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Diary Divine Mercy in My Soul ( VI: 1751 1803 ) |
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1751 |
+ O Jesus, concealed in the Blessed Sacrament of
the Altar, my only love and mercy, I commend to You all the needs of my body
and soul. You can help me, because You are Mercy itself. In You lies all my
hope. |
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1752 |
Under the direction of Master Jesus, who Himself
commanded me to make this retreat, and who selected the days on which I was
to make it; namely, the three days preceding Pentecost and who, Himself,
conducted this retreat. However, I asked my confessor [probably Father
Andrasz] whether I could make such a retreat, and I received his permission.
I also asked Mother Superior [Irene] and received her permission too. I had
resolved that I would not make the retreat unless I obtained the permission
of the Superiors. I began a novena to the Holy Spirit, and waited for Mother
Superior's answer. |
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1753 |
In the evening, Jesus gave me the subject for
meditation. At the first moment, my heart was filled with fear and joy. Then
I pressed myself close to His Heart, and the fear vanished; only joy
remained. I felt entirely like a child of God, and the Lord said to me, Fear nothing. What
has been forbidden to others has been given to you. The graces that are not
given to other souls to discern, not even from a distance, nourish you every
day, like the daily bread. |
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1754 |
Consider, My
daughter, Who it is to whom your heart is so closely united by the vows.
Before I made the world, I loved you with the love your heart is experiencing
today and, throughout the centuries, My love will never change. |
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1755 |
Application. At the very thought of Him to whom my
heart is wedded, my soul entered into profound recollection, and the hour
passed like a minute. In this state of recollection, I came to know the
attributes of God. Burning with an inner fire of love, I went out to the
garden to cool off; when I looked up at the heavens, a new flame of love
flooded my heart. |
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1756 |
Then I heard the words: My daughter, have
you exhausted the subject I gave you? If so, I'll give you a new one. I answered, "O
Infinite Majesty, eternity will not be enough for me to come to know You...
But my love for You has become more intense. As a token of gratitude, I lay
my heart at Your feet, like a rosebud. May its fragrance delight Your Divine
Heart, now and for eternity... What a paradise it is
for a soul when the heart knows itself to be so loved by God..." |
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1757 |
Today, you will read
chapter fifteen of the Gospel of Saint John. I want you to read it very
slowly. |
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1758 |
My daughter, consider
the life of God which is found in the Church for the salvation and the
sanctification of your soul. Consider the use that you make of these
treasures of grace, of these efforts of My love. |
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1759 |
Application: O most compassionate Jesus, I have
not always known how to profit from these priceless gifts, because I have
paid too little attention to the gift itself and too much to the vessel in
which You were giving me Your gifts. My most sweet Master, it will be
different from now on. I will put Your gifts to the best use of which my soul
is capable. Living faith will support me. Whatever the form might be, under
which You send me Your grace, I will accept it as coming directly from You,
without considering the vessel in which You send it. If it will not always be
within my power to accept it with joy, I will always accept it with
submission to Your holy will. |
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1760 |
My daughter, I want
to teach you about spiritual warfare. Never trust in yourself, but abandon
yourself totally to My will. In desolation, darkness and various doubts, have
recourse to Me and to your spiritual director. He will always answer you in
My name. Do not bargain with any temptation; lock yourself immediately in My
Heart and, at the first opportunity, reveal the temptation to the confessor.
Put your self-love in the last place, so that it does not taint your deeds.
Bear with yourself with great patience. Do not neglect interior mortifications.
Always justify to yourself the opinions of your superiors and of your
confessor. Shun murmurers like a plague. Let all
act as they like; you are to act as I want you to. |
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1761 |
My daughter, today
consider My Sorrowful Passion in all its immensity. Consider it as if it had
been undertaken for your sake alone. |
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1762 |
Application: When I began to immerse myself in the
Divine Passion, the great worth of the human soul and the great evil of sin
were revealed to me. I understood that I did not know how to suffer. In order
to gain merit for my suffering, I will unite myself more closely, in
suffering, to the Passion of the Lord Jesus, asking of Him grace for dying
souls, so that the mercy of God may embrace them in this grave moment. |
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1763 |
My daughter, consider
the rule and the vows which you have offered to Me. You know how highly I value
them; all the graces that I have for the souls of religious are connected
with the rule and the vows. |
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1764 |
Application: O my Jesus, I feel guilty of many
imperfections on this score but, by Your grace, I do not recall any conscious
and voluntary transgression of the rule or the religious vows. Continue to
guard me, O my good Jesus, for of myself I am weak. |
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1765 |
Today, My daughter,
for your reading you shall take chapter nineteen of Saint John's Gospel, and
read it, not only with your lips, but with your heart... |
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1766 |
During this reading, my soul was filled with deep
repentance. I saw all the ingratitude of creatures toward their Creator and
Lord; I asked God to protect me from spiritual blindness. |
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1767 |
My daughter, I want
to instruct you on how you are to rescue souls through sacrifice and prayer.
