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Diary
Divine Mercy in My Soul ( II: 951
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+ O incomprehensible and limitless Mercy Divine, To
extol and adore You worthily, who can? Supreme attribute of Almighty God, You are the sweet hope for
sinful man. |
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952 |
My
Jesus, You see that Your holy will is everything to me. It makes no
difference to me what You do with me. You command me to set to work-and I
begin calmly, although I know that I am incapable of it; through Your
representatives, You order me to waitso I wait
patiently; You fill my soul with enthusiasmbut You
do not make it possible for me to act; You attract me to yourself in
heaven-and You leave me in this world; You pour into my soul a great yearning
for yourself-and You hide yourself from me. I am dying of the desire to be
united with You forever, and You do not let death come near me. O will of God, you are the nourishment and delight of my
soul. When I submit to the holy will of my God, a deep peace floods my soul. |
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February 15, 1937. Today my suffering increased somewhat: I not only feel
greater pain all through my lungs, but also some strange pains in my
intestines. I am suffering as much as my weak nature can bear, all for
immortal souls, to plead the mercy of God for poor sinners and to beg for
strength for priests. Oh, how much reverence I have for priests; and I am
asking Jesus, the High Priest, to grant them many graces. |
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954 |
Today
after Holy Communion, the Lord told me, My daughter, My delight is to unite myself with you. It is when you submit
yourself to My will that you give Me the greatest glory and draw down upon yourself
a sea of blessings. I would not take such special delight in you if you were
not living by my will. O my
sweet Guest, I am prepared for all sacrifices for Your sake, but You know
that I am weakness itself. Nevertheless, with You I can do all things. O my
Jesus, I beseech You, be with me at each instant. |
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955 |
February
15, 1937. Today, I heard these words in my soul: Host pleasing to My Father, know, My daughter, that the entire
Holy Trinity finds Its special delight in you, because you live exclusively
by the will of God. No sacrifice can compare with this. |
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After these words, the knowledge of God's will came to me; that is to say, I
now see everything from a higher point of view and accept all events and
things, pleasant and unpleasant, with love, as tokens of the heavenly
Father's special affection. |
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957 |
The
pure offering of my will will burn on the altar of
love. That my sacrifice may be perfect, I unite myself closely with the sacrifice
of Jesus on the cross. When great sufferings will cause my nature to tremble,
and my physical and spiritual strength will diminish, then will I hide myself
deep in the open wound of the Heart of Jesus, silent as a dove, without complaint. Let all my desires, even the holiest, noblest
and most beautiful, take always the last place and Your holy will, the very
first. The least of Your desires, O Lord, is more precious to me than heaven,
with all its treasures. I know very well that people will not understand me;
that is why my sacrifice will be purer in Your eyes.
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Some
days ago, a certain person came to me and asked me to pray for her intention,
as she had some urgent and important business. All of a sudden, I felt in my
soul that this matter was not pleasing to God, and I replied that I would not
pray for this intention, "but I will pray for you, in general" [I
added]. A few days later, this lady came back to me and thanked me for not
having prayed for her intention, but rather for her, because she had been
motivated by a spirit of revenge toward a certain person to whom she owed
respect and veneration in virtue of the fourth commandment. The Lord Jesus
had changed her interior [dispositions], and she herself acknowledged her
guilt; but was, however, surprised that I had penetrated her secret. |
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Today I received a letter from Father Sopocko, who sent me greetings for my
feast day [February 15]. His greetings gave me joy, but his poor health made
me sad. I had known about this by interior intuition, but had not quite
believed it. But it seems to me that if he himself wrote that this was so,
then the other things about which he did not write are also true, and my
interior knowledge has not deceived me. He requested me to underline all that
I know does not come from me; that is to say, all
that Jesus tells me which I hear in my soul. [172] He has already asked me to do this
several times, but I did not have the time and, to tell the truth, I was in
no hurry to do so. But how does he know that I have not done this? I was very
surprised; but now I am setting about this work with all my heart. O my
Jesus, Your representative's will is clearly Your holy will, without a shadow
of a doubt. |
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February
16, 1937. Today I entered a neighboring room by mistake and so, for a while,
I talked with the person who was there. When I returned to my own room, I
thought about that person for a few moments. Then suddenly, Jesus stood by my
side and said, My daughter, what
are you thinking about right now?
