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Diary Divine Mercy in My Soul ( V: 1501 1550 )
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1501 |
+ Now that I have difficulty sleeping at night,
because my suffering won't allow it, I visit all the churches and chapels
and, if only for a brief moment, I make an act of adoration before the
Blessed Sacrament. When I return to my chapel, I then pray for certain
priests who proclaim and glorify The Divine Mercy. I also pray for the
intentions of the Holy Father and to obtain mercy for sinners-such are my
nights. |
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1502 |
January 20, 1938. I never cringe before anyone. I
can't bear flattery, for humility is nothing but the truth. There is no
cringing in true humility. Although I consider myself the least in the whole
convent, on the other hand, I enjoy the honor of being the bride of Christ.
Little matter that often I hear people say that I am proud, for I know that
human judgment does not discern the motives for our actions. |
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1503 |
When, at the beginning of my religious life,
following the novitiate, I began to exercise myself particularly in humility,
the humiliations that God sent me were not enough for me. And so, in my
excessive zeal, I looked for more of them on my own, and I often represented
myself to my superiors other than I was in reality and spoke of miseries of
which I had no notion. But a short time later, Jesus gave me to know that
humility is only the truth. From that time on, I changed my ideas, faithfully
following the light of Jesus. I learned that if a soul is with Jesus, He will
not permit it to err. |
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1504 |
+ Lord, You know that since my youth I have always
sought Your will and, recognizing it, have always tried to carry it out. My
heart has been accustomed to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit, to whom I
am faithful. In the midst of the greatest din I have heard the voice of God.
I always know what is going on in my interior... |
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1505 |
I am striving for sanctity, because in this way I
shall be useful to the Church. I make constant efforts in practicing virtue.
I try faithfully to follow Jesus. And I deposit this whole series of daily
virtues-silent, hidden, almost imperceptible, but made with great love-in the
treasury of God's Church for the common benefit of souls. I feel interiorly as
if I were responsible for all souls. I know very well that I do not live for
myself alone, but for the entire Church... |
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1506 |
+ O incomprehensible God, my heart dissolves in
joy that You have allowed me to penetrate the mysteries of Your mercy! Everything
begins with Your mercy and ends with Your mercy. |
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1507 |
All grace flows from mercy, and the last hour
abounds with mercy for us. Let no one doubt concerning the goodness of God;
even if a person's sins were as dark as night, God's mercy is stronger than
our misery. One thing alone is necessary: that the sinner set ajar the door
of his heart, be it ever so little, to let in a ray of God's merciful grace,
and then God will do the rest. But poor is the soul who has shut the door on
God's mercy, even at the last hour. It was just such souls who plunged Jesus
into deadly sorrow in the Garden of Olives; indeed, it was from His Most
Merciful Heart that divine mercy flowed out. |
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1508 |
January 21, [1938]. Jesus, how truly dreadful it
would be to suffer if it were not for You. But it is You, Jesus, stretched
out on the cross, who give me strength and are
always close to the suffering soul. Creatures will abandon a person in his
suffering, but You, O Lord, are faithful... |
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1509 |
It often happens when one is ill, as in the case
of Job in the Old Testament, that as long as one can move about and work,
everything is fine and dandy; but when God sends illness, somehow or other,
there are fewer friends about. But yet, there are some. They still take interest
in our suffering and all that, but if God sends a longer illness, even those
faithful friends slowly begin to desert us. They visit us less frequently,
and often their visits cause suffering. Instead of comforting us, they
reproach us about certain things, which is an occasion of a good deal of
suffering. And so the soul, like Job, is alone; but fortunately it is not
alone, because Jesus Host is with it. |
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1510 |
One evening, when I was feeling so bad that I
wondered how I would get back to my cell, I came across the Sister Assistant
[Sister Seraphina], who was asking one of the
sisters of the first choir to go to the gate with a certain message. But when
she saw me, she said to her, "No, Sister, you need not go, but Sister
Faustina will, because it is raining heavily." I answered, "All
right," and went and carried out the order, but only God knows the whole
of it. This is just one example among many. Sometimes it would seem that a
sister of the second choir 232
is made of stone, but she also is human and has a heart and feelings... |
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1511 |
At such times, God Himself comes to our rescue,
for otherwise the soul would not be able to bear these crosses of which I
haven't even begun to write, nor do I intend to do so now. But when I feel
the inspiration to do so, I will write about them... |
