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Diary Divine Mercy in My Soul ( IV: 1231 1321 ) |
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1231 |
+ J.M.J. |
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1232
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O sweet Mother of God, |
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1233 |
Sr. Mary Faustina of the Blessed Sacrament |
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1234 |
All for You, Jesus. I desire to adore Your mercy
with every beat of my heart and, to the extent that I am able, to encourage
souls to trust in that mercy, as You yourself have commanded me, O Lord. |
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1235 |
In my heart, in my soul, there is a dark night. My
spirit has come up against an impenetrable wall that hides God from me. But
this darkness is not of my doing. Strange indeed is this torture of which I
fear to write in full. But even in this state, I am trying to be faithful to
You, O my Jesus. Always and in all things, my heart beats for You alone. |
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1236 |
August 10, 1937. I came back today from Rabka to Cracow. I feel very ill. Only Jesus knows how
much I am suffering. During these days, I have very much resembled Jesus
Crucified. I have armed myself with patience in order to explain to each
sister why I was not able to stay there; that is, because my health had
become worse, even though I knew very well that certain sisters would
inquire, not out of sympathy for my sufferings, but in order to add to them. |
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1237 |
O Jesus, what darkness is enveloping me and what
nothingness is penetrating me. But, my Jesus, do not leave me alone; grant me
the grace of faithfulness. Although I cannot penetrate the mystery of God's
visitation, it is in my power to say: Your will be done. |
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1238 |
August 12. On passing through Cracow, Rev. Father
Sopocko paid me a short visit today. I had wanted to see him, and God
fulfilled my desire. This priest is a great soul, entirely filled with God.
My joy was very great, and I thanked God for this great grace, because it was
for the greater glory of God that I wanted to see him. |
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1239 |
O living Host, O hidden Jesus. You see the
condition of my soul. Of myself, I am unable to utter Your Holy Name. I
cannot bring forth from my heart the fire of love but, kneeling at Your feet,
I cast upon the Tabernacle the gaze of my soul, a gaze of faithfulness. As
for You, You are ever the same, while within my soul a change takes place. I
trust that the time will come when You will unveil Your countenance, and Your
child will again see Your sweet face. I am astonished, Jesus, that You can
hide yourself from me for so long and that You can restrain the enormous love
You have for me. In the dwelling of my heart, I am listening and waiting for
Your coming, O only Treasure of my heart! |
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1240 |
The Lord Jesus greatly protects His
representatives on earth. How closely He is united with them; and He orders
me to give priority to their opinion over His. I have come to know the great
intimacy which exists between Jesus and the priest. Jesus defends whatever
the priest says, and often complies with his wishes, and sometimes makes His
own relationship with a soul depend on the priest's advice. O Jesus, through
a special grace, I have come to know very clearly to what extent You have
shared Your power and mystery with them, more so than with the Angels. I
rejoice in this, for it is all for my good. |
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1241 |
+ 0 my Jesus, when someone is unkind and
unpleasant toward us, it is difficult enough to bear this kind of suffering.
But this is very little in comparison to a suffering which I cannot bear;
namely, that which I experience when someone exhibits kindness towards me and
then lays snares at my feet at every step I take. What great will power is
necessary to love such a soul for God's sake. Many a
time one has to be heroic in loving such a soul as God demands. If contact
with that person were infrequent, it would be easier to endure, but when one
lives in close contact with the person and experiences this at each step, this demands a very great effort. |
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1242 |
My Jesus, penetrate me through and through so that
I might be able to reflect You in my whole life. Divinize me so that my deeds
may have supernatural value. Grant that I may have love, compassion and mercy
for every soul without exception. O my Jesus, each of Your saints reflects
one of Your virtues; I desire to reflect Your compassionate heart, full of
mercy; I want to glorify it. Let Your mercy, O Jesus, be impressed upon my
heart and soul like a seal, and this will be my badge in this and the future
life. Glorifying Your mercy is the exclusive task of my life. |
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1243 |
"These times of dryness and stark awareness
of one's wretchedness, which God has permitted, allow the soul to know how
little it can do by itself. They will teach you how much you should
appreciate God's graces. Secondly, faithfulness in all exercises and duties,
faithfulness in everything, just as in times of joy. Thirdly, as regards the
matters in question, be absolutely obedient to the Archbishop [Jalbrzykowski] although, from time to time, the matter
can be brought to his attention, but peacefully. Sometimes, a little bitter
truth is necessary." |
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1244 |
August 15, 1937. During meditation, God's presence
pervaded me keenly, and I was aware of the Virgin Mary's joy at the moment of
Her Assumption. Towards the end of the ceremony carried out in honor of the
Mother of God, I saw the Virgin Mary, and She said to me, Oh, how very
pleased I am with the homage of your love! And at that moment She covered all
the sisters of our Congregation with Her mantle. With Her right hand, She
clasped Mother General Michael to herself, and with Her left hand She did so
to me, while all the sisters were at Her feet, covered with Her mantle. Then
the Mother of God said, Everyone who perseveres zealously till death in
My Congregation will be spared the fire of purgatory, and I desire that each
one distinguish herself by the following virtues: humility and meekness;
chastity and love of God and neighbor; compassion and mercy. After these