Without thinking, I snuggled close to His heart, because I realized that I
had been thinking too much about creatures. |
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This morning after completing my spiritual exercises, I began at once to
crochet. I sensed a stillness in my heart; I sensed
that Jesus was resting in it. That deep and sweet consciousness of God's
presence prompted me to say to the Lord, "O Most Holy Trinity dwelling
in my heart, I beg You: grant the grace of conversion to as many souls as the
[number of] stitches that I will make today with this crochet hook."
Then I heard these words in my soul: My
daughter, too great are your demands. "Jesus, You know that for You it is easier to grant much rather
than a little." That is so, it is less difficult for Me to grant a soul much
rather than a little, but every conversion of a sinful soul demands
sacrifice. "Well, Jesus,
I offer You this whole-hearted work of mine; this offering does not seem to
me to be too small for such a large number of souls; You know, Jesus, that
for thirty years You were saving souls by just this kind of work. And since
holy obedience forbids me to perform great penances and mortifications,
therefore I ask You, Lord: accept these mere nothings stamped with the seal
of obedience as great things." Then I heard a voice in my soul: My dear daughter, I comply with your request. |
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I often see a certain person dear to God. The Lord has great love for him,
not only because he is striving to spread the veneration of God's mercy, but
also because of the love he has for the Lord God, although he does not always
feel this love in his own heart and is almost always in Gethsemane. However,
this person is always pleasing to God, and his great patience will overcome
all difficulties. |
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Oh, if only the suffering soul knew how it is loved by God, it would die of
joy and excess of happiness! Some day, we will know
the value of suffering, but then we will no longer be able to suffer. The
present moment is ours. |
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February
17, 1937. This morning during Holy Mass, I saw the Suffering Jesus, His Passion was imprinted on my body in an
invisible manner, but no less painfully. |
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965 |
Jesus
looked at me and said, Souls perish in spite of My bitter Passion. I am giving them
the last hope of salvation; that is, the Feast of My Mercy. If they will not
adore My mercy, they will perish for all eternity. Secretary of My mercy, write, tell souls about this great mercy of Mine, because
the awful day, the day of My justice, is near. |
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Today, I heard in my soul these words: My
daughter, it is time for you to take action; I am with you. Great
persecutions and sufferings are in store for you, but be comforted by the
thought that many souls will be saved and sanctified by this work. |
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When I set to work at underlining the Lord's words and thus was going through
everything in sequence, I reached the page where I had marked down Father Andrasz's advice and directions. I did not know what to
do, to underline or not to underline, and then I heard these words in my
soul: Underline, because
these words are Mine; I have borrowed the lips of the friend of My Heart in
order to speak to you and reassure you. You are to observe these directions
until your death. It would not please Me at all if you were to disobey these
directions. Know that it is I who have placed him
between Myself and your soul. I am doing this to set you at peace and so that
you may not err. |
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Since I have placed you in this priest's special care, you are
thus exempted from giving a detailed account to your superiors concerning My
relationship with you. In all other matters, be as a child with your
superiors, but whatever I do in the depths of your soul is to be told, with
all frankness, only to the priests. |
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969 |
+Today,
I went to meditate before the Blessed Sacrament [in the sanatorium chapel].
When I approached the altar, God's presence pervaded my soul, I was plunged
into the ocean of His divinity, and Jesus said to me, My daughter, all that exists is yours. I answered the Lord, "My heart wants nothing
but You alone, O Treasure of my heart. For all the gifts You give me, thank
you, O Lord, but I desire only Your Heart. Though the heavens are immense,
they are nothing to me without You. You know very well, O Jesus,
that I am constantly swooning because of my longing for You." Know this, My daughter, that you are already
tasting now what other souls will obtain only in eternity. |
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970 |
And
all of a sudden, my soul was flooded with the light of the knowledge of God.
Oh, would that I could express even a little of what my soul experiences when
resting near the Heart of the incomprehensible Majesty! I cannot put it into
words. Only a soul who has experienced such a grace
at least once in his life, will recognize it. When I returned to my room, it
seemed to me that I was coming from real life to death. When the doctor came
to take my pulse, he was surprised: "Sister, what happened? You have
never had a pulse like this! I would like to know what has speeded it up so
much." What could I tell him, when I myself did not know that my pulse
was so rapid. I only know that I am dying of yearning for God, but this I did
not tell him, for how can medicine help in this instance? |
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February
19, 1937. Contact with the dying. They ask me for prayer, and I can pray, as
the Lord grants me an extraordinary spirit of prayer. I am constantly united
with Him, and I am fully aware that I live for souls in order to bring them
to Your mercy, 0 Lord. In this matter, no sacrifice is too insignificant. |
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972 |
Today,
the doctor decided that I am to stay here until April. It is God's will, even
though I did want to be back in the company of my sisters. |
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973 |
I
learned today about the death of one of our sisters [173] who died in Plock, but she visited me
even before they told me about her death. |
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February
22, 1937. Today, there began in our chapel a retreat
for the hospital attendants, although anyone who wishes may take part in it.