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1512 |
Today, during Mass, I saw the Lord Jesus in the
midst of His sufferings, as though dying on the cross. He said to me, My daughter, meditate
frequently on the sufferings which I have undergone for your sake, and then
nothing of what you suffer for Me will seem great to you. You please Me most
when you meditate on My Sorrowful Passion. Join your little sufferings to My
Sorrowful Passion, so that they may have infinite value before My Majesty. |
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1513 |
+ Jesus said to me today, You often call Me
your Master. This is pleasing to My Heart; but do not forget, My disciple,
that you are a disciple of a crucified Master. Let that one word be enough
for you. You know what is contained in the cross. |
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1514 |
+ I have learned that the greatest power is hidden
in patience. I see that patience always leads to victory, although not
immediately; but that victory will become manifest after many years. Patience
is linked to meekness. |
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1515 |
+ I spent this whole night with Jesus in the dark
dungeon. This was a night of adoration. The sisters were praying in the
chapel, and I was uniting myself with them in spirit, because poor health
prevents me from going to the chapel. But all night long I could not fall
asleep, so I spent the night in the dark prison with Jesus. Jesus gave me to
know of the sufferings He experienced there. The world will learn about them
on the day of judgment. |
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1516 |
My daughter, tell
souls that I am giving them My mercy as a defense. I Myself am fighting for
them and am bearing the just anger of My Father. |
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1517 |
Say, My daughter, that
the Feast of My Mercy has issued forth from My very depths for the
consolation of the whole world. |
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1518 |
Jesus, my peace and my rest, I beg You to give
light to that sister, so that she may change interiorly, Support her
powerfully with Your grace, so that she, too, may attain perfection. |
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1519 |
+ Today before Holy Communion, the Lord said to
me,
My daughter, today talk openly to the Superior [Mother Irene] about My mercy
because, of all the superiors, she has taken the greatest part in proclaiming
My mercy. And in fact, Mother Superior came this afternoon, and we talked
about this Work of God. Mother told me that the images had not come out too
well and were not selling very well. "But," she said, "I have
taken a good quantity myself and am distributing them wherever I can and do
the best I can to spread the Work of Mercy." When she had gone, the Lord
gave me to know how pleasing this soul was to Him. |
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1520 |
Today the Lord said to me, I have opened My
Heart as a living fountain of mercy. Let all souls draw life from it. Let
them approach this sea of mercy with great trust. Sinners will attain
justification, and the just will be confirmed in good. Whoever places his
trust in My mercy will be filled with My divine peace at the hour of death. |
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1521 |
The Lord said to me, My daughter, do not tire of proclaiming My mercy. In this way you will
refresh this Heart of Mine, which burns with a flame of pity for sinners.
Tell My priests that hardened sinners will repent on hearing their words when
they speak about My unfathomable mercy, about the compassion I have for them
in My Heart. To priests who proclaim and extol My mercy, I will give wondrous
power; I will anoint their words and touch the hearts of those to whom they
will speak. |
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1522 |
Community life is difficult in itself, but it is
doubly difficult to get along with proud souls. "O God, give me ' a
deeper faith that I may always see in every sister Your holy image which has
been engraved in her soul... |
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1523 |
Everlasting love, pure flame, burn in my heart
ceaselessly and deify my whole being, according to Your infinite pleasure by
which You summoned me into existence and called me to take part in Your
everlasting happiness. O merciful Lord, it is only out of mercy that You have
lavished these gifts upon me. Seeing all these free gifts within me, with
deep humility I worship Your incomprehensible goodness. Lord, my heart is
filled with amazement that You, absolute Lord, in need of no one, would
nevertheless stoop so low out of pure love for us. I can never help being
amazed that the Lord would have such an intimate relationship with His
creatures. That again is His unfathomable goodness. Every time I begin this
meditation, I never finish it, because my spirit becomes entirely drowned in
Him. What a delight it is to love with all the force of one's soul and to be
loved even more in return, to feel and experience this with the full
consciousness of one's being. There are no words to express this. |
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1524 |
January 25, 1938. My Jesus, how good and patient
You are! You often look upon us as little children. We often beg You, but we
don't know what for, because towards the end of the prayer, when You give us
what we have asked for, we do not want to accept it. |
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1525 |
One day, a certain sister came to me and asked me
for prayers, telling me that she could no longer stand things as they were.