words, the whole Congregation disappeared from my sight, and I remained alone
with the Most Holy Mother who instructed me about the will of God and how to
apply it to my life, submitting completely to His most holy decrees. It is
impossible for one to please God without obeying His holy will. My
daughter, I strongly recommend that you faithfully fulfill all God's wishes,
for that is most pleasing in His holy eyes. I very much desire that you
distinguish yourself in this faithfulness in accomplishing God's will. Put
the will of God before all sacrifices and holocausts. While the heavenly
Mother was talking to me, a deep understanding of this will of God was
entering my soul. |
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1245 |
My Jesus, delight of my heart, when my soul is
filled with Your divinity, I accept sweetness and bitterness with the same
equanimity. One and the other will pass away. All that I keep in my soul is
the love of God. For this I strive; all else is secondary. |
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1246 |
16 [August 1937]. After Holy Communion, I saw the
Lord Jesus in all His majesty, and He said to me, My daughter, during
the weeks when you neither saw Me nor felt My presence, I was more profoundly
united to you than at times [when you experienced] ecstasy. And the
faithfulness and fragrance of your prayer have reached Me. After these words, my
soul became flooded with God's consolation. I did not see Jesus, and there
was only one word I could utter and that was: "Jesus." And after
pronouncing that Name, my soul was again filled with light and deeper
recollection, which lasted uninterruptedly for three days. However, outwardly
I could still carry out my usual duties. |
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1247 |
I came to know of the condition of a certain soul
and of what in that soul is displeasing to God. I learn it in the following
way: I immediately feel pain in my hands, my feet and my side, in those
places where the hands, feet and side of the Savior were pierced. At that
same time, I receive knowledge of the soul's condition and of the nature of
the sin committed. |
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1248 |
I experience a desire to make reparation to the
Lord Jesus in a way which corresponds [to the offense]. Today I wore a chain
belt for seven hours in order to obtain the grace of repentance for that
soul. In the seventh hour I felt relief as the soul experienced interiorly
the remission of its sin, although it had not yet gone to confession. For
sins of the flesh, I mortify the body and fast to the degree that I am
permitted. For sins of pride, I pray with my forehead touching the floor. For
sins of hatred, I pray and do some good deed for a person whom I find
difficult. And thus I make amends according to the nature of the sin of which
I am aware. |
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1249 |
19 [August 1937]. Today during adoration, the Lord
gave me to know how much He desires a soul to distinguish itself by deeds of
love. And in spirit I saw how many souls are calling out to us, "Give us
God." And the blood of the Apostles boiled up within me. I will not be
stingy with it; I will shed it all to the last drop for immortal souls.
Although perhaps God will not demand that in the physical sense, in spirit it
is possible and no less meritorious. |
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1250 |
Today I realized that I was not to ask for a certain permission, but that I was to respond to this
matter as the Mother of God would have me do. For the present, no
explanations are necessary; peace has returned to me. I received this
inspiration just as I was on my way to make my examination of conscience, and
I was very worried because I did not know how to go about it. Divine light
can do more in one moment than I, fatiguing myself for several days. |
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1251 |
August 22. This morning Saint Barbara, Virgin,
visited me and recommended that I offer Holy Communion for nine days on
behalf of my country and thus appease. God's anger. This virgin was wearing a
crown made of stars and was holding a sword in her hand. The brilliance of
the crown was the same as that of the sword. With her white dress and her
flowing hair, she was so beautiful that if I had not already known the Virgin
Mary I would have thought that it was She. Now I understand that each virgin
has a special beauty all her own; a distinct beauty radiates from each of
them. |
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1252 |
+ August 25, 1937. Today Reverend Father Sopocko
arrived and will stay with us until the 30th. I was extremely glad, because
only God knows how ardently I wished to see him for the sake of the Work God
is doing through him, and this, even though the visit had some unpleasant
aspects to it as well. |
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1253 |
+ While he was celebrating Mass, I saw during the
elevation the Crucified Lord Jesus, who was disengaging His right arm from
the cross, and the light which was coming from the Wound was touching his
arm. This happened in the course of three Masses, and I understood that God
would give him strength to carry out this work despite difficulties and
opposition. This soul, who is pleasing to God, is being crucified by numerous
sufferings, but I am not at all surprised, for this is how God treats those
He especially loves. |
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1254 |
+ Today, the 29th, I received permission [207] to have a longer
conversation with Rev. Dr. Sopocko. I learned that, although there are
difficulties, the work is moving ahead, and that the Feast of Mercy is
already far advanced. It will not be long now before it becomes a reality,
but much prayer is still needed to bring an end to certain difficulties. |
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1255 |
"As concerns yourself, Sister, it is good
that you are remaining in a state of holy indifference in everything that
pertains to the will of God, and that you are better maintaining a state of
equilibrium. Please do your best to keep this equanimity. Now, as regards all
these matters, you are to depend exclusively on Father Andrasz; I am in
complete agreement with him. Do nothing on your own, Sister, but in all
matters take counsel from your spiritual director. I beg you to keep your
levelheadedness and as great a calm as possible. One more thing-I am having
printed the chaplet which is to be on the back of the image, as well as the
invocations that resemble a litany; these too will be placed on the back.
