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Diary Divine Mercy in My Soul ( VI: 1651 1700 ) |
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1651 |
+ Today one of the sisters came into my room and
said that such-and-such a sister was very fussy over her own illness, and
that she found this very annoying and would gladly give her a piece of her
mind were it not for the fact that she was not a member of this convent. I
answered that I was surprised that she should even think in such a way:
"Sister, just think of how many sleepless nights this sick sister has
been through and of how many tears..." The sister then came to think
differently. |
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1652 |
Adore, my soul, the mercy of the Lord, |
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1653 |
The light above, where my God reigns,
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1654 |
O truth, O thorny life, |
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1655 |
+ O Christ, if my soul had known, all at once,
what it was going to have to suffer during its lifetime, it would have died
of terror at the very sight; it would not have touched its lips to the cup of
bitterness. But as it has been given to drink a drop at a time, it has
emptied the cup to the very bottom. O Christ, if You Yourself did not support
the soul, how much could it do of itself? We are strong, but with Your
strength; we are holy, but with Your holiness. And of ourselves, what are
we?-less than nothing... |
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1656 |
I do not know how to describe all that I suffer,
and what I have written thus far is merely a drop. There are moments of
suffering about which I really cannot write. But there are also moments in my
life when my lips are silent, and there are no words for my defense, and I
submit myself completely to the will of God; then the Lord Himself defends me
and makes claims on my behalf, and His demands are such that they can be
noticed exteriorly. Nevertheless, when I perceive His major interventions,
which manifest themselves by way of punishment, then I beg Him earnestly for
mercy and forgiveness. Yet I am not always heard. The Lord acts toward me in
a mysterious manner. There are times when He Himself allows terrible
sufferings, and then again there are times when He does not let me suffer and
removes everything that might afflict my soul. These are His ways,
unfathomable and incomprehensible to us. It is for us to submit ourselves
completely to His holy will. There are mysteries that the human mind will
never fathom here on earth; eternity will reveal them. |
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1657 |
April 10, 1938. Palm Sunday. I attended Holy Mass,
but did not have the strength to go and get the palm. 244
I felt so weak that I barely made it till the end of Mass. During Mass, Jesus
gave me to know the pain of His soul, and I could clearly feel how the hymns
of Hosanna reverberated as a painful echo in His Sacred Heart. My
soul, too, was inundated by a sea of bitterness, and each Hosanna
pierced my own heart to its depths. My whole soul was drawn close to Jesus. I
heard Jesus' voice: My
daughter, your compassion for Me refreshes Me. By meditating on My Passion,
your soul acquires a distinct beauty. |
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1658 |
I received Holy Communion upstairs, for there was
no question of my going down to the chapel since I was exhausted because of
intense sweating, and when that passed, I had a fever and chills. I felt
completely worn out. Today, one of the Jesuit Fathers [Father Zukowicz 245]
brought us Holy Communion. He gave the Lord to three other sisters and then
to me; and thinking I was the last, he gave me two Hosts. But one of the
novices was lying in bed in the next cell, and there was no Host left for
her. The priest went back again and brought her the Lord, but Jesus told me, I enter that heart
unwillingly. You received those two Hosts, because I delayed My coming into
this soul who resists My grace. My visit to such a soul is not pleasant for
Me.
At that point, my soul was drawn close to Him, and I received a deep inner
light which gave me to understand, in spirit, all the workings of mercy. It
was like a flash of lightning, but more distinct than if I had watched it for
hours with the eyes of my body. |
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1659 |
Still, in order to write anything at all, I must
make use of words, though they cannot render all of what my soul enjoyed on
seeing the glory of God's mercy. The glory of the Divine Mercy is resounding, even now, in spite of the efforts of its
enemies and of Satan himself, who has a great hatred for God's mercy. This
work will snatch a great number of souls from him, and that is why the spirit
of darkness sometimes tempts good people violently, so that they may hinder
the work. But I have clearly seen that the will of God is already being
carried out, and that it will be accomplished to the very last detail. The
enemy's greatest efforts will not thwart the smallest detail of what the Lord
has decreed. No matter if there are times when the work seems to be
completely destroyed; it is then that the work is being all the more
consolidated. |
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1660 |
My soul was filled with a peace much deeper than
anything I had experienced before, a divine reassurance which nothing can
efface, a deep peace which nothing can disturb, even though I were to go
through the severest of ordeals. I am at peace; God Himself governs all
things. |
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1661 |
I spent the whole day in thanksgiving, and
gratitude kept flooding my soul. O my God, how good You are, how great is
Your mercy! You visit me with so many graces, me who am a most wretched speck
of dust. Prostrating myself at Your feet, O Lord, I confess with a sincere
heart that I have done nothing to deserve even the least of Your graces. It
is in Your infinite goodness that You give Yourself to me so generously.