You will save more souls through prayer and suffering than will a missionary
through his teachings and sermons alone. I want to see you as a sacrifice of
living love, which only then carries weight before Me. You must be
annihilated, destroyed, living as if you were dead in the most secret depths
of your being. You must be destroyed in that secret depth where the human eye
has never penetrated; then will I find in you a pleasing sacrifice, a
holocaust full of sweetness and fragrance. And great will be your power for
whomever you intercede. Outwardly, your sacrifice must look like this:
silent, hidden, permeated with love, imbued with prayer. I demand, My
daughter, that your sacrifice be pure and full of humility, that I may find
pleasure in it. I will not spare My grace, that you
may be able to fulfill what I demand of you. |
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1768 |
My daughter,
in this meditation, consider the love of neighbor. Is your love for
your neighbor guided by My love? Do you pray for your enemies? Do you wish
well to those who have, in one way or another, caused you sorrow or offended
you? |
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1769 |
Application: O Jesus, my Love, You know that it
has only been for a short while that I have acted toward my neighbor guided solely
by Your love. You alone know of my efforts to do this. It comes to me more
easily now, but if You Yourself did not kindle that love in my soul, I would
not be able to persevere in this. This is due to Your Eucharistic love which
daily sets me afire. |
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1770 |
Now you shall
consider My love in the Blessed Sacrament. Here, I am entirely yours, soul,
body and divinity, as your Bridegroom. You know what love demands: one thing
only, reciprocity... |
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1771 |
Application: O my Jesus, You know that I desire to
love You with a love that no soul has ever before loved You with. I would
like the whole world to be transformed into love for You, my Betrothed. You
feed me with the honey and milk of Your Heart. From my earliest years, You
reared me for Yourself alone, so that I would know how to love You now. You
know that I love You, because You alone know the depth of the sacrifice I
offer You each day. |
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1772 |
Jesus said to me, My daughter, have you any difficulties in this retreat? I answered that I hadn't.
In this retreat, my mind is like lightning. I penetrate all the mysteries of
faith with great ease. My Master and Leader, all darkness disappears from my
mind under the ray of Your light. |
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1773 |
Today, for your
spiritual reading, you will take the Gospel of Saint John, chapter
twenty-one. Let if feed your heart more than your mind. |
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1774 |
+ During the June devotions, the Lord said to me, My daughter, My favor rests in your heart. When on Holy Thursday I left
Myself in the Blessed Sacrament, you were very much on My mind. |
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1775 |
After these words, my love made great efforts to
express to Him what He was to me, but I was at a loss for words and burst
into tears in my helplessness. And Jesus said, For you, I am mercy
itself; therefore I ask you to offer Me your misery and this very
helplessness of yours and, in this way, you will delight My Heart. |
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1776 |
Today, a living flame of divine love entered my
soul; if it had lasted any longer, I would have been consumed by the fire,
freeing myself of the bonds of the present. It seemed to me that, if it had
lasted an instant longer, I would have been drowned in the ocean of love. I
cannot describe these arrows of love that pierce my soul. |
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1777 |
My daughter, know
that My Heart is mercy itself. From this sea of mercy, graces flow out upon
the whole world. No soul that has approached Me has ever gone away unconsoled. All misery gets buried in the depths of My
mercy, and every saving and sanctifying grace flows from this fountain. My
daughter, I desire that your heart be an abiding place of My mercy. I desire
that this mercy flow out upon the whole world through your heart. Let no one
who approaches you go away without that trust in My mercy which I so ardently
desire for souls. |
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1778 |
My resolution continues to be the same: to unite
myself to Christ-Mercy. |
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1779 |
Thank you, Eternal Love, for Your inconceivable
kindness to me, that You would occupy Yourself directly with my
sanctification. - My
daughter, let three virtues adorn you in a
particular way: humility, purity of intention and love. Do nothing beyond
what I demand of you, and accept everything that My hand gives you. Strive
for a life of recollection so that you can hear My voice, which is so soft
that only recollected souls can hear it... |
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1780 |
I could not sleep until midnight today, so deeply
was I stirred by tomorrow's renewal of vows. The greatness of God embraced my
