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And
so You see, Jesus, that everything is now up to You.
I am perfectly at peace, despite these great urgings. For my part, I have
done everything, and it is now Your turn, my Jesus, and in this way Your
cause will be made apparent. I am totally in accord with Your will; do with
me as You please, O Lord, but only grant me the grace of loving You more and
more ardently. This is what is most precious to me. I desire nothing but You,
O Love Eternal! It matters not along what paths You will lead me, paths of
pain or paths of joy. I want to love You at every moment of my life. If You
tell me to leave, O Jesus, in order to carry out Your will, I will leave. If
You tell me to stay, I will stay. It matters not what I will suffer, in the
one instance or the other. O my Jesus, if I leave, I know what I shall have
to suffer and endure. I agreed to this with full awareness, and I have
already accepted it by an act of the will. It does not matter what the
chalice holds for me. It is enough for me to know that it has been given to
me by the loving hand of God. If you tell me to turn back and stay, I will
stay in spite of all the interior urgings. If You still keep them in my soul
and leave me in this inner agony even to the end of my life, I accept this in
the full consciousness of my will and in loving submission to You, O my God.
If I stay, I shall hide myself in Your mercy, my God, so deeply that no human
eye will see me. Throughout my life, I want to be a thurible
filled with hidden fire, and may the smoke rising up to You, 0 Living Host,
be pleasing to You. I'll feel in my own heart that every little sacrifice
arouses the fire of my love for You, but in such a silent and secret way that
no one will detect it. |
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752 |
When
I told Mother General that the Lord wanted the Congregation to say the
chaplet in order to propitiate God's anger, Mother told me that at present
she could not introduce new prayers that had not yet been approved...
"But give me the chaplet, Sister, [she said;] perhaps it can be said
during an adoration. We shall see. It would be good if Father Sopocko could
publish a pamphlet with the chaplet; then it would be better and easier to
recite it in the Congregation, for it is a bit difficult to do so now." |
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753 |
The
mercy of the Lord is praised by the holy souls in heaven who have themselves
experienced that infinite mercy. What these souls do in heaven, I already
will begin to do here on earth. I will praise God for His infinite goodness,
and I will strive to bring other souls to know and glorify the inexpressible
and incomprehensible mercy of God. |
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754 |
+The
Lord's Promise: The souls that say
this chaplet will be embraced by My mercy during their lifetime and
especially at the hour of their death. |
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755 |
O
my Jesus, teach me to open the bosom of mercy and love to everyone who asks
for it. Jesus, my Commander, teach me so that all my prayers and deeds may
bear the seal of Your mercy. |
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756 |
November
18, 1936. Today, I tried to make all my exercises before Benediction, because
I was feeling more ill than usual. So I went to bed directly after Benediction.
But when I entered the bedroom, I suddenly knew interiorly that I should go
to the cell of S.N., [145] because she was in need of help. I
entered her cell at once, and S.N. said to me, "Oh, how good it is that
God has brought you here, Sister!" And her voice was so faint that I
could hardly hear her. She said to me, "Sister, please bring me some tea
with lemon, because I am terribly thirsty, and I cannot move because I am in
such pain." And truly, she was suffering very much and had a high fever.