Another large image has also been printed, and with it a few pages which
contain the Novena to The Divine Mercy. [208] Pray, Sister,
that this be approved." |
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1256 |
[August] 30. Reverend Father Sopocko left this
morning. When I was steeped in a prayer of thanksgiving for the great grace
that I had received from God; namely, that of seeing Father, I became united
in a special way with the Lord who said to me, He is a priest after
My own Heart; his efforts are pleasing to Me. You see, My daughter, that My
will must be done and that which I had promised you, I shall do. Through him
I spread comfort to suffering and careworn souls. Through him it pleased Me
to proclaim the worship of My mercy. And through this work of mercy more
souls will come close to Me than otherwise would have, even if he had kept
giving absolution day and night for the rest of his life, because by so
doing, he would have labored only for as long as he lived; whereas, thanks to
this work of mercy, he will be laboring till the end of the world. |
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1257 |
I had undertaken to make a novena for the
intention of seeing him, but I did not even finish it before God granted me
that grace. |
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1258 |
O my Jesus, how poorly I took advantage of this
grace, but that did not depend on me, though from another point of view, it
did so very much. |
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1259 |
+ During this conversation, I came to know his
anguished soul. This crucified soul resembles the Savior. Where he expects,
with good reason, to find consolation, he finds the cross. He lives among
many friends, but has no one but Jesus. This is how God strips the soul He
especially loves. |
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1260 |
Today I heard these words: My daughter, be
always like a little child towards those who represent Me, otherwise you will
not benefit from the graces I bestow on you through them. |
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1261 |
September 1, 1937. I saw the Lord Jesus, like a
king in great majesty, looking down upon our earth with great severity; but
because of His Mother's intercession He prolonged the time of His mercy. |
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1262 |
September 3. First Friday of the month. During
Holy Mass, I became united with God. Jesus gave me to know that even the
smallest thing does not happen on earth without His will. After having seen
this, my soul entered into an unusual repose; I found myself completely at
peace as to the work in its full extent. God can deal with me as He pleases,
and I will bless Him for everything. |
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1263 |
Up to now, I have been wondering, with some fear,
where these inspirations would lead me. My fear increased when the Lord made
known to me that I was to leave this Congregation. This is the third year
passing by since that time, and my soul has felt, in turns, enthusiasm and an
urge to act-and then I have a lot of courage and strength-and then again,
when the decisive moment to undertake the work draws near, I feel deserted by
God, and because of this an extraordinary fear pervades my soul, and I see
that it is not the hour intended by God to initiate the work. These are
sufferings about which I don't even know how to write. God alone knows what I
put up with, day and night. It seems to me that the worst torments of the
martyrs would be easier for me to bear than what I am going through, though
without the shedding of a drop of blood. But all this is for souls, for
souls, Lord.... |
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1264 |
Act of total abandonment to the will of God, which
is for me, love and mercy itself. |
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1265 |
Prayer. O Jesus, stretched out upon the cross, I
implore You, give me the grace of doing faithfully the most holy will of Your
Father, in all things, always and everywhere. And when this will of God will
seem to me very harsh and difficult to fulfill, it is then I beg You, Jesus,
may power and strength flow upon me from Your wounds, and may my lips keep
repeating, "Your will be done, O Lord." O Savior of the world,
Lover of man's salvation, who in such terrible torment and pain forget
Yourself to think only of the salvation of souls, O most compassionate Jesus,
grant me the grace to forget myself that I may live totally for souls,
helping You in the work of salvation, according to the most holy will of Your
Father.... |
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1266 |
August 5, [1937]. [209] The Lord let me
know how much our dear Mother Superior [Irene] is defending me against... not
only by prayer but also by deed. Thank You, Jesus, for this grace. It will
not go unrequited in my heart; when I am with Jesus, I do not forget about
her. |
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1267 |
September 6, 1937. Today, I begin a new
assignment. I go from the garden to the desert of the gate. [210] I went in to talk
to the Lord for a while. I asked Him for a blessing and for graces to
faithfully carry out the duties entrusted to me. I heard these words: My daughter, I am
