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My experience at the Life In The
Spirit Seminar
At first, when I heard about the Life in the Spirit Seminar,
honestly speaking I was reluctant to go. It meant I was going to spend my
entire weekend at Church with people I hardly know. I also meant I have to get
close to God whom I think is always testing me and my faith.
As we all went through the seminar, things weren’t
so bad. We praised God, learned more about God, prayed together & did other
holy stuff. Even though I wasn’t enthusiastic or anything I felt “ok” anyway. I
mostly enjoyed the stories told by the seminar conductors of miracles that God
did from heaven, who He timed each & every event in such a way that it was
more divine than coincidence.
Eventually, I was glad that I attended the LSS I
learned about how God has a special plan for each and every person in the
world, how much God loves His children and about the Holy Spirit & how it
helped people. Several lecturers were held so we can learn more and understand
our faith so we can become better Christians.
The biggest impact on me, was the lecture on
repentance. When they displayed a certain image, I felt my heart hurt a little,
it made me felt pain and suffering. The image showed Jesus holding a repenting
sinner in His arms. Maybe to others it was just an image, but to me, it is a
picture with a thousand words. I then understood why I was reluctant to attend
LSS. I was afraid of returning to God, of admitting my sins. Though my sins
weren’t mortal, they were still sins. Before I would take advantage of God’s
mercy by thinking that as long as I return to Him, He would forgive me, but
that was wrong. Jesus suffered an agonizing and painful death to save us, and I
realize that with every sin I commit, I was hurting God, wasting Jesus’s
efforts of saving everyone and making God disappointed. I felt so foolish and
ashamed, that image made me realize why I was at LSS.
After that, I went for a confession, and with it I
confessed everything I’ve ever done, I nearly cried just saying it. We even had
a counseling session after that. Later at night, there was an event where we
light candle, symbolizing our sins, evil habits or anything personal to lay it
at the feet of Christ. This was a big deal for me as I wanted to change for
Jesus. After I set my candle at the feet of Jesus, I touched the cross and
prayed for God’s blessings. I stood up to meet with one of the counselors for
prayers and my feet felt shaky, my head was also spinning and I felt cold. One
of the counselors prayed for me and those feelings went away instantly. I felt
peaceful as I laid on the ground as if Jesus had took my burdens away. It felt
enlightening.
LSS changed me, it changed my ways and it made me
feel better. I would pray to God more often, read the bible and even quote some
proverbs from the word of God. After LSS, I hope to change my habits and
prevent some of my sins, I know I’ll sometimes fail despite my promises but as
long as I keep trying and praying to Jesus, I know he’ll help me through sin.
Brennan Liu
FFC Form 3
(Note: Transcribed from the original written by hand,
complete with a drawing of Jesus and a repenting boy, and a dove representing
the Holy Spirit in the middle)