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My experience at the LSS
The life in the spirit seminar (LSS) has
changed my life. I’ve become more cheerful and although I’m not perfect (NOBODY
is). I try to improve my flaws (It’s very hard).
Before the seminar started, I was having
doubts and was feeling quite reluctant to attend the seminar. Luckily, the
seminar was compulsory for the students preparing for the sacrament of
confirmation. If it was not a must, I wouldn’t have been able to share my
experiences with anyone. Father Chin told us before the seminar that we should
always ask for the Holy Spirit to descend on us.
We started off by singing worship songs
and praising Jesus. The hymns were very melodious and the talks given by the
aunties (from the BSC youth) were very meaningful. The aunties also told us
stories based on life accounts. The teens (from the Emmaus Community Teen Cell)
also shared their very meaningful and touching personal experiences.
I felt very happy after confession
because I understood the real reason for confession. After confession, we were
to go for a counseling session. I felt better after talking to Aunty Tina for
she understood the situation I was in.
During the inner healing session, most
of us, including myself shed tears. Before the inner
healing session even started (that was when Aunty Pauline was explaining the
meaning of inner healing) I had a feeling I was going to cry. True enough, I
practically cried my eyeballs out that night. When the aunties and uncles sang
the song “Jesus,
We Enthrone You”, tears rolled down my
cheeks and I couldn’t myself. I felt so much hurt and sadness when I recalled
most of the things that had happened in the past. I felt so sorry and cried
even more.
It was then my turn to light the candle
and pray at the foot of Jesus, I closed my eyes and felt like waves in the
ocean, swaying to and fro. I was so afraid I would fall towards the crucifix,
so I opened my eyes immediately and the “waves” stopped when I closed my eyes
again, the feeling was gone miraculously, when one of the aunties prayed over
me, I felt like a wave again. This time I just let myself flow freely and
before I knew it, I was already lying on the floor. For a moment, I didn’t know
anything, but as soon as the aunty/uncle (can’t remember) caught me. I was
fully aware of all the happenings around me. At that time I didn’t know why but
my heart was pumping furiously, so I just lay until my heartbeat was back to
normal again. As soon as I got up, my hands and feet were as cold as ice but
inside, I felt a certain kind of warmth I’ve never felt before. I felt as if a
heavy load of burden had been lifted off my shoulders and I felt as light as a
feather.
After that, I had a strong desire of
hugging the aunties and when Aunty Pauline suggested that we gave the aunties a
hug, I was so happy. I’m not sure if I hugged all the aunties, but when I
hugged them I felt very happy.
That night, most of us were not able to
sleep after having received the Holy Spirit. Uncle Valentine came into the
girls’ room and we had tons of questions for him. That MORNING we all
slept very comfortably.
During the Baptism of the Holy Spirit
the next day, an uncle prayed over me while speaking in tongues and I felt
someone/something pushing my head. Having listened to Uncle Valentine that
night before, I remembered not to go against it and once again I fell on the
floor. After I got up, I felt very warm, warmer than the last night. Later, we
prayed to be given the gift of tongues, we were required to recite the words “Abba
Alleluia”. Unfortunately, I wasn’t given the gift of tongues, I was
disappointed at first, but I will continue to pray for that gift.
The LSS experience was a very meaningful
experience and I will always remember it. I’ve learnt that nobody is a loser,
everyone is a winner and that is what makes this seminar so special.
At the end of the LSS, I felt very sad
and I consulted Uncle Valentine and Aunty Faith. They both told me that even
though the seminar may have ended, the life in the spirit has just began. The LSS has changed me into a different person, a
person who has been “reborn” again. I used to have lots of hatred in my heart,
but after the LSS, I was able to forgive and forget. I went back and told my friends
that I was sorry and forgave them. I also tried not to be greedy but to give
and take what’s given to me.
Until today, the song “Jesus, We
Enthrone You” still touches me. I learnt a
lot through the LSS and I hope to attend more in the future. After the LSS, I’m
able to open the door He has been knocking on all this while and am ready to
feel God’s unconditional love. I have learnt that God has a special plan for
each and everyone of us and whatever the spirit
touches, it changes. Every week, I look forward to going for mass and I don’t
see mass like before again. Lastly, I’m proud to call myself – A CATHOLIC!
(Note:
Transcribed from the original written by hand)