always with you. I have given you the opportunity to practice deeds of mercy
which you will perform according to obedience. You will give Me much pleasure
if, each evening, you will speak to Me especially about this task. I felt that Jesus had
given me a new grace in relation to my new duties; but, despite this, I have
locked myself deeper in His Heart. |
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1268 |
Today I felt more ill, but Jesus has given me many
more opportunities on this day to practice virtue. It so happened that I was
busier than usual, and the sister in charge of the kitchen made it clear to
me how irritated she was that I had come late for dinner, although it was
quite impossible for me to have come sooner. At any rate, I felt so unwell
that I had to ask Mother Superior to allow me to lie down. I went to ask
Sister N. to take my place, and again I got a scolding: "What is this,
Sister, you're so exhausted that you're going back to bed again! Confound you
with all this lying in bed!" I put up with all that, but that wasn't the
end. I still had to ask the sister who was in charge of the sick to bring me
my meal. When I told her this, she burst out of the chapel into the corridor
after me to give me a piece of her mind: "Why on earth are you going to
bed, Sister, etc...... I asked her not to bother bringing me anything. I am
writing all this very briefly because it is not my intention to write about
such things, and I am doing so merely to dissuade souls from treating others
in this way, for this is displeasing to the Lord. In a suffering soul we
should see Jesus Crucified, and not a loafer or
burden on the community. A soul who suffers with submission to the will of
God draws down more blessings on the whole convent than all the working
sisters. Poor indeed is a convent where there are no sick sisters. God often
grants many and great graces out of regard for the souls who are suffering,
and He withholds many punishments solely because of the suffering souls. |
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1269 |
O my Jesus, when shall we look upon souls with
higher motives in mind? When will our judgments be true? You give us occasions
to practice deeds of mercy, and instead we use the occasions to pass
judgment. In order to know whether the love of God flourishes in a convent,
one must ask how they treat the sick, the disabled, and the infirm who are there. |
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1270 |
September 10, [1937]. I learned in the course of
meditation that the purer the soul, the greater her communion with God on the
spiritual level. She pays little heed to the senses and their protests. God
is a Spirit, and so I love Him in spirit and in truth. |
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1271 |
When I heard how dangerous it was to be at the
gate these days because of revolutionary disturbances and how many evil
people have a hatred for convents, I went in and had a talk with the Lord and
asked Him to so arrange it that no evil person would dare come to the gate.
Then I heard these words: My daughter, the moment you went to
the gate I set a Cherub over it to guard it. Be at peace. After returning from my
conversation with the Lord, I saw a little white cloud and, in it, a Cherub
with his hands joined. His gaze was like lightning, and I understood how the
fire of God's love burns in that look.... |
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1272 |
September 14, 1937. Exaltation of the Holy Cross.
Today I saw what great opposition this priest [Father Sopocko] is
experiencing in regard to this whole matter. Even devout souls who are
zealous for God's glory are opposing him. That he is not discouraged by all
this is due to a special grace of God. |
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1273 |
Jesus: My daughter, do you think you have
written enough about My mercy? What you have written is but a drop compared
to the ocean. I am Love and Mercy itself. There is no misery that could be a
match for My mercy, neither will misery exhaust it,
because as it is being granted-it increases. The soul that trusts in My mercy
is most fortunate, because I myself take care of it. |
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1274 |
I experience great torments of soul when I see God
offended. Today I recognized that mortal sins were being committed not far
from our door. It was evening. I prayed earnestly in the chapel, and then I
went to scourge myself. When I knelt down to pray, however, the Lord allowed
me to experience how a soul rejected by God suffers. It seems to me that my
heart was torn to pieces, and at the same time I understood how much such a
soul wounds the most merciful Heart of Jesus. The poor creature does not want
to accept God's mercy. The more God has pursued a soul with His mercy, the
more just will He be towards it. |
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1275 |
My Secretary, write
that I am more generous toward sinners than toward the just. It was for their
sake that I came down from heaven; it was for their sake that My Blood was
spilled. Let them not fear to approach Me; they are most in need of My mercy. |
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1276 |
September 16, 1937. I wanted very much to make a
Holy Hour before the Blessed Sacrament today, but God's will was otherwise.