Therefore, the greater the graces which my heart receives, the deeper it
plunges itself in humility. |
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1662 |
+ O Christ, suffering for You is the delight of my
heart and my soul. Prolong my sufferings to infinity, that I may give You a
proof of my love. I accept everything that Your hand will hold out to me.
Your love, Jesus, is enough for me. I will glorify You in abandonment and
darkness, in agony and fear, in pain and bitterness, in anguish of spirit and
grief of heart. In all things may You be blessed. My
heart is so detached from the earth, that You Yourself are
enough for me. There is no longer any moment in my life for self concern. |
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1663 |
Holy Thursday [April 14, 1938]. Today I felt
strong enough to take part in the ceremonies of the Church. During Holy Mass,
Jesus stood before me and said, Look into My Heart and see there the
love and mercy which I have for humankind, and especially for sinners. Look,
and enter into My Passion. In an instant, I experienced and lived through
the whole Passion of Jesus in my own heart. I was surprised that these
tortures did not deprive me of my life. |
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1664 |
During adoration, Jesus said to me, My daughter, know
that your ardent love and the compassion you have for Me were a consolation
to Me in the Garden [of Olives]. |
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1665 |
During Holy Hour in the evening, I heard the words, You see My mercy for sinners, which at
this moment is revealing itself in all its power. See how little you have
written about it; it is only a single drop. Do what is in your power, so that
sinners may come to know My goodness. |
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1666 |
Good Friday [April 15, 1938]. I saw the Lord
Jesus, tortured, but not nailed to the Cross. It was still before the
crucifixion, and He said to me, You are My Heart. Speak to sinners
about My mercy. And the Lord gave me interior knowledge of the whole abyss of His
mercy for souls, and I learned that that which I had written is truly a drop.
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1667 |
Holy Saturday [April 16, 1938]. During adoration,
the Lord said to me, Be
at peace, My daughter. This Work of mercy is Mine; there is nothing of you in
it. It pleases Me that you are carrying out faithfully what I have commanded
you to do, not adding or taking away a single word. And He gave me an
interior light by which I learned that not a single word was mine; despite
difficulties and adversities, I have always, always, fulfilled His will, as
He has made it known to me. |
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1668 |
The Resurrection. Before the Mass of the
Resurrection, I felt so weak that I lost all hope of participating in the
procession which takes place in the church; and I said to the Lord,
"Jesus, if my prayers are pleasing to You, give me the strength for this
moment that I may take part in the procession." At that same instant, I
felt strong and certain that I could go along with the sisters in the
procession. |
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1669 |
When the procession began, I saw Jesus in a brightness greater than the light of the sun. Jesus
looked at me with love and said, Heart of My Heart, be filled with joy.
At
that moment my spirit was drowned in Him... When I came to myself, I was
walking along in the procession with the sisters, while my soul was totally
immersed in Him... |
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1670 |
+ Easter [April 17, 1938]. During Mass, I thanked
the Lord Jesus for having deigned to redeem us and for having given us that
greatest of all gifts; namely, His love in Holy Communion; that is, His very
own Self. At that moment, I was drawn into the bosom of the Most Holy Trinity,
and I was immersed in the love of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.
These moments are hard to describe. |
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1671 |
At that moment, I prayed to the Lord for a certain
person, and the Lord answered me, This soul is particularly dear to Me. I was immensely happy with
this. The happiness of other souls fills me with a new joy, and when I see
the higher gifts in some soul, my heart soars up to the Lord in a new hymn of
adoration. |
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1672 |
April 19, [1938]. During recreation, one of the
sisters [Sister Cajetan] said, "Sister
Faustina is doing so poorly that she can hardly walk, but may she die soon
because she is going to be a saint." Then one of the sister directresses
[Sister Casimir 246]
said, "That she is going to die, we know; but whether she is going to be
a saint, that is another question." There then began some malicious
remarks on this subject. I kept silent; then I put in a word, but I saw that
the conversation was getting worse, so again I fell silent. |
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1673 |
At present, I am getting letters from sisters who
are in other houses and who made their novitiate with me. 247
They often amuse me and make me laugh, as they usually go something like
this: "Dear Sister Faustina, we are very sorry that you are so gravely
ill; but we are very happy that, when the Lord Jesus takes you away, you will
pray for us, for you have a lot of influence with the Lord.