whole being. |
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1781 |
I got up how much earlier than usual and went to
the chapel, steeping myself in the love of God. Before receiving Holy
Communion, I silently renewed my religious vows. After Holy Communion, the
infinite love of God swept over me. My soul was in communion with the Holy
Spirit, who is the same Lord as the Father and the Son. His breath filled my
soul with such delight that it would be useless for me to try to give even a
faint idea of what my heart experienced. Throughout the whole day, wherever I
was and regardless of with whom I talked, a vivid presence of God accompanied
me; my soul was drowned in thanksgiving for these great graces. |
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1782 |
+ When I went out to the garden today, the Lord
said to me, Return
to your room, for I will be waiting for you there. As soon as I returned, I
saw the Lord Jesus, sitting at the table and waiting for me. He looked at me
kindly and said, My
daughter, I want you to write now, because that walk
would not have been in conformity with My will. I remained alone and
immediately got down to writing. |
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1783 |
+ When I immersed myself in prayer and united
myself with all the Masses that were being celebrated all over the world at
that time, I implored God, for the sake of all these Holy Masses, to have
mercy on the world and especially on poor sinners who were dying at that
moment. At the same instant, I received an interior answer from God that a
thousand souls had received grace through the prayerful mediation I had
offered to God. We do not know the number of souls that is ours to save
through our prayers and sacrifices; therefore, let us always pray for
sinners. |
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1784 |
Today, in the course of a long conversation, the
Lord said to me,
How very much I desire the salvation of souls! My dearest secretary, write
that I want to pour out My divine life into human souls and sanctify them, if
only they were willing to accept My grace. The greatest sinners would achieve
great sanctity, if only they would trust in My mercy. The very inner depths
of My being are filled to overflowing with mercy, and it is being poured out
upon all I have created. My delight is to act in a human soul and to fill it
with My mercy and to justify it. My kingdom on earth is My life in the human
soul. Write, My secretary, that I Myself am the spiritual guide of souls-and
I guide them indirectly through the priest, and lead each one to sanctity by
a road known to Me alone. |
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1785 |
Mother Superior [Irene] visited me today, but only
for a short while. When she looked around, she said that everything was too
pretty here. It is true, the sisters are trying to
make my stay in the sanatorium pleasant. But all this beauty does not lessen
my sacrifice, which God alone can see and which will cease only when my heart
stops beating. Neither the beauty of the whole earth, nor even of heaven
itself, can blur the torture of my soul, which is real at each moment though
so deeply interior. It will end when You Yourself, Author of my suffering,
say, "Enough." There is nothing that could lessen my sacrifice. |
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1786 |
Right away, on the Friday after Corpus Christi, I
felt so unwell that I thought the longed-for moment was approaching. I had a
high fever and spat up much blood during the night. Yet, I did go to receive
the Lord Jesus in the morning, but I could not stay for the Holy Mass. In the
afternoon, my temperature dropped suddenly to 35.8° C. I felt so weak that it
was as if everything inside me were dying. But when I steeped myself in
profound prayer, I understood that it was not yet the moment of deliverance,
but only a closer call from my Bridegroom. |
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1787 |
When I met with the Lord, I said to Him, "You
are fooling me, Jesus; You show me the open gate of heaven, and again You
leave me on earth." The Lord said to me, When, in heaven, you
see these present days, you will rejoice and will want to see as many of them
as possible. I am not surprised, My daughter, that you cannot understand this
now, because your heart is overflowing with pain and longing for Me. Your
vigilance pleases Me. Let My word be enough for you; it will not be long now. |
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1788 |
+ The conversations that I hear in this place
about worldly matters make me so tired that I nearly faint. The sisters who
nurse me have noticed this, because it shows outwardly. |
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1789 |
+ Today 253
I saw the glory of God which flows from the image. Many souls are receiving graces,
although they do not speak of it openly. Even though it has met up with all
sorts of vicissitudes, God is receiving glory because of it; and the efforts
of Satan and of evil men are shattered and come to naught. In spite of
Satan's anger, The Divine Mercy will triumph over the whole world and will be
worshiped by all souls. |
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1790 |
I have come to know that, in order for God to act