I made her more comfortable, and she was able to quench her thirst with the
little bit of tea that I brought her. When I entered my own cell, my soul was
engulfed by the great love of God, and I understood that we should take great
heed of our interior inspirations and follow them faithfully, and that
faithfulness to one grace draws down others. |
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757 |
November
19, [1936]. During Mass today, I saw the Lord Jesus, who said to me, Be at peace, My daughter; I see your efforts, which are very
pleasing to Me. And the Lord
disappeared, and it was time for Holy Communion. After I received Holy
Communion, I suddenly saw the Cenacle and in it Jesus and the Apostles. I saw
the institution of the Most Blessed Sacrament. Jesus allowed me to penetrate
His interior, and I came to know the greatness of His majesty and, at the
same time, His great humbling of Himself. The extraordinary light that
allowed me to see His majesty revealed to me, at the same time, what was in
my own soul. |
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758 |
Jesus
gave me to know the depth of His meekness and humility and to understand that
He clearly demanded the same of me. I felt the gaze of God in my soul. This
filled me with unspeakable love, but I understood that the Lord was looking
with love on my virtues and my heroic efforts, and I knew that this was what
was drawing God into my heart. It is from this that I have come to understand
that it is not enough for me to strive only for the ordinary virtues, but
that I must try to exercise the heroic virtues. Although exteriorly a thing
may be quite ordinary, it is the different manner [in which it is carried
out] that only the eye of God catches. O my Jesus, what I have written is
just a pale shadow of what I understand in my soul; these are purely
spiritual things, but in order to write something of what the Lord gives me
to know, I must use words with which I am totally dissatisfied, because they
do not express the reality. |
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759 |
When
I experienced these sufferings for the first time, it was like this: after
the annual vows, [146] on a certain day, during prayer, I saw a
great brilliance and, issuing from the brilliance, rays which completely
enveloped me. Then suddenly, I felt a terrible pain in my hands, my feet and
my side and the thorns of the crown of thorns. I experienced these sufferings
during Holy Mass on Friday, but this was only for a brief moment. This was
repeated for several Fridays, and later on I did not experience any
sufferings up to the present time; that is, up to the end of September of
this year. In the course of the present illness, during Holy Mass one Friday,
I felt myself pierced by the same sufferings, and this has been repeated on
every Friday and sometimes when I meet a soul that is not in the state of
grace. Although this is infrequent, and the suffering lasts a very short time,
still it is terrible, and I would not be able to bear it without a special
grace from God. There is no outward indication of these sufferings. What will
come later, I do not know. All this, for the sake of souls... |
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760 |
November
21, [1936]. Jesus, You see that I am neither gravely ill nor in good health.
You fill my soul with enthusiasm for action, and I have no strength. The fire
of Your love burns in me, and for what I cannot accomplish by physical
strength, love will compensate. |
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761 |
Jesus,
my spirit yearns for You, and I desire very much to be united with You, but
Your works hold me back. The number of souls that I am to bring to You is not
yet complete. I desire toil and suffering; let everything You have planned
before the ages be fulfilled in me, O my Creator and
Lord! It is only Your word that I understand; it alone gives me strength.
Your Spirit, O Lord, is the Spirit of Peace; and nothing troubles my depths
because You dwell there, O Lord. |
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762 |
Once,
I saw Father Sopocko praying as he was reflecting on these matters. Then I
saw how a ring of light appeared suddenly above his head. Although distance
separates us, I often see him, especially as he works at his desk, despite
his fatigue. |
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763 |
November
22, [1936]. Today during confession, the Lord Jesus spoke to me through the
lips of a certain priest. This priest did not know my soul, and I only
accused myself of my sins; yet he spoke these words to me: "Accomplish
faithfully everything that Jesus asks of you, despite the difficulties. Know
that, although people may be angry with you, Jesus is not angry and never
will be angry with you. Pay no attention to human opinion." This
instruction surprised me at first; but I understood that the Lord was
speaking through him without his realizing it. O holy mystery, what great
treasures are contained in you! O holy faith, you are my guidepost! |
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764 |
November
24. Today, I received a letter from Father Sopocko. [147] I learned from it that God himself is
conducting this whole affair. And as the Lord has begun it, so will He
continue to carry it along. And the greater the difficulties which I see, the
more am I at peace. Oh, if in this whole matter the
glory of God and the profit to souls were not greatly served, Satan would not
be opposing it so much. But he senses what he is going to lose because of it.
I have now learned that Satan hates mercy more than anything else. It is his
greatest torment. Still, the word of God will not pass away; God's utterance
is living; difficulties will not suppress the works of God, but show that
they are God's... |
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765 |
On
one occasion, I saw the convent of the new congregation. [148] As I walked about, inspecting
everything, I suddenly saw a crowd of children who seemed to be no older than
five to eleven years of age. When they saw me they surrounded me and began to
cry out, "Defend us from evil," and they led me into the chapel
which was in this convent. When I entered the chapel, I saw the distressful
Lord Jesus. Jesus looked at me graciously and said that He was gravely
offended by children: You
are to defend them from evil. From
that moment, I have been praying for children, but I feel that prayer alone
is not enough. |
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766 |
O
my Jesus, you know what efforts are needed to live sincerely and unaffectedly
with those from whom our nature flees, or with those who, deliberately or
not, have made us suffer. Humanly speaking, this is impossible. At such times
more than at others, I try to discover the Lord Jesus in such a person and
for this same Jesus, I do everything for such people. In such acts, love is
pure, and such practice of love gives the soul endurance and strength. I do
not expect anything from creatures, and therefore I am not disappointed. I
know that a creature is poor of itself, so what can one expect from it? God
is everything for me; I want to evaluate everything according to God's ways. |
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767 |
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My communion with the Lord is now purely spiritual. My soul is touched by God
and wholly absorbs itself in Him, even to the complete forgetfulness of self.
