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Diary Divine Mercy in My Soul ( V: 1551 1589 )
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1551 |
In the meditation on death, I asked the Lord to
deign to fill my heart with those sentiments which I will have at the moment
of my death. And through God's grace I received an interior reply that I had
done what was within my power and so could be at peace. At that moment, such
profound gratitude to God was awakened in my soul that I burst into tears of
joy like a little child. I prepared to receive Holy Communion next morning as
"viaticum," and I said the prayers of the dying 233
for my own intention. |
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1552 |
Then I heard the words: As you are united
with Me in life, so will you be united at the moment of death. After these words, such
great trust in God's great mercy was awakened in my soul that, even if I had
had the sins of the whole world, as well as the sins of all the condemned
souls weighing on my conscience, I would not have doubted God's goodness but,
without hesitation, would have thrown myself into the abyss of the divine
mercy, which is always open to us; and, with a heart crushed to dust, I would
have cast myself at His feet, abandoning myself totally to His holy will,
which is mercy itself. |
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1553 |
O my Jesus, Life of my soul, my Life, my Savior,
my sweetest Bridegroom, and at the same time my Judge, You know that in this
last hour of mine I do not count on any merits of my own, but only on Your
mercy. Even as of today, I immerse myself totally in the abyss of Your mercy,
which is always open to every soul. |
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1554 |
February 1, [1938]. Today I am feeling a little
worse, physically, but I am still taking part in the common life [prayers,
meals, and recreation]. I am making great efforts, known to You alone, Jesus.
In the refectory today, I did not think I would last until the end of the
meal. Every mouthful causes me extreme pain. |
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1555 |
When Mother S. [Irene] visited me a week ago, she
said, "You catch every sickness, Sister, because your system is so weak,
but that is not your fault. In fact, if any other sister had that same
sickness, she would certainly be walking around; whereas you, Sister, must
stay in bed!! These words did not hurt me, but it is better not to make such
comparisons with very sick persons, because their cup is full enough as it
is. Another thing: when sisters visit the sick, they should not ask in detail
every time, "What is hurting you, and how does it hurt?" because it
is very tiresome to keep telling each sister the same thing about oneself.
And it sometimes happens that one must repeat the same thing over and over
many times a day. |
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1556 |
When I had gone to the chapel for a moment, the Lord
gave me to know that, among His chosen ones, there are some who are
especially chosen, and whom He calls to a higher form of holiness, to
exceptional union with Him. These are seraphic souls, from whom God demands
greater love than He does from others. Although all live in the same convent,
yet He sometimes demands of a particular soul a greater degree of love. Such
a soul understands this call, because God makes this known to it interiorly,
but the soul may either follow this call or not. It depends on the soul
itself whether it is faithful to these touches of the Holy Spirit, or whether
it resists them. I have learned that there is a place in purgatory where
souls will pay their debt to God for such transgressions; this kind of
torment is the most difficult of all. The soul which is specially marked by
God will be distinguished everywhere, whether in heaven or in purgatory or in
hell. In heaven, it will be distinguished from other souls by greater glory
and radiance and deeper knowledge of God. In purgatory, by greater pain,
because it knows God more profoundly and desires Him more vehemently. In
hell, it will suffer more profoundly than other souls, because it knows more
fully whom it has lost. This indelible mark of God's exclusive love, in the
[soul], will not be obliterated. |
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1557 |
O Jesus, keep me in holy fear, so that I may not
waste graces. Help me to be faithful to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit.
Grant that my heart may burst for love of You, rather than I should neglect
even one act of love for You. |
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1558 |
February 2, [1938]. Darkness of the soul. Today is
the Feast of the Mother of God, and in my soul it is so dark. The Lord has
hidden Himself, and I am alone, all alone. My mind has become so dimmed that
I see only phantasies about me. Not a single ray of light penetrates my soul.
I do not understand myself or those who speak to me. Frightful temptations
regarding the holy faith assail me. O my Jesus, save me. I cannot say
anything more. I cannot describe these things in detail, for I fear lest
someone be scandalized on reading this. I am astounded that such torments
could befall a soul. O hurricane, what are you doing to the boat of my heart?