"And so, please pray, Sister." I answered that I would, and I began
a novena to The Divine Mercy. I learned that God would give her the grace,
but that she would once again be dissatisfied when she received it. However,
I kept on praying as she had asked me to do. The next day, the same sister
came looking for me, and when we again began to talk about the same thing, I
told her, "You know, Sister, when we pray, we ought not force the Lord
God to give us what we want, but we should rather submit to His holy
will." But she thought that what she was asking for was indispensable.
Towards the end of the novena, the sister came again and said, "O
Sister, the Lord Jesus has given me the grace, but now I am of a different
mind. Please pray so that things will somehow be different again." I
answered, "Yes, I will pray, but that God's will be done in you, Sister,
and not what you want." |
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1526 |
Most Merciful Heart of Jesus, protect us from the
just anger of God. |
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1527 |
+ A certain sister is constantly persecuting me
for the sole reason that God communes with me so intimately, and she thinks
that this is all pretense on my part. When, she thinks that I have done
something amiss she says, "Some people have revelations, but commit such
faults!" She has said this to all the sisters and always in a derogatory
sense, in order to make me out as some sort of an oddity. One day, it caused
me much pain to think that this insignificant drop which is the human brain
can so easily scrutinize the gifts of God. After Holy Communion, I prayed
that the Lord would enlighten her, but nevertheless I learned that this soul
will not attain perfection if she does not change her interior dispositions. |
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1528 |
+ When I complained to the Lord Jesus about a
certain person [saying], "Jesus, how can this person pass judgment like
that, even about an intention?" the Lord answered, Do not be surprised.
That soul does not even know her own self, so how could she pass a fair
judgment on another soul? |
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1529 |
Today I saw Father Andrasz at prayer. I also knew
that he was interceding with the Lord for me. The Lord sometimes makes known
to me who is praying for me. |
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1530 |
I am keeping myself a bit in the background, as
though this work of God did not interest me. I am not speaking about it at
present, but my whole soul is steeped in prayer, and I am entreating God to
be so good as to hasten this great gift; that is to say, the Feast of Mercy.
And I see that Jesus is acting, and is Himself giving the directives as to
how this is to be carried out. Nothing happens by accident. |
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1531 |
Today I said to the Lord Jesus, "Do You see
how many difficulties there are [to be overcome] before they will believe
that You yourself are the author of this work? And even now, not everyone
believes in it." Be at peace, My child; nothing can
oppose My will. In spite of the murmuring and hostility of the sisters, My
will shall be done in you in all its fullness, down to the last detail of My
wishes and My designs. Do not become sad about this; I too was a stumbling
stone for some souls. |
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1532 |
+ Jesus complained to me of how painful to Him is
the unfaithfulness of chosen souls, and My heart is even more wounded by
their distrust after a fall. It would be less painful if they had not
experienced the goodness of My heart. |
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1533 |
I saw the anger of God hanging heavy over Poland.
And now I see that if God were to visit our country with the greatest chastisements, that would still be great mercy because,
for such grave transgressions, He could punish us with eternal annihilation.
I was paralyzed with fear when the Lord lifted the veil a little for me. Now
I see clearly that chosen souls keep the world in existence to fulfill the
measure [of justice]. |
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1534 |
+ I saw a certain priest's efforts in prayer. His
prayer is similar to that of the Lord Jesus in the Garden of Olives. Oh, if
that priest [probably Father Sopocko] only knew how pleasing to God that
prayer was! |
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1535 |
O Jesus, I am locking myself in Your most merciful
heart as in a fortress, impregnable against the missiles of my enemies. |
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1536 |
Today I found myself in the presence of a certain
dying person who was approaching death in my home neighborhood. I supported
her with my prayers and, after a few moments, I felt for a short while pain
in my hands, feet and side... |
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1537 |
January 27, 1938. During Holy Hour today, Jesus
complained to me about the ingratitude of souls: |
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1538 |
At that moment, love for Jesus was enkindled so
strongly in my heart that, offering myself for ungrateful souls, I immersed
myself completely in Him. When I came to my senses, the Lord allowed me to
taste a little, of the ingratitude which flooded His Heart. This experience
lasted for a short while. |
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1539 |
Today I said to the Lord, "When will You take
me to Yourself? I've been feeling so ill, and I've been waiting for Your
coming with such longing!" Jesus answered me, Be always ready; I
will not leave you in this exile for long. My holy will must be fulfilled in
you.
