of
God. I passed through great hosts of saints, and I recognized many of them,
whom I knew from their pictures. I saw many Jesuits, who asked me from what
congregation I was. When I answered they asked, "Who is your spiritual
director?" I answered that it was Father A.... When they wanted to say
more, my Guardian Angel beckoned me to be silent, and I came before the
throne of God. I saw a great and inaccessible light, and I saw a place
destined for me, close to God. But what it was like I do not know, because a
cloud covered it. However, my Guardian Angel said to me, "Here is your
throne, for your faithfulness in fulfilling the will of God." |
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+ Holy Hour. -Thursday. During this hour of
prayer, Jesus allowed me to enter the Cenacle, and I was a witness to what
happened there. However, I was most deeply moved when, before the
Consecration, Jesus raised His eyes to heaven and entered into a mysterious
conversation with His Father. It is only in eternity that we shall really
understand that moment. His eyes were like two flames; His face was radiant,
white as snow; His whole personage full of majesty, His soul full of longing.
At the moment of Consecration, love rested satiated-the sacrifice fully
consummated. Now only the external ceremony of death will be carried
out-external destruction; the essence [of it] is in the Cenacle. Never in my
whole life had I understood this mystery so
profoundly as during that hour of adoration. Oh, how ardently I desire that
the whole world would come to know this unfathomable mystery! |
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After the Holy Hour, when I went to my cell, I
suddenly learned how greatly God was offended by a certain person, who was
close to my heart. At the sight of this, my soul was pierced with pain, and I
cast myself in the dust before the Lord, begging His mercy. For two hours, in
tears, prayer and flagellation I prevented the sin, and I learned that God's
mercy had embraced that poor soul. Oh, the price of one single sin! |
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+ September. First Friday. In the evening, I saw
the Mother of God, with Her breast bared and pierced with a sword. She was
shedding bitter tears and shielding us against God's terrible punishment. God
wants to inflict terrible punishment on us, but He cannot because the Mother
of God is shielding us. Horrible fear seized my soul. I kept praying
incessantly for Poland, for my dear Poland, which is so lacking in gratitude
for the Mother of God. If it were not for the Mother of God, all our efforts
would be of little use. I intensified my prayers and sacrifices for our dear
native land, but I see that I am a drop before the wave of evil. How can a
drop stop a wave? O yes! A drop is nothing of itself, but with You, Jesus, I
shall stand up bravely to the whole wave of evil and even to the whole of
hell. Your omnipotence can do all things. |
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Once, as I was going down the hall to the kitchen,
I heard these words in my soul: Say unceasingly the chaplet that I have
taught you. Whoever will recite it will receive great mercy at the hour of
death. Priests will recommend it to sinners as their last hope of salvation.
Even if there were a sinner most hardened, if he were to recite this chaplet
only once, he would receive grace from My infinite mercy. I desire that the
whole world know My infinite mercy. I desire to grant unimaginable graces to
those souls who trust in My mercy. |
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Jesus, Life and Truth, my Master, guide every step
of my life, that I may act according to Your holy
will. |
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+ On one occasion, I saw the throne of the Lamb of
God and before the throne three Saints: Stanislaus Kostka, Andrew Bobola and Prince Casimir, who
were interceding for Poland. All at once I saw a large book which stands
before the throne, and it was given to me to read. The book was written in
blood. Still, I could not read anything but the name, Jesus. Then I heard a
voice which said to me, Your hour has not yet come. Then the book was taken
away from me, and I heard these words: You will bear witness to My infinite
mercy. In this book are written the names of the souls that have glorified My
mercy.
I was overwhelmed with joy at the sight of such great goodness of God. |
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+ On one occasion, I came to know of the condition
of two religious sisters who were grumbling interiorly about an order the superior
had given them, and for this reason God had withheld many special graces from
them. My heart ached at this sight. How sad it is, O Jesus, when we ourselves
are the cause of the loss of graces. Whoever understands this is always
faithful. |
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+ Thursday. Although I was very tired today, I
nevertheless resolved to make a Holy Hour. I could not pray, nor could I
remain kneeling, but I remained in prayer for a whole hour and united myself in
spirit with those souls who are already worshiping God in the perfect way.