This storm has lasted the whole day and night. |
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1559 |
At that moment I saw Jesus, and from His Heart
there issued those same two rays, which enveloped me, whole and entire. At
the same moment, all my torments vanished. My daughter, the Lord said, know that of yourself
you are just what you have gone through, and it is only by My grace that you
are a participant of eternal life and all the gifts I lavish on you. And with these words of
the Lord, there came to me a true knowledge of myself. Jesus is giving me a
lesson in deep humility and, at the same time, one of total trust in Him. My
heart is reduced to dust and ashes, and even if all people were to trample me
under their feet, I would still consider that a favor. |
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1560 |
February 3, [1938]. Today after Holy Communion,
Jesus again gave me a few directives: First, do not fight against a
temptation by yourself, but disclose it to the confessor at once, and then
the temptation will lose all its force. Second, during these ordeals do not
lose your peace; live in My presence; ask My Mother and the Saints for help.
Third, have the certitude that I am looking at you and supporting you.
Fourth, do not fear either struggles of the soul or any temptations, because
I am supporting you; if only you are willing to fight, know that the victory
is always on your side. Fifth, know that by fighting bravely you give Me
great glory and amass merits for yourself. Temptation gives you a chance to
show Me your fidelity. |
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1561 |
And now I am going to
tell you something that is most important for you: boundless sincerity with
your spiritual director. If you do not take advantage of this great grace
according to My instructions, I will take him away from you, and then you
will be left to yourself; and all the torments, which you know very well,
will return to you. It displeases Me that you do not take advantage of the
opportunity when you are able to see him and talk with him. Know that it is a
great grace on My part when I give a spiritual director to a soul. Many souls
ask Me for this, but it is not to all that I grant this grace. From the
moment when I gave you this priest as spiritual director, I endowed him with
new light so that he might easily know and understand your soul... |
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1562 |
O my Jesus, my only mercy, allow me to see
contentment in Your face as a sign of reconciliation with me, because my
heart cannot bear Your seriousness; if this continues a moment longer my
heart will burst with grief. You see that I am even now crushed to dust. |
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1563 |
And at that very moment I saw myself in some kind
of a palace; and Jesus gave me His hand, sat me at His side, and said with
kindness, My
bride, you always please Me by your humility. The greatest misery does not
stop Me from uniting Myself to a soul, but where there is pride, I am not
there. |
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1564 |
Jesus, hide me; just as You have hidden Yourself
under the form of the white Host, so hide me from human eyes, and
particularly hide the gifts which You so kindly grant me. May I not betray
outwardly what You are effecting in my soul. I am a white host before You, O
Divine Priest. Consecrate me Yourself, and may my transubstantiation be known
only to You. I stand before You each day as a sacrificial host and implore
Your mercy upon the world. In silence, and unseen, I will empty myself before
You; my pure and undivided love will burn, in profound silence, as a
holocaust. And may the fragrance of my love be wafted to the foot of Your
throne. You are the Lord of lords, but You delight in innocent and humble
souls. |
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1565 |
When I entered the chapel for a moment, the Lord
said to me,
My daughter, help Me to save a certain dying sinner. Say the chaplet that I
have taught you for him. When I began to say the chaplet, I saw the man
dying in the midst of terrible torment and struggle. His Guardian Angel was
defending him, but he was, as it were, powerless against the enormity of the
soul's misery. A multitude of devils was waiting for the soul. But while I
was saying the chaplet, I saw Jesus just as He is depicted in the image. The
rays which issued from Jesus' Heart enveloped the sick man, and the powers of
darkness fled in panic. The sick man peacefully breathed his last. When I
came to myself, I understood how very important the chaplet was for the
dying. It appeases the anger of God. |
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1566 |
When I was apologizing to the Lord Jesus for a
certain action of mine which, a little later, turned out to be imperfect,
Jesus put me at ease with these words: My daughter, I reward you for the
purity of your intention which you had at the time when you acted. My Heart
rejoiced that you had My love under consideration at the time you acted, and
that in so distinct a way; and even now you still derive benefit from this;
that is, from the humiliation. Yes, My child, I want you to always have such
great purity of intention in the very least things you undertake. |
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1567 |
As I took the pen in hand, I addressed a short
prayer to the Holy Spirit and said, "Jesus, bless this pen so that
everything You order me to write may be for the glory of God." Then I
heard a voice: Yes,
I bless [it],
because this writing bears the seal of obedience to your superior and confessor,
and by that very fact I am already given glory, and many souls will be
drawing profit from it. My daughter, I demand that you devote all your free