There is one conference a day. Father Bonaventure [174] speaks for a whole hour, and he speaks
directly to souls. I took part in this retreat, as I very much desire to know
God more deeply and to love Him more ardently, for I have understood that the
greater the knowledge, the stronger the love. |
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975 |
Today
I heard these words: Pray for souls that
they be not afraid to approach the tribunal of My mercy. Do not grow weary of
praying for sinners. You know what a burden their souls are to My Heart.
Relieve My deathly sorrow; dispense My mercy. |
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February
24, 1937. Today during Holy Mass, I saw the dying Jesus. The sufferings of
the Lord pierced my soul and body in an invisible manner. The pain is
enormous, though it lasts a very short time. |
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977 |
During
the singing of the Lenten Lamentations, I am so taken up with His Passion
that I cannot withhold my tears. I would like to hide somewhere in order to
give myself freely to the sorrow which flows from the consideration of His
Passion. |
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978 |
When
I was praying for the intention of Father Andrasz, I learned how very
pleasing he is to God. Since then, I have had even greater respect for him,
as for a saint. This has given me great joy, and I thank God fervently for
it. |
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979 |
Today
at Benediction, I saw Jesus, and He spoke these words to me: Be obedient to your director in everything; his word is My
will. Be certain in the depths of your soul that it is I who am speaking
through his lips, and I desire that you reveal the state of your soul to him
with the same simplicity and candor as you have with Me. I say it again, My
daughter: know that his word is My will for you. |
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980 |
Today,
I saw the Lord in great beauty, and He said to me, My loving host, pray for priests, especially during this time
of harvest. My Heart is pleased with you, and for your sake I am blessing the
earth. |
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981 |
I
understood that these two years of interior suffering which I have undergone
in submission to God's will in order to know it better have advanced me further
in perfection than the previous ten years. For two years now, I have been on
the cross between heaven and earth. That is to say, I am bound by the vow of
obedience and must obey the superior as God himself. And on the other hand,
God makes His will known to me directly, and so my
inner torture is so great that no one will either understand or imagine these
spiritual sufferings. It seems to me that it would be easier to give up my
life than to go again and again through one hour of such pain. I am not even
going to write much about this matter, because one cannot describe what it is
like to know God's will directly and at the same time to be perfectly
obedient to the divine will as expressed indirectly through the superiors.
Thanks be to God that He has given me a director;
otherwise, I would not have advanced one single step. |
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I recently received a lovely letter from my dear seventeen-year-old sister
[Wanda [175]]. She is begging and entreating me to
help her enter the convent. She is ready for any sacrifices for God. I can
tell from her letter that the Lord himself is guiding her, and I rejoice in
God's great mercy. |
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Today, the Majesty of God enveloped and transpierced my soul to its very
depths. The greatness of God is pervading my being and flooding me so that I
am completely drowning in His greatness. I am dissolving and disappearing
entirely in Him as in my life-source, as in perfect life. |
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984 |
My
Jesus, I understand well that my perfection consists not in the fact that You
command me to carry out these great works of Yours-Oh no!-the soul's
greatness does not consist in this, but in great love for You. O Jesus, in
the depths of my soul I understand that the greatest achievements cannot
compare with one act of pure love for You. I desire to be faithful to You and
to do Your bidding. I am making use of my strength and my reason to carry out
all You are asking of me, O Lord, but I have not the least shadow of
attachment to all this. I do it all because such is Your will. All my love is
drowned, not in Your works, but in You yourself, O my Creator and Lord! |
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985 |
February
25, 1937. I prayed earnestly for a happy death on behalf of a certain soul
who was suffering much. For two weeks, she had remained between life and
death. I was touched with pity for her and said to the Lord, "Sweet
Jesus, if the works I am undertaking for Your glory are pleasing to You, then
please take her to Yourself and let her rest in Your mercy." I was
strangely reassured; and, after a short while, they came to tell me that the
person who had been suffering so much had just died. |
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986 |
I
saw a certain priest [probably Father Sopocko] in need and prayed for him
until Jesus looked upon him with kindness and granted him His strength. |
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987 |
Today,
I came to know that a member of my family is offending God and is in great
peril of death. This knowledge pierced my soul with such great pain that I
thought I would not survive that offense against God. I begged God's pardon,
but I saw His great anger. |
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988 |
I
was praying for a certain priest [probably Father Sopocko], asking God to
help him in certain matters when I suddenly saw Jesus Crucified. His eyes
were closed, and He was immersed in torture. I worshiped His five wounds,
each one separately, and asked His blessing for him. Jesus gave me to know
interiorly how dear that soul was to Him, and I felt that grace was flowing
from Jesus' wounds upon that soul who, like Jesus, is also stretched upon the
cross. |
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989 |
My
Lord and my God, You know that it is You alone whom my soul has come to love.