At eight o'clock I was seized with such violent pains that I had to go to bed
at once. I was convulsed with pain for three hours; that is, until eleven
o'clock at night. No medicine had any effect on me, and whatever I swallowed
I threw up. At times, the pains caused me to lose consciousness. Jesus had me
realize that in this way I took part in His Agony in the Garden, and that He
himself allowed these sufferings in order to offer reparation to God for the
souls murdered in the wombs of wicked mothers. I have gone through these
sufferings three times now. They always start at eight o'clock in the evening
and last until eleven. No medicine can lessen these sufferings. When eleven
o'clock comes, they cease by themselves, and I fall asleep at that moment.
The following day, I feel very weak. |
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1277 |
On the day after these sufferings, I can sense the
condition of souls and their disposition towards God; I am pervaded with true
knowledge. |
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1278 |
I receive Holy Communion in the manner of the
angels, so to speak. My soul is filled with God's light and nourishes itself
from Him. My feelings are as if dead. This is a purely spiritual union with
God; it is a great predominance of spirit over nature. |
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1279 |
The Lord gave me knowledge of the graces which He
has been constantly lavishing on me. This light pierced me through and
through, and I came to understand the inconceivable favors that God has been
bestowing on me. I stayed in my cell for a long act of thanksgiving, lying
face down on the ground and shedding tears of gratitude. I could not rise
from the ground because, whenever I tried to do so, God's light gave me new
knowledge of His grace. It was only at the third attempt that I was able to
get up. As His child, I felt that everything the heavenly Father possessed
was equally mine. He himself lifted me from the ground up to His Heart. I
felt that everything that existed was exclusively mine, but I had no desire
for it all, because God alone is enough for me. |
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1280 |
Today I learned with what aversion the Lord comes
to a certain soul in Holy Communion. He goes to that heart as to a dark
prison, to undergo torture and affliction. I kept begging His pardon and
offering atonement for the offense. |
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1281 |
The Lord made known to me that I would see my
brother [Stanley [211] ], but I could
not understand how this would happen or why he should come to visit me. I
knew that God had given him the grace of a religious vocation, but why should
he be coming to visit me? However, I put aside these thoughts and believed
that if the Lord had given me to know he would come, that was enough for me.
I fixed my thoughts on God, putting aside every I
preoccupation with creatures and entrusting everything to the Lord. |
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1282 |
+ When the same poor people come to the gate a
second time, I treat them with greater gentleness, and I do not let them see
that I know they have been here before; [I do this] in order not to embarrass
them. And then they speak to me freely about their troubles and needs. |
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1283 |
Often the Lord gives me interior knowledge
concerning the persons I meet at the gate. One pitiable soul wanted to tell
me a bit about herself. Taking advantage of the
opportunity, I made her understand, in a delicate way, the miserable condition
of her soul. She went away with a better disposition. |
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1284 |
September 17, [1937.] O Jesus, I see so much
beauty scattered around me, beauty for which I give You constant thanks. But
I see that some souls are like stone, always cold and unfeeling. Even
miracles hardly move them. Their eyes are always fixed on their feet, and so
they see nothing but themselves. |
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1285 |
You have surrounded my life with Your tender and
loving care, more than I can comprehend, for I will understand Your goodness
in its entirety only when the veil is lifted. I desire that my whole life be
but one act of thanksgiving to You, O God. |
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1286 |
+ Thank You, O God, for all the graces |
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1287 |
+ Despite the peace in my soul, I fight a
continuous battle with the enemy of my soul. More and more, I am discovering
his traps, and the battle flares up anew. During interludes of calm, I
exercise myself and keep watch, lest the enemy find me unprepared. And when I
see his great fury, I stay inside the stronghold; that is, the Most Sacred
Heart of Jesus. |
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1288 |
September 19, [1937]. Today, the Lord told me, My daughter, write
that it pains Me very much when religious souls receive the Sacrament of Love
merely out of habit, as if they did not distinguish this food. I find neither
faith nor love in their hearts. I go to such souls with great reluctance. It
would be better if they did not receive Me. |
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1289 |
Most sweet Jesus, set on fire my love for You and
transform me into Yourself. Divinize me that my deeds may be pleasing to You.
May this be accomplished by the power of the Holy Communion which I receive daily. Oh, how greatly I desire to be wholly transformed
into You, O Lord! |
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1290 |
September 19, 1937. Today, my own brother,
Stanley, visited me. I rejoiced greatly in this beautiful soul, who also
intends to devote himself to God's service. That is to say, God himself is
drawing him to His love. We talked for a long time about God, about His
goodness. During this conversation with him, l learned how pleasing his soul
was to God. I received permission from Mother Superior to see him more often.