moments to writing about My goodness and mercy. It is your office and your
assignment throughout your life to continue to make known to souls the great
mercy I have for them and to exhort them to trust in My bottomless mercy. |
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1568 |
O my Jesus, I believe in Your words and no longer
have any doubt about this because in the course of one conversation with Mother
Superior [Irene], she told me to write more about Your mercy. That statement
was very much in accord with Your request. O my Jesus, I now understand that
if You demand something from a soul, You also inspire the superiors to allow
us to fulfill Your demands, even though it sometimes happens that we do not
receive permission at once, and our patience is often put to the test... |
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1569 |
+ O Everlasting Love, Jesus, who have enclosed
Yourself in the Host, |
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1570 |
O Greatly Merciful God, Infinite Goodness, today
all mankind calls out from the abyss of its misery to Your mercy-to Your compassion,
O God; and it is with its mighty voice of misery that it cries out. Gracious
God, do not reject the prayer of this earth's exiles! O Lord, Goodness beyond
our understanding, Who are acquainted with our misery through and through,
and know that by our own power we cannot ascend to You, we implore You:
anticipate us with Your grace and keep on increasing Your mercy in us, that
we may faithfully do Your holy will all through our life and at death's hour.
Let the omnipotence of Your mercy shield us from the darts of our salvation's
enemies, that we may with confidence, as Your children, await Your final
coming-that day known to You alone. And we expect to obtain everything
promised us by Jesus in spite of all our wretchedness. For Jesus is our Hope:
Through His merciful Heart, as through an open gate, we pass through to
heaven. |
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1571 |
I have noticed that, from the very moment I
entered the convent, I have been charged with one thing; namely, that I am a
saint. But this word was always used scoffingly. At
first, this hurt me very much, but when I had risen above it, I paid no
attention to it. However, when on one occasion a certain person [perhaps
Father Sopocko] suffered because of my sanctity, I was very pained that,
because of me, others can experience some unpleasantness. And I began to
complain to the Lord Jesus, asking why this should be so, and the Lord
answered me, Are
you sad because of this? Of course you are a saint. Soon I Myself will make
this manifest in you, and they will pronounce the same word, saint, only
this time it will be with love. |
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1572 |
I remind you, My
daughter, that as often as you hear the clock strike the third hour, immerse
yourself completely in My mercy, adoring and glorifying it; invoke its
omnipotence for the whole world, and particularly for poor sinners; for at
that moment mercy was opened wide for every soul. In this hour you can obtain
everything for yourself and for others for the asking; it was the hour of
grace for the whole world-mercy triumphed over justice. |
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1573 |
+ O my God, I am overcome with great longing for
You today. Oh, nothing else any longer occupies my heart. The earth no longer
contains anything for me. O Jesus, how strongly I feel this exile, how very
prolonged it is for me! O death, messenger of God, when will you announce to
me that longed-for moment, through which I will be united to my God forever? |
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1574 |
O my Jesus, may the last days of my exile be spent
totally according to Your most holy will. I unite my sufferings, my
bitterness and my last agony itself to Your Sacred Passion; and I offer
myself for the whole world to implore an abundance of God's mercy for souls,
and in particular for the souls who are in our homes. I firmly trust and
commit myself entirely to Your holy will, which is mercy itself. Your mercy
will be everything for me at the last hour, as You yourself have promised
me... |
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1575 |
+ Hail to You, Eternal Love, my Sweet Jesus, who have
condescended to dwell in my heart! I salute You, O glorious Godhead who have
deigned to stoop to me, and out of love for me have so emptied Yourself as to
assume the insignificant form of bread. I salute You, Jesus, never-fading
flower of humanity. You are all there is for my soul. Your love is purer than
a lily, and Your presence is more pleasing to me than the fragrance of a
hyacinth. Your friendship is more tender and subtle than the scent of a rose,
and yet it is stronger than death. O Jesus, incomprehensible beauty, it is
with pure souls that You communicate best, because they alone are capable of
heroism and sacrifice. O sweet, rose-red blood of Jesus, ennoble my blood and
change it into Your own blood, and let this be done to me according to Your
good pleasure. |
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1576 |
Know, My daughter,
that between Me and you there is a bottomless abyss, an abyss which separates
the Creator from the creature. But this abyss is filled with My mercy. I
raise you up to Myself, not that I have need of you, but it is solely out of
mercy that I grant you the grace of union with Myself. |
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1577 |
Tell souls not to
place within their own hearts obstacles to My mercy, which so greatly wants
to act within them. My mercy works in all those hearts which open their doors
to it. Both the sinner and the righteous person have need of My mercy.