Permeated by God to its very depths, it drowns in His beauty; it completely
dissolves in Him-I am at a loss to describe this, because in writing I am
making use of the senses; but there, in that union, the senses are not
active; there is a merging of God and the soul; and the life of God to which
the soul is admitted is so great that the human tongue cannot express it. |
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768 |
It
is a strange thing that although the soul which experiences this union with
God cannot find words and expressions to describe it, nevertheless, when it
meets a similar soul, the two understand each other extraordinarily well in regard
to these matters, even though they speak but little with each other. A soul
united with God in this way easily recognizes a similar soul, even if the
latter has not revealed its interior [life] to it, but merely speaks in an
ordinary way. It is a kind of spiritual kinship. Souls united with God in
this way are few, fewer than we think. |
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769 |
I
have noticed that the Lord grants this grace to souls for two purposes. The
first is when the soul is to do some great work which is, humanly speaking,
absolutely beyond its power. In the second case, I have noticed that the Lord
grants it in order that kindred souls might be guided and set at peace,
although the Lord can grant this grace as He pleases and to whomever He
pleases. However, I have noticed this grace in three priests, one of whom is
a secular priest [probably Father Sopocko] and the other two, religious
priests [probably Father Elter and Father Andrasz],
and also in two religious sisters [probably Mother Michael and Sister Mary
Joseph], but not in the same degree. |
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770 |
As
for myself, I received this grace for the first time, and that for only a
brief moment, in the eighteenth [149] year of my life, within the octave of
Corpus Christi [June 18-25, 1925], during Vespers, when I made to the Lord
Jesus the vow of perpetual chastity. I was still living in the world, but I
entered the convent soon afterwards. The grace lasted for a very brief
moment, but its power was great. After this grace, there was a long interval.
It is true that I received many graces from the Lord during this interval,
but they were of a different order. It was a time of trials and purification.
The trials were so painful that my soul felt as though it was being totally
abandoned by God and it was steeped in profound darkness. I became aware and
understood that no one would be able to bring me out of those torments or
even understand me. |
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771 |
In
that same moment, the soul drowns entirely in Him and experiences a happiness as great as that of the chosen ones in heaven.
Although the chosen ones in heaven see God face to face and are completely
and absolutely happy, still their knowledge of God is not the same. God has
given me to understand this. This deeper knowledge begins here on earth,
depending on the grace [given], but to a great extent it also depends on our
faithfulness to that grace. |
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772 |
Great
is the mutual exchange between the soul and God. When the soul leaves its
concealment, the senses get a taste of what the soul has delighted in.