O Lord, if Your holy will has not yet been entirely fulfilled in me, here I
am, ready for everything that You want, O Lord! O my Jesus, there is only one
thing which surprises me; namely, that You make so many secrets known to me;
but that one secret-the hour of my death-You do not want to tell me. And the
Lord answered me, Be
at peace; I will let you know, but not just now. Ah, my Lord, I beg Your
pardon for wanting to know this. You know very well why, because You know my
yearning heart, which is eagerly going out to You. You know that I would not
want to die even a minute before the time which You have appointed for me
before the ages. Jesus listened with wondrous kindness to the outpourings of
my heart. |
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1540 |
January 28, 1938. Today the Lord said to me, My daughter, write
down these words: All those souls who will glorify My mercy and spread its
worship, encouraging others to trust in My mercy, will not experience terror
at the hour of death. My mercy will shield them in that final battle... |
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1541 |
My daughter,
encourage souls to say the chaplet which I have given to you. It pleases Me
to grant everything they ask of Me by saying the chaplet. When hardened
sinners say it, I will fill their souls with peace, and the hour of their
death will be a happy one. |
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1542 |
At that moment, the Lord gave me to know how
jealous He is of my heart. |
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1543 |
Today toward evening, the Lord said to me, Entrust yourself
completely to Me at the hour of death, and I will present you to My Father as
My bride. And now I recommend that you unite, in a special way, even your
smallest deeds to My merits, and then My Father will look upon them with love
as if they were My own. |
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1544 |
Do not change your
particular examen which I have given you through Father
Andrasz; namely, that you unite yourself with Me continually. That is what I
am clearly asking of you today. Be a child toward My representatives, because
I borrow their lips to speak to you, so that you will have no doubts about
anything. |
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1545 |
My health has improved somewhat. I went down to
the refectory and the chapel today. I still cannot resume my duties, and so I
stay in my cell at the hand-loom [making borders for altar linens]. I enjoy
this work very much, but still, even with such light work, I tire easily. I
see how feeble I am. There are no indifferent moments in my life, since every
moment of my life is filled with prayer, suffering and work. If not in one
way, then in another, I glorify God; and if God were to give me a second
life, I do not know whether I would make better use of it... |
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1546 |
The Lord said to me, I am delighted with
your love. Your sincere love is as pleasing to My Heart as the fragrance of a
rosebud at morningtide, before the sun has taken
the dew from it. The freshness of your heart captivates Me; that is why I unite Myself with you more closely than with any
other creature... |
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1547 |
Today I saw the efforts of this priest [Father
Sopocko] concerning the affairs of God. His heart is beginning to taste that
which filled God's Heart during His earthly life. In recompense for his
efforts-ingratitude... But he is very zealous for the glory of God... |
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1548 |
January 30, 1938. One-day retreat. |
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1549 |
I want to live in the spirit of faith. I accept
everything that comes my way as given me by the loving will of God, who
sincerely desires my happiness. And so I will accept with submission and
gratitude everything that God sends me. I will pay no attention to the voice
of nature and to the promptings of self-love. Before each important action, I
will stop to consider for a moment what relationship it has to eternal life
and what may be the main reason for my undertaking it: is it for the glory of
God, or for the good of my own soul, or for the good of the souls of others?
If my heart says yes, then I will not swerve from carrying out the given
action, unmindful of either obstacles or sacrifices. I will not be frightened
into abandoning my intention. It is enough for me to know that it is pleasing
to God. On the other hand, if I learn that the action has nothing in common
with what I have just mentioned, I will try to elevate it to a loftier sphere
by means of a good intention. And if I learn that something flows from my
self-love, I will cancel it out right from the start. |
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1550 |
In cases of doubt, I will not act, but will
scrupulously seek clarifications from the priests,
and in particular from my spiritual director. I will not give explanations on
my own behalf when someone reproaches me or criticizes me, unless I am
directly asked to bear witness to the truth. With great patience, I will
listen when others open their hearts to me, accept their sufferings, give
them spiritual comfort, but drown my own sufferings in the most merciful
Heart of Jesus. I will never leave the depths of His mercy, while bringing
the whole world into those depths. |
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