Conversion, as well as perseverance, is a grace of My mercy. |
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1578 |
Let souls who are
striving for perfection particularly adore My mercy, because the abundance of
graces which I grant them flows from My mercy. I desire that these souls
distinguish themselves by boundless trust in My mercy. I myself will attend
to the sanctification of such souls. I will provide them with everything they
will need to attain sanctity. The graces of My mercy are drawn by means of
one vessel only, and that is-trust. The more a soul trusts, the more it will
receive. Souls that trust boundlessly are a great comfort to Me, because I
pour all the treasures of My graces into them. I rejoice that they ask for
much, because it is My desire to give much, very much. On the other hand, I
am sad when souls ask for little, when they narrow their hearts. |
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1579 |
+ It is when I meet with hypocrisy that I suffer
most. Now I understand You, my Savior, for rebuking the pharisees
so severly for their hypocrisy. You associated more
graciously with hardened sinners when they approached You contritely. |
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1580 |
My Jesus, I now see that I have gone through all
the stages of my life following You: childhood, youth, vocation, apostolic
work, Tabor, Gethsemane, and now I am already with You on Calvary. I have
willingly allowed myself to be crucified, and I am indeed already crucified;
although I can still walk a little, I am stretched out on the cross, and I
feel distinctly that strength is flowing to me from Your Cross, that You and
You alone are my perseverance. Although I often hear the voice of temptation
calling to me, "Come down from the cross!" the power of God
strengthens me. Although loneliness and darkness and sufferings of all kinds
beat against my heart, the mysterious power of God supports and strengthens
me. I want to drink the cup to the last drop. I trust firmly that Your grace,
which has sustained me in the Garden of Olives, will sustain me also now that
I am on Calvary. |
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1581 |
O my Jesus, my Master, I unite my desires to the
desires that You had on the cross: I desire to fulfill Your holy will; I
desire the conversion of souls; I desire that Your mercy be adored; I desire
that the triumph of the Church be hastened; I desire the Feast of Mercy to be
celebrated all over the world; I desire sanctity for priests; I desire that
there be a saint in our Congregation; I desire that our whole Congregation
have a great spirit of zeal for the glory of God and for the salvation of
souls; I desire that souls who live in our homes do not offend God, but
persevere in good; I desire that the blessing of God descend upon my parents
and my whole family; I desire that God give special light to my spiritual
directors, and in particular to Father An. and Father So.; I desire a special
blessing for Superiors 234
under whose direction I have been, and in particular for Mother , General
[Michael], for Mother Irene and for the Directress of Novices, Mother [Mary]
Joseph. |
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1582 |
O my Jesus, I now embrace the whole world and ask
You for mercy for it. When You tell me, O God, that it is enough, that Your
holy will has been completely accomplished, then, my Savior, in union with
You, I will commit my soul into the hands of the Heavenly Father, full of trust
in Your unfathomable mercy. And when I stand at the foot of Your throne, the
first hymn that I will sing will be one to Your mercy. Poor earth, I will not
forget you. Although I feel that I will be immediately drowned in God as in
an ocean of happiness, that will not be an obstacle to my returning to earth
to encourage souls and incite them to trust in God's mercy. Indeed, this
immersion in God will give me the possibility of boundless action. |
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1583 |
As I write this, I hear Satan grinding his teeth.