"One of the sisters put it this way: "When you die, Sister,
please take me under your special care, for certainly you can do that for
me." Another sister wrote as follows: "How I am waiting for the time
when the Lord Jesus will take you, because I know what will happen then; and
I greatly desire death for you." I did want to ask her what she was
thinking of, concerning my death, but I mortified myself and answered,
"The same thing will happen to me, a sinner, as happens to all sinners,
if God's mercy does not shield me." |
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1674 |
April 20, [1938]. Departure for Pradnik. I was very worried that I would be put in bed in
a ward and be exposed to all sorts of things. If it were to be for only a
week or two... but it is for such a long time, two months or perhaps more. In
the evening, I went in for a long talk with the Lord Jesus. When I saw the
Lord Jesus, I poured out my whole heart before Him, all my troubles, fears
and apprehensions. Jesus lovingly listened to me and then said, Be at peace, My
child, I am with you. Go in great peace. All is ready; I have ordered, in My
own special way, a private room to be prepared for you. Reassured and overwhelmed
with gratitude, I went to bed. |
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1675 |
On the following day, Sister Felicia took me
there. I left in great peace and a calm spirit. When we arrived, they told us
there was a private room for Sister Faustina. When we entered the room, we
were surprised that everything had been prepared so beautifully: all was
clean and neat, covered with tablecloths and bedecked with flowers; a pretty
Easter Lamb had been placed on the night table by the Sisters. 248
At once, three Sacred Heart Sisters 249
who work at the sanatorium, my old acquaintances, came and greeted me
warmly. Sister Felicia was surprised at all this. We bid a warm farewell to
each other, and she left. When I was alone, with just the Lord Jesus and
myself, I thanked Him for this great grace. |
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1676 |
Jesus said to me, Be at peace; I am with you.
Tired, I fell asleep. In the evening, the sister [Sister David] who was to
look after me came and said, "Tomorrow you will not receive the Lord
Jesus, Sister, because you are very tired; later on, we shall see." This
hurt me very much, but I said with great calmness, "Very well,"
and, resigning myself totally to the will of the Lord, I tried to sleep. In
the morning, I made my meditation and prepared for Holy Communion, even
though I was not to receive the Lord Jesus. When my love and desire had
reached a high degree, I saw at my bedside a Seraph, who gave me Holy
Communion, 250
saying these words: "Behold the Lord of Angels." When I received
the Lord, my spirit was drowned in the love of God and in amazement. This was
repeated for thirteen days, although I was never
sure he would bring me Holy Communion the next day. Yet, I put my trust
completely in the goodness of God, but did not even dare to think that I
would receive Holy Communion in this way on the following day. |
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1677 |
Once, when a certain doubt rose within me shortly
before Holy Communion, the Seraph with the Lord Jesus stood before me again.
I asked the Lord Jesus, and not receiving an answer, I said to the Seraph,
"Could you perhaps hear my confession?" And he answered me,
"No spirit in heaven has that power." And at that moment, the
Sacred Host rested on my lips. |
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1678 |
On Sunday [April 24, 1938 251],
the sister who had charge of the sick said to me, "Well, Sister, the
priest will bring you the Lord Jesus today." I answered,
"Good," and he brought Him. After some time, I received permission
to leave my bed. So I went to Holy Mass and to spend time with the Lord,
regularly. |
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1679 |
After the first examination, the doctor [Silberg] found that my condition was grave. "We
suspect, Sister, that you do have the illness about
which you spoke to me. But Almighty God can do all things." |
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1680 |
Low Sunday. Today, I again offered myself to the
Lord as a holocaust for sinners. My Jesus, if the end of my life is already
approaching, I beg You most humbly, accept my death in union with You as a
holocaust which I offer You today, while I still have full possession of my
faculties and a fully conscious will, and this for a threefold purpose: |
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1681 |
+ At that moment, the light of God penetrated my
being, and I felt that I was God's exclusive property; and I experienced the
greatest spiritual freedom, of which I had had no previous idea. And at the
same time, I saw the glory of The Divine Mercy and an infinite multitude of
souls who were praising His goodness. My soul was completely drowned in God,
and I heard the words, You are My well-beloved daughter. The vivid presence of God
continued throughout the whole day. |
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1682 |
+ May 1, [1938]. This evening, Jesus said to me, My daughter, do you
need anything? I answered, "O my Love, when I have You I have
everything." And the Lord answered, If souls would put
themselves completely in My care, I Myself would undertake the task of