in a soul, it must give up acting on its own; otherwise, God will not carry
out His will in it. |
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1791 |
When a great storm was approaching, I began to say
the chaplet. Suddenly I heard the voice of an angel: "I cannot approach
in this storm, because the light which comes from her mouth drives back both
me and the storm." Such was the angel's complaint to God. I then recognized
how much havoc he was to have made through this storm; but I also recognized
that this prayer was pleasing to God, and that this chaplet was most
powerful. |
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1792 |
I learned that a certain soul was very pleasing to
God and that, in spite of all sorts of persecutions, God was clothing this
person in a new and higher dignity. My heart greatly rejoiced in this. |
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1793 |
The moments which are most pleasant to me are
those when I converse with the Lord within the center of my being. I try my
very best not to leave Him alone. He likes to be always with us... |
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1794 |
+ O Jesus, eternal God, thank You for Your
countless graces and blessings. Let every beat of my heart be a new hymn of
thanksgiving to You, O God. Let every drop of my blood circulate for You,
Lord. My soul is one hymn in adoration of Your mercy. I love You, God, for
Yourself alone. |
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1795 |
My God, although my sufferings are great and
protracted, I accept them from Your hands as magnificent gifts. I accept them
all, even the ones that other souls have refused to accept. You can come to
me with everything, my Jesus; I will refuse You nothing. I ask You for only
one thing: give me the strength to endure them and grant that they may be
meritorious. Here is my whole being; do with me as You please. |
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1796 |
Today, 254 I saw the Sacred Heart of Jesus in the sky, in the midst
of a great brilliance. The rays were issuing from the Wound [in His side] and
spreading out over the entire world. |
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1797 |
Today, the Lord came to me and said, My daughter, help Me
to save souls. You will go to a dying sinner, and you will continue to recite
the chaplet, and in this way you will obtain for him trust in My mercy, for
he is already in despair. |
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1798 |
Suddenly, I found myself in a strange cottage
where an elderly man was dying amidst great torments. All about the bed was a
multitude of demons and the family, who were crying. When I began to pray,
the spirits of darkness fled, with hissing and threats directed at me. The
soul became calm and, filled with trust, rested in the Lord. |
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1799 |
J.M.J. I feel that there is a power which is
defending me and protecting me from the blows of the enemy. It guards and
defends me. I feel it very distinctly; it is as if I am being shielded by the
shadow of His wings. |
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1800 |
My Jesus, You alone are good. Even if my heart
were to make every effort to write of Your goodness, at least in part, I
could not do so-this is beyond all our comprehension. |
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1801 |
One day during Holy Mass, the Lord gave me a
deeper knowledge of His holiness and His majesty, and at the same time I saw
my own misery. This knowledge made me happy, and my soul drowned itself
completely in His mercy. I felt enormously happy. |
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1802 |
On the following day, I had a clear awareness of
the following words: "You see, God is so holy, and you are sinful. Do
not approach Him, and go to Confession every day." And indeed, whatever
I thought of seemed to me to be a sin. But I did not omit going to Holy
Communion, and I resolved to go to Confession at the prescribed time, as I
had no clear impediment. But when the day for confession came, I prepared a
whole mass of those sins of which I was to accuse myself. However, in the
confessional, God allowed me to accuse myself of only two imperfections,
despite my efforts to make a confession according to what I had prepared.
When I left the confessional, the Lord said to me, My daughter, all those sins you intended to confess are not sins in My
eyes; that is why I took away your ability to tell them. I understood that Satan,
wanting to disturb my peace, has been giving me exaggerated thoughts. O
Savior, how great is Your goodness! |
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1803 |
One day, when I was preparing for Holy Communion
and noticed that I had nothing to offer Him, I fell at His feet, calling down
all His mercy upon my poor soul: "May Your grace, which flows down upon
me from Your Compassionate Heart, strengthen me for the struggle and
sufferings, that I may remain faithful to You. And, although I am such
misery, I do not fear You, because I know Your mercy well. Nothing will
frighten me away from You, O God, because everything is so much less than
what I know [Your mercy to be]-I see that clearly. |
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