When he asked my advice about entering religion, I replied, "Surely you
know best what God is asking of you." I mentioned the Jesuit Order, but
said, "Enter wherever you like." I promised to pray for him, and I
decided to make a novena to the Sacred Heart through the intercession of
Father Peter Skarga with the promise of having it
announced in the Messenger of the Sacred Heart, [212] because he is
having great difficulties in this matter. I understood that, in this case,
prayer was more useful than advice. |
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1291 |
September 21. Having awakened several times during
the night, I thanked God briefly, but with all my heart, for all the graces
He has given to me and to our Congregation, [and] I reflected on His great
goodness. |
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1292 |
When I received Holy Communion, I said to Him,
"Jesus, I thought about You so many times last night," and Jesus
answered me, And
I thought of you before I called you into being. "Jesus, in what way were You thinking about me?" In terms of admitting
you to My eternal happiness. After these words, my soul was flooded with the
love of God. I could not stop marveling at how much God loves us. |
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1293 |
It so happened that I fell again into a certain
error, in spite of a sincere resolution not to do so-even though the lapse
was a minor imperfection and rather involuntary-and at this I felt such acute
pain in my soul that I interrupted my work and went to the chapel for a
while. Falling at the feet of Jesus, with love and a great deal of pain, I
apologized to the Lord, all the more ashamed because of the fact that in my
conversation with Him after Holy Communion this very morning I had promised
to be faithful to Him. Then I heard these words: If it hadn't been
for this small imperfection, you wouldn't have come to Me. Know that as often
as you come to Me, humbling yourself and asking My forgiveness, I pour out a
superabundance of graces on your soul, and your imperfection vanishes before
My eyes, and I see only your love and your humility. You lose nothing but
gain much... |
|
1294 |
The Lord has given me to know that when a soul
does not accept the graces intended for it, another soul receives them
immediately. O my Jesus, make me worthy of accepting Your graces because, of
myself, I can do nothing. Without Your help, I cannot even utter Your Name
worthily. |
|
1295 |
September 25, [1937.] When I learned how great are the difficulties in this whole work, I went to the
Lord and said, "Jesus, don't You see how they are hindering Your
work?" And I heard a voice in my soul: Do as much as is in
your power, and don't worry about the rest. These difficulties prove that
this work is Mine. Be at peace so long as you do all that is in your power. |
|
1296 |
Today, I opened the gate for Mother Superior and
knew interiorly that she was going to town on business regarding the work of
the Divine Mercy. It is this superior who has contributed most to this whole
work of mercy. |
|
1297 |
Today I imprudently asked two poor children if
they really had nothing to eat at home. The children, without answering me,
walked away from the gate. I understood how difficult it was for them to
speak about their poverty, so I went after them in a hurry and brought. them back, giving them as much as I had permission for. |
|
1298 |
O God, show me Your mercy |
|
1299 |
September 27, [1937]. Today, Mother Superior and I
went to see a certain gentleman [213] where they were
printing and painting small holy cards of The Divine Mercy, and also the
invocations and the chaplet, which have already received approbation. And we were
also to see the improved larger image. [214] It very much
resembles the original. This made me very happy. |
|
1300 |
When I looked at this image, I was pierced with such
a lively love for God that, for a moment, I did not know where I was. When we
had finished our business, we went to the Church of the Most Holy Virgin
Mary. We attended Holy Mass, during which the Lord gave me to know what a
great number of souls would attain salvation through this work. Then I
entered into an intimate conversation with the Lord, thanking Him for having
condescended to grant me the grace of seeing how the veneration of His
unfathomable mercy is spreading. I immersed myself in a profound prayer of
thanksgiving. Oh, how great is God's generosity! Blessed be the Lord, who is
faithful in His promises... |
|
1301 |
It is extraordinary how Mother Irene has so much
light from God concerning this whole matter. She was the first to allow me to
carry out the Lord's wishes, although it was not until two years after the
revelation that she became my superior. And despite this fact, she was the
first to go with me when the painting of the image was first undertaken. And
now again, when some things concerning the Divine Mercy are being published,
and small holy cards are being printed, again it is she who is going with me
[to take care of] this matter. God has ordained all this in a mysterious way,
because this was begun in Vilnius, and now God's will has so directed the
circumstances that this matter is being continued in Cracow. I know how
pleasing this superior is to God; I see how God is directing everything and
wants me to be under her protection during these important times.... Thank
You, Lord, for such superiors, who live in the love and fear of God. That is
why I pray for her most of all, because she has put herself out the most for
the sake of this work of Divine Mercy.... |
|
1302 |
September 29, [1937]. Today, I have come to
understand many of God's mysteries. I have come to know that Holy Communion
remains in me until the next Holy Communion. A vivid and clearly felt
presence of God continues in my soul. The awareness of this plunges me into
deep recollection, without the slightest effort on my part. My heart is a
living tabernacle in which the living Host is reserved. I have never sought
God in some far-off place, but within myself. It is in the depths of my own
being that I commune with my God. |
|
1303 |
My God, despite all the graces, I long without