sanctifying them, and I would lavish even greater graces on them. There are souls who thwart My efforts, but I have not given up on
them; as often as they turn to Me, I hurry to their aid, shielding them with
My mercy, and I give them the first place in My compassionate Heart. |
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1683 |
Write for the benefit
of religious souls that it delights Me to come to their hearts in Holy
Communion. But if there is anyone else in such a heart, I cannot bear it and quickly
leave that heart, taking with Me all the gifts and graces I have prepared for
the soul. And the soul does not even notice My going. After some time, inner
emptiness and dissatisfaction will come to her attention. Oh, if only she
would turn to Me then, I would help her to cleanse her heart, and I would
fulfill everything in her soul; but without her knowledge and consent, I
cannot be the Master of her heart. |
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1684 |
+ I often communicate with persons who are dying
and obtain the divine mercy for them. Oh, how great is the goodness of God,
greater than we can understand. There are moments and there are mysteries of
the divine mercy over which the heavens are astounded. Let our judgment of
souls cease, for God's mercy upon them is extraordinary. |
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1685 |
During Holy Hour today, I asked the Lord Jesus if
He would deign to teach me about the spiritual life. Jesus answered me, My daughter,
faithfully live up to the words which I speak to you. Do not value any
external thing too highly, even if it were to seem very precious to you. Let
go of yourself, and abide with Me continually. Entrust everything to Me and
do nothing on your own, and you will always have
great freedom of spirit. No circumstances or events will ever be able to
upset you. Set little store on what people say. Let everyone judge you as
they like. Do not make excuses for yourself; it will do you no harm. Give
away everything at the first sign of a demand, even if they were the most
necessary things. Do not ask for anything without consulting Me. Allow them
to take away even what is due you-respect, your good name-let your spirit rise above all that. And so, set free from everything,
rest close to My Heart, not allowing your peace to be disturbed by anything.
My pupil, consider the words which I have spoken to you. |
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1686 |
O my Love, my eternal Master, how good it is to
obey; because when obedience infuses the soul, it brings with it power and
strength to act. |
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1687 |
Today I saw the Crucified Lord Jesus. Precious
pearls and diamonds were pouring forth from the wound in His Heart. I saw how
a multitude of souls was gathering these gifts, but there was one soul who
was closest to His Heart and she, knowing the greatness of these gifts, was
gathering them with liberality, not only for herself, but for others as well.
The Savior said to me, Behold, the treasures of grace that
flow down upon souls, but not all souls know how to take advantage of My
generosity. |
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1688 |
Today, the Lord said to me, My daughter, look
into My Merciful Heart and reflect its compassion in your own heart and in
your deeds, so that you, who proclaim My mercy to the world, may yourself be
aflame with it. |
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1689 |
May 8, [1938]. Today, I saw two enormous pillars
implanted in the ground; I had implanted one of them, and a certain person,
S.M., the other. We had done so with unheard-of effort, much fatigue and
difficulty. And when I had implanted the pillar, I myself wondered where such
extraordinary strength had come from. And I recognized that I had not done
this by my own strength, but with the power which came from above. These two
pillars were close to each other, in the area of the image. And I saw the
image, raised up very high and hanging from these two pillars. In an instant,
there stood a large temple, supported both from within and from without, upon
these two pillars. I saw a hand finishing the temple, but I did not see the
person. There was a great multitude of people, inside and outside the temple,
and the torrents issuing from the Compassionate Heart of Jesus were flowing
down upon everyone. |
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1690 |
After Holy Communion today, Jesus said, My daughter give Me
souls. Know that it is your mission to win souls for Me by prayer and
sacrifice, and by encouraging them to trust in My mercy. |
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1691 |
Oh, how greatly I desire the glory of Your
mercy-for me, bitterness and suffering! When I see the glory of Your mercy, I
am immeasurably happy. Let all disgrace, humiliation and abasement come down
upon me, as long as the glory and praise of Your mercy resounds
everywhere-that's all that matters. |
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1692 |
I adore You, Lord and Creator, hidden in the
Blessed Sacrament. I adore You for all the works of Your hands,
that reveal to me so much wisdom, goodness and mercy, O Lord. You have
spread so much beauty over the earth, and it tells me about Your beauty, even
though these beautiful things are but a faint reflection of You,
Incomprehensible Beauty. And although You have hidden Yourself and concealed