My soul is entirely drowned in You, O Lord. Even if I did not accomplish any
of the things that You have made known to me, O Lord, I would be completely
at peace because I would have done what I could. |
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990 |
I
know well, O Lord, that You have no need of our works; You demand love. Love,
love and once again, love of God-there is nothing greater in heaven or on
earth. The greatest greatness is to love God; true greatness is in loving
God; real wisdom is to love God. All that is great and beautiful is in God;
there is no beauty or greatness outside of Him. O you sages of the world and
you great minds, recognize that true greatness is in loving God! Oh, how
astonished I am that some people deceive themselves, saying: There is no
eternity! |
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February
26, 1937. Today, I saw how the Holy Mysteries were being celebrated without
liturgical vestments and in private homes, because of a passing storm; and I
saw the sun come out from the Blessed Sacrament, and all other lights went
out, or rather, they were dimmed; and all the people were looking toward this
[one] light. But at the present time I do not understand the meaning of this
vision. [176] |
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992 |
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I am going forward through life amidst rainbows and storms, but with my head
held high with pride, for I am a royal child. I feel that the blood of Jesus
is circulating in my veins, and I have put my trust in the great mercy of the
Lord. |
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993 |
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I asked the Lord to have a certain person come to visit me today so that I
could see her one more time, and that would be a sign for me that she was
being called to the convent which Jesus is having me establish. And, O wonder, the person in question came, and I tried to
form her a bit, spiritually. I began to show her the way of self-denial and
sacrifice, which she readily accepted. However, I have placed this whole
matter in the hands of the Lord, that He may direct everything according to
His good pleasure. |
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994 |
Today,
when I heard the hymn, "Good night, Holy Head of My Jesus," on the
radio, my spirit was suddenly drowned in God, and divine love flooded my
soul; I dwelt for a moment with the heavenly Father. |
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Although it is not easy to live in constant agony, |
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February
28, 1937. Today, I was undergoing the Passion of Jesus for a longer time, and
thus I saw that many souls were in need of prayer. I feel that I am being
completely transformed into prayer in order to beg God's mercy for every
soul. O my Jesus, I am receiving You into my heart as a pledge of mercy for
souls. |
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997 |
This
evening, when I heard the hymn, "Good night, Holy Head of my
Jesus," on the radio, my spirit was suddenly swept away to God's
mysterious bosom, and I knew in what the greatness of a soul consists and
what matters to God: love, love, and once again, love. And 1 understood how
all that exists is saturated with God, and such a love of God inundated my
soul that I am at a loss to describe it. Happy the soul that knows how to
love unreservedly, for in this lies its greatness. |
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998 |
Today,
I took part in a one-day retreat. When I was at the last conference, [177] the priest was speaking of how much the
world needs God's mercy, and that this seems to be a special time when people
have great need of prayer and God's mercy. Then I heard a voice in my soul: These words are for you. Do all you possibly can for this work
of My mercy. I desire that My mercy be worshiped,
and I am giving mankind the last hope of salvation; that is, recourse to My
mercy. My Heart rejoices in this feast. After these words, I understood that nothing can
dispense me from the obligation which the Lord demands from me. |
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999 |
Last
night I was in such pain that I thought it was the end. The doctors could not
diagnose what the sickness was. I felt as if my entrails had been torn to
shreds, but after a few hours of such sufferings I am all right. All this is
for sinners. Let Your mercy descend upon them, O Lord. |
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the terrible desert of life, |
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