cease to be eternally united with my God; and the better I know Him, the more
ardently I desire Him. |
|
1304 |
With longing I gaze into the starlit sky, |
|
1305 |
A certain person came to the door today and asked
to be admitted as one of our students. But she could not be admitted. She was
in great need of our house. During the conversation which I had with her, the
Passion of Jesus was renewed in me. When she had gone, I undertook one of the
severest mortifications. Nevertheless, the next time I will not let such a
soul get away. For three days I suffered much on her account. How much I
regret that our institutions are so small and that they cannot accommodate a
greater number of souls. My Jesus, You know how much I grieve over every
straying sheep.... |
|
1306 |
+ O humility, lovely flower, I see how few souls
possess you. Is it because you are so beautiful and at the same time so
difficult to attain? O yes, it is both the one and the other. Even God takes
great pleasure in her. The floodgates of heaven are open to a humble soul,
and a sea of graces flows down upon her. O how beautiful is a humble soul!
From her heart, as from a censer, rises a varied and most pleasing fragrance
which breaks through the skies and reaches God himself, filling His Most
Sacred Heart with joy. God refuses nothing to such a soul; she is
all-powerful and influences the destiny of the whole world. God raises such a
soul up to His very throne, and the more she humbles herself, the more God
stoops down to her, pursuing her with His graces and accompanying her at
every moment with His omnipotence. Such a soul is most deeply united with
God. O humility, strike deep roots in my whole being. O Virgin most pure, but
also most humble, help me to attain deep humility. Now I understand why there
are so few saints; it is because so few souls are deeply humble. |
|
1307 |
Eternal Love, Depth of Mercy, O Triune Holiness,
yet One God, whose bosom is full of love for all, as
a good Father You scorn no one. O Love of God, Living Fountain, pour Yourself
out upon us, Your unworthy creatures. May our misery not hold back the
torrents of Your love, for indeed, there is no limit to Your mercy. |
|
1308 |
+ Jesus, I have noticed that You seem to be less
concerned with me.
Yes, My child, I am replacing Myself with your spiritual director [Father Andrasz]. He is taking care
of you according to My will. Respect his every word as My own. He is the veil
behind which I am hiding. Your director and I are one; his words are My
words. |
|
1309 |
When I make the Way of the Cross, I am deeply
moved at the twelfth station. Here I reflect on the omnipotence of God's
mercy which passed through the Heart of Jesus. In this open wound of the
Heart of Jesus I enclose all poor humans... and those individuals whom I
love, as often as I make the Way of the Cross. From that Fount of Mercy
issued the two rays; that is, the Blood and the Water. With the immensity of
their grace they flood the whole world.... |
|
1310 |
When one is ill and weak, one must constantly make
efforts to measure up to what others are doing as a matter of course. But
even those matter-of-course things cannot always be managed. Nevertheless,
thank You, Jesus, for everything, because it is not the greatness of the
works, but the greatness of the effort that will be rewarded. What is done
out of love is not small, O my Jesus, for Your eyes see everything. I do not
know why I feel so terribly unwell in the morning; I have to muster all my
strength to get out of bed, sometimes even to the point of heroism. The
thought of Holy Communion gives me back a little more strength. And so, the
day starts with a struggle and ends with a struggle. When I go to take my
rest, I feel like a soldier returning from the battlefield. You alone, my
Lord and Master, know what this day has contained. |
|
1311 |
Meditation. During meditation, the sister on the
kneeler next to mine keeps coughing and clearing her throat, sometimes
without a break. It occurred to me once that I might take another place for
the time of the meditation, because Mass had already been offered. But then I
thought that if I did change my place, the sister would notice this and might
feel hurt that I had moved away from her. So I decided to continue in prayer
in my usual place, and to offer this act of patience to God. Toward the end
of the meditation, my soul was flooded with God's consolation,
and this to the limit of what my heart could bear; and the Lord gave me to
know that if I had moved away from that sister I would have moved away also
from those graces that flowed into my soul. |
|
1312 |
+ Jesus came to the main entrance today, under the
guise of a poor young man. This young man, emaciated, barefoot and
bareheaded, and with his clothes in tatters, was frozen because the day was
cold and rainy. He asked for something hot to eat. So I went to the kitchen,
but found nothing there for the poor. But, after searching around for some
time, I succeeded in finding some soup, which I reheated
and into which I crumbled some bread, and I gave it to the poor young man,
who ate it. As I was taking the bowl from him, he gave me to know that He was
the Lord of heaven and earth. When I saw Him as He was, He vanished from my
sight. When I went back in and reflected on what had happened at the gate, I
heard these words in my soul: My daughter, the blessings of the poor
who bless Me as they leave this gate have reached My ears. And your
compassion, within the bounds of obedience, has pleased Me, and this is why I
came down from My throne-to taste the fruits of your mercy. |
|
1313 |
O my Jesus, now everything is clear to me, and I
understand all that has just happened. I somehow felt and asked myself what
sort of a poor man is this who radiates such modesty. From that moment on,
there was stirred up in my heart an even purer love toward the poor and the
needy. Oh, how happy I am that my superiors have given me such a task! I
understand that mercy is manifold; one can do good
always and everywhere and at all times. An ardent love of God sees all around
itself constant opportunities to share itself through deed, word and prayer.