Your beauty, my eye, enlightened by faith, reaches You, and my soul
recognizes its Creator, its Highest Good; and my heart is completely immersed
in prayer of adoration. |
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1693 |
As I was writing the above words, I saw the Lord
Jesus leaning over me, and He asked, My daughter, what are you writing? I answered, "I am
writing about You, Jesus, about Your being hidden in the Blessed Sacrament,
about Your inconceivable love and mercy for people." And Jesus said, Secretary of My most
profound mystery, know that yours is an exclusive intimacy with Me. Your task
is to write down everything that I make known to you about My mercy, for the
benefit of those who by reading these things will be comforted in their souls
and will have the courage to approach Me. I therefore want you to devote all
your free moments to writing. "But, O Lord, shall I always have a moment,
at least a brief one, in which to write?" And Jesus answered,
It
is not for you to think about that. Only do as much as you can, and I will
always arrange things so that you will easily be able to do what I ask of
you... |
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1694 |
Today, I was visited by a certain lay person
[probably Stanislava Kwietniewska]
who has caused me a lot of sorrow and who has abused my goodness, telling
many lies. At the first moment I saw her, the blood froze in my veins,
because there stood before my eyes all that I had to suffer because of her,
although with one word I could have freed myself of them all. And the thought
came to me to tell her the truth, firmly and immediately. But at the same
moment, the mercy of God came before my eyes, and I resolved to act toward
her as Jesus would have acted in my place. I started to talk to her gently,
and when she expressed the wish to talk to me alone; I then, in a very
delicate manner, made known to her clearly the sad condition of her soul. I
saw that she was deeply moved, though she was trying to hide this from me. At
that point, a third person came in, and so our heart-to-heart talk came to an
end. She asked me for a glass of water and for two other things which I did
willingly. However, had it not been for the grace of God, I would not have
been able to act in such a way toward her. When they left, I thanked God for
the grace which had supported me during that time. |
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1695 |
Then I heard the words, I am glad you behaved
like My true daughter. Be always merciful as I am merciful. Love everyone out
of love for Me, even your greatest enemies, so that My mercy may be fully
reflected in your heart. |
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1696 |
O Christ, although much effort is required, all
things can be done with Your grace. |
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1697 |
I was feeling fairly well today, and I was glad
that I would be able to make the Holy Hour. But when I began to make the Holy
Hour, my physical sufferings intensified, so that I was not able to pray.
When the Holy Hour was over, my sufferings came to an end, and I complained
to the Lord that I had wanted so much to steep myself in His sorrowful
Passion, but that my sufferings had not allowed me to do so. Then Jesus said
to me, My
daughter, know that if I allow you to feel and have a more profound knowledge
of My sufferings, that is a grace from Me. But when
your mind is dimmed and your sufferings are great, it is then that you take
an active part in My Passion, and I am conforming
you more fully to Myself. It is your task to submit yourself to My will at
such times, more than at others... |
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1698 |
l often attend upon the
dying and through entreaties obtain for them trust in God's mercy, and I
implore God for an abundance of divine grace, which is always victorious.
God's mercy sometimes touches the sinner at the last moment in a wondrous and
mysterious way. Outwardly, it seems as if everything were lost, but it is not
so. The soul, illumined by a ray of God's powerful final grace, turns to God
in the last moment with such a power of love that, in an instant, it receives
from God forgiveness of sin and punishment, while outwardly it shows no sign
either of repentance or of contrition, because souls [at that stage] no
longer react to external things. Oh, how beyond comprehension is God's mercy!
But-horror!-there are also souls who voluntarily and consciously reject and
scorn this grace! Although a person is at the point of death, the merciful
God gives the soul that interior vivid moment, so that if the soul is
willing, it has the possibility of returning to God. But sometimes, the
obduracy in souls is so great that consciously they choose hell; they [thus]
make useless all the prayers that other souls offer to God for them and even
the efforts of God Himself... |
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1699 |
J.M.J. |
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1700 |
This evening, the Lord asked me, Do you not have any
desires in your heart? I answered, "I have one great desire, and it
is to be united with You forever." And the Lord answered me, That will happen soon. My
dearest child, your every stirring is reflected in My Heart. My gaze rests
kindly upon you before any other creature. |
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