But towards the end of the hour, I suddenly saw Jesus, who looked at me
penetratingly and said with ineffable sweetness, Your prayer is
extremely pleasing to Me. After these words, an unusual power and spiritual
joy entered my soul. God's presence continued to pervade my soul. Oh, what
happens to a soul that meets the Lord face to face, no pen has ever expressed
or ever will express! |
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+ O Jesus, I understand that Your mercy is beyond
all imagining, and therefore I ask You to make my heart so big that there
will be room in it for the needs of all the souls living on the face of the
earth. O Jesus, my love extends beyond the world, to the souls suffering in
purgatory, and I want to exercise mercy toward them by means of indulgenced
prayers. God's mercy is unfathomable and inexhaustible, just as God himself
is unfathomable. Even if I were to use the strongest words there are to
express this mercy of God, all this would be nothing in comparison with what
it is in reality. O Jesus, make my heart sensitive to all the sufferings of
my neighbor, whether of body or of soul. O my Jesus, I know that You act
toward us as we act toward our neighbor. |
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September 14, [1936]. The Archbishop [Jalbrzykowski] of Vilnius visited us. Although he stayed with
us for a very short time, I still had a chance to talk with this worthy
priest about the work of mercy. He showed himself very favorably disposed to
this cause of mercy: "Sister, be completely at peace; if this is within
the plans of divine providence, it will come about. In the meantime, Sister,
pray for a clearer outward sign. Let the Lord Jesus give you a clearer
knowledge of this. I beg you to wait a little while longer. The Lord Jesus
will arrange the circumstances in such a way that everything will turn out
all right." |
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> September 19, 1936. When we left the doctor's
[137] [office] and stepped into the sanatorium
chapel for a moment, I heard these words in my soul:My child, just a few
more drops in your chalice; it won't be long now. Joy filled my soul; this
was the first call from my beloved Spouse and Master. My heart melted, and
there was a moment when my soul was immersed in the whole sea of God's mercy.
I felt that my mission was beginning in all its fullness. Death destroys
nothing that is good. I pray most of all for souls that are experiencing
inner sufferings. |
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Once, I received light concerning two sisters. I
understood that it is not possible for a person to act in the same manner
towards everyone. There are some people who have a strange way of making
friends with others. And then, as friends and under the pretext of that
friendship, they manage to draw the person out, word by word. Then, when the
right moment comes, they use those very same words to hurt that person. My
Jesus, how strange is human frailty! Your love, Jesus, gives the soul this
great prudence in its dealings with others. |
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+ September 24, 1936. |
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Jesus, You know that I love suffering and want to
drain the cup of suffering to the last drop; and yet, my nature experienced a
slight shudder and fear. Quickly, however, my trust in the infinite mercy of
God was awakened in all its force, and everything
else had to give way before it, like a shadow retreating before the sun's
rays. O Jesus, how great is Your goodness! Your infinite goodness, so well known to me, enables me to bravely look death itself
in the eye. I know that nothing will happen to me without God's permission. I
desire to glorify Your infinite mercy during my life, at the hour of death,
in the resurrection and throughout eternity. |
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+ Oh, how sorely Jesus is hurt by the ingratitude of
a chosen soul! What a martyrdom it is for His unspeakable love! God loves us
with the entire infinite Being that He is; and imagine, a miserable particle
of dust scorns that love! My heart bursts with pain when I see this
ingratitude. |
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On one occasion, I heard these words: My daughter, tell
the whole world about My inconceivable mercy. I desire that the Feast of
Mercy [139] be a refuge and shelter for all souls,
and especially for poor sinners. On that day the very depths of My tender
mercy are open. I pour out a whole ocean of graces upon those souls who
approach the fount of My mercy. The soul that will go to Confession and
receive Holy Communion shall obtain complete forgiveness of sins and
punishment. On that day all the divine floodgates through which grace flow
are opened. Let no soul fear to draw near to Me, even though its sins be as scarlet. My mercy is so great that no mind, be it of
man or of angel, will be able to fathom it throughout all eternity.
Everything that exists has come forth from the very depths of My most tender
mercy. Every soul in its relation to Me will contemplate My love and mercy
throughout eternity. The Feast of Mercy emerged from My very depths of
tenderness. It is My desire that it be solemnly celebrated on the first
Sunday after Easter. Mankind will not have peace until it turns to the Fount
of My Mercy. |
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+ Once, when I was very tired and in much pain, I
told Mother Superior [Irene] about it and received the answer that I should
get used to suffering. I listened to everything that Mother told me, and then
I went out. Our Mother Superior has great love of neighbor and especially
great love for the sick sisters, as everyone knows. And yet, as regards me,
it is extraordinary that the Lord Jesus has permitted that she not understand
me and that she test me much in this respect. |
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