Now I understand the words which You spoke to me, O Lord, some time ago. |
|
1314 |
+ Oh, what great efforts I must make to carry out
my duties well when my health is so poor! This will be known to You alone, 0
Christ. |
|
1315 |
+ In times of interior desolation I do not lose my
peace, because I know that God never abandons a soul, except perhaps only
when the soul itself breaks the bond of love by its unfaithfulness. However,
all creatures without exception depend on the Lord and are maintained by His
omnipotence. Some are under the rule of love, others under the rule of
justice. It depends on us under which rule we want to live, because no one is
refused the aid of sufficient grace. I am not frightened at all by my
apparent abandonment. I examine myself more profoundly to discover whether
this is due to my fault. If this is not the case-then may [the Lord] be
blessed! |
|
1316 |
October 1, 1937. Daughter, I need
sacrifice lovingly accomplished, because that alone has meaning for Me. Enormous
indeed are the debts of the world which are due to Me; pure souls can pay
them by their sacrifice, exercising mercy in spirit. |
|
1317 |
I understand Your words, Lord, and the magnitude
of the mercy that ought to shine in my soul. Jesus: I know, My daughter,
that you understand it and that you do everything within your power. But
write this for the many souls who are often worried because they do not have
the material means with which to carry out an act of mercy. Yet spiritual
mercy, which requires neither permissions nor storehouses, is much more
meritorious and is within the grasp of every soul. If a soul does not
exercise mercy somehow or other, it will not obtain My mercy on the day of
judgment. Oh, if only souls knew how to gather eternal treasure for
themselves, they would not be judged, for they would forestall My judgment
with their mercy. |
|
1318 |
October 10, [1937]. O my Jesus, in thanksgiving
for Your many graces, I offer You my body and soul, intellect and will, and
all the sentiments of my heart. Through the vows, I have given myself
entirely to You; I have then nothing more that I
can offer You. Jesus said to me, My daughter, you have not offered Me
that which is really yours. I probed deeply into myself and found that I love
God with all the faculties of my soul and, unable to see what it was that I
had not yet given to the Lord, I asked, "Jesus, tell me what it is, and
I will give it to You at once with a generous heart." Jesus said to me
with kindness,
Daughter, give Me your misery, because it is your
exclusive property. At that moment, a ray of light illumined my soul, and I saw the whole
abyss of my misery. In that same moment I nestled close to the Most Sacred
Heart of Jesus with so much trust that even if I had the sins of all the
damned weighing on my conscience, I would not have doubted God's mercy but,
with a heart crushed to dust, I would have thrown myself into the abyss of
Your mercy. I believe, O Jesus, that You would not
reject me, but would absolve me through the hand of Your representative. |
|
1319 |
You expired, Jesus, but the source of life gushed
forth for souls, and the ocean of mercy opened up for the whole world. O
Fount of Life, unfathomable Divine Mercy, envelop
the whole world and empty Yourself out upon us. |
|
1320 |
At three o'clock,
implore My mercy, especially for sinners; and, if only for a brief moment,
immerse yourself in My Passion, particularly in My abandonment at the moment
of agony. This is the hour of great mercy for the whole world. I will allow
you to enter into My mortal sorrow. In this hour, I will refuse nothing to
the soul that makes a request of Me in virtue of My Passion.... |
|
1321 |
Hail, most merciful Heart of Jesus, |
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