He cannot stand God's mercy, and keeps banging things in my cell. But I feel
so much of God's power within me that it does not even bother me that the
enemy of our salvation gets angry, and I quietly keep on writing. |
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1584 |
O inconceivable goodness of God, which shields us
at every step, may Your mercy be praised without cease. That You became a
brother to humans, not to angels, is a miracle of the unfathomable mystery of
Your mercy. All our trust is in You, our first-born Brother, Jesus Christ,
true God and true Man. My heart flutters with joy to see how good God is to
us wretched and ungrateful people. And as a proof of His love, He gives us
the incomprehensible gift of Himself in the person of His Son. Throughout all
eternity we shall never exhaust that mystery of love. O mankind, why do you
think so little about God being truly among us? O Lamb of God, I do not know
what to admire in You first: Your gentleness, Your hidden life, the emptying
of Yourself for the sake of man, or the constant miracle of Your mercy, which
transforms souls and raises them up to eternal life. Although You are hidden
in this way, Your omnipotence is more manifest here than in the creation of
man. Though the omnipotence of Your mercy is at work in the justification of
the sinner, yet Your action is gentle and hidden. |
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1585 |
A vision of the Mother of God. In the midst of a
great brilliance, I saw the Mother of God clothed in a white gown, girt about
with a golden cincture; and there were tiny stars, also of gold, over the
whole garment, and chevron-shaped sleeves lined with gold. Her cloak was
sky-blue, lightly thrown over the shoulders. A transparent veil was
delicately drawn over her head, while her flowing hair was set off
beautifully by a golden crown which terminated in little crosses. On Her left
arm She held the Child Jesus. A Blessed Mother of this type I had not yet
seen. Then She looked at me kindly and said: I am the Mother of God of
Priests. 235
At that, She lowered Jesus from Her arm to the ground, raised Her right hand
heavenward and said: O God, bless Poland, bless priests. Then She
addressed me once again: Tell the priests what you have seen. I
resolved that at the first opportunity [I would have] of seeing Father
[Andrasz] I would tell; but I myself can make nothing of this vision. |
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1586 |
O my Jesus, You see how very grateful I am to
Father Sopocko, who has advanced Your work so much. That soul, so humble, has
had to endure all the storms. He has not allowed himself to become
discouraged by adversities, but has faithfully responded to the call of God. |
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1587 |
+ One of the sisters was appointed to look after
the sick, but she was so negligent that one had to practice real
mortification. One day, I made up my mind to tell the superior about it, but
then I heard a voice in my soul: Bear it patiently; someone else will
tell her. But the service was like that for a whole month. When I was finally
able to come down to the refectory and to recreation, I heard these words in
my soul:
Now other sisters are going to tell about that sister's negligent service,
but you are to keep silent and not speak about the matter. And at that point there
broke out sharp criticism of the sister, but she could find nothing [to say]
in her own defense, and all the sisters said in chorus, "Sister, you had
better improve in your care of the sick." I have found that sometimes
the Lord does not want us to say something on our own; He has His ways and
knows when to speak out. |
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1588 |
Today I heard the words: In the Old Covenant I
sent prophets wielding thunderbolts to My people. Today I am sending you with
My mercy to the people of the whole world. I do not want to punish aching
mankind, but I desire to heal it, pressing it to My Merciful Heart. I use
punishment when they themselves force Me to do so; My hand is reluctant to
take hold of the sword of justice. Before the Day of Justice I am sending the
Day of Mercy. I replied, "O my Jesus, speak to souls Yourself, because my
words are insignificant." |
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1589 |
I do not know, O Lord, at what hour You will come. |
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