Although this also is a great grace from God, it is not a purely spiritual
one, for in the first moments the senses do not take part. Every grace gives
the soul power and strength to act, and courage to suffer. The soul knows
very well what God is asking of it, and it carries out His holy will despite
adversities. |
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773 |
Yet,
the soul cannot proceed on its own in these matters. It must follow the
advice of an enlightened confessor, for otherwise it could go astray or gain
no profit. |
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774 |
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O my Jesus, I understand well that, just as illness is measured with a thermometer,
and a high fever tells us of the seriousness of the illness, so also, in the
spiritual life, suffering is the thermometer which measures the love of God
in a soul. |
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775 |
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My goal is God... and my happiness is in accomplishing His will, and nothing
in the world can disturb this happiness for me: no power, no force of any
kind. |
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776 |
The
Lord visited my cell today and said to me, My daughter, I will not leave you in
this community for much longer. I am telling you this so that you will be more
diligent in taking advantage of the graces which I grant you. |
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777 |
November
27, [1936]. Today I was in heaven, in spirit, and I saw its
inconceivable beauties and the happiness that awaits us after death. I saw
how all creatures give ceaseless praise and glory to God. I saw how great is
happiness in God, which spreads to all creatures, making them happy; and then
all the glory and praise which springs from this happiness returns to its
source; and they enter into the depths of God, contemplating the inner life
of God, the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, whom they will never
comprehend or fathom. |
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778 |
And
God has given me to understand that there is but one thing that is of infinite
value in His eyes, and that is love of God; love, love and once again, love;
and nothing can compare with a single act of pure love of God. Oh, with what
inconceivable favors God gifts a soul that loves Him sincerely! Oh, how happy
is the soul who already here on earth enjoys His special favors! And of such
are the little and humble souls. |
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779 |
The
sight of this great majesty of God, which I came to understand more
profoundly and which is worshiped by the heavenly spirits according to their degree
of grace and the hierarchies into which they are divided, did not cause my
soul to be stricken with terror or fear; no, no, not at all! My soul was
filled with peace and love, and the more I come to know the greatness of God,
the more joyful I become that He is as He is. And I rejoice immensely in His
greatness and am delighted that I am so little because, since I am little, He
carries me in His arms and holds me close to His Heart. |
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780 |
O
my God, how I pity those people who do not believe in eternal life; how I
pray for them that a ray of mercy would envelop them too, and that God would
clasp them to His fatherly bosom. |
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781 |
O
Love, O queen! Love knows no fear. It passes through all the choirs of angels
that stand on guard before His throne. It will fear no one. It reaches God
and is immersed in Him as in its sole treasure. The Cherubim who guards
paradise with flaming sword, has no power over it. O pure love of God, how
great and unequalled you are! Oh, if souls only knew your power! |
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782 |
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I am very weak today. I cannot even make my meditation in the chapel, but
must lie down. O my Jesus, I love You, and I want to worship You with my very
weakness, submitting myself entirely to Your holy will. |
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783 |
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I must be on my guard, especially today, because I am becoming over-sensitive
to everything. Things I would not pay any attention to when I am healthy
bother me today. O my Jesus, my shield and my strength, grant me Your grace
that I may emerge victorious from these combats. O my Jesus, transform me into Yourself by the power of Your love, that
I may be a worthy tool in proclaiming Your mercy. |
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784 |
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I thank God for this illness and these physical discomforts, because I have
time to converse with the Lord Jesus. It is my delight to spend long hours at
the feet of the hidden God, and the hours pass like minutes as I lose track
of time. I feel that a fire is burning within me, and I understand no other
life but that of sacrifice, which flows from pure love. |
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785 |
November
29,[1936]. The Mother of God has taught me how to
prepare for the Feast of Christmas. I saw Her today, without the Infant
Jesus. She said to me: My daughter, strive after silence and humility, so that
Jesus, who dwells in your heart continuously, may be able to rest. Adore Him
in your heart; do not go out from your inmost being. My daughter, I shall
obtain for you the grace of an interior life which will be such that, without
ever leaving that interior life, you will be able to carry out all your
external duties with even greater care. Dwell with Him continuously in your
own heart. He will be your strength. Communicate with creatures only in so
far as is necessary and is required by your duties. You are a dwelling place
pleasing to the living God, in you He dwells continuously with love and
delight. And the living presence of God, which you experience in a more vivid
and distinct way, will confirm you, my daughter, in the things I have told
you. Try to act in this way until Christmas Day, and then He himself will
make known to you in what way you will be communing and uniting yourself with
Him. |
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786 |
November
30, [1936]. During Vespers today, an unusual pain pierced my soul. I see
that, in every respect, this work is beyond my strength. I am a little child
before the immensity of the task, and it is only at the Lord's clear command
that I am setting about to carry it out. On the other hand, even these great
graces are a burden for me, and I am barely able to carry them. I see my
superiors' disbelief and doubts of all kinds and, for this reason, their
apprehensive behavior towards me. My Jesus, I see that even such great graces
can be [a source of] suffering. And yet, it is so; not only may they be a
cause of suffering, but they must be such, as a sign of God's action. I
understand well that if God himself did not strengthen the soul in these
various ordeals, the soul would not be able to master the situation. Thus God
himself is its shield. |
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787 |
Today,
during the morning meditation, the Lord gave me to see and understand clearly
that His demands are unchangeable. I see clearly that no one can release me
from the duty of doing the known will of God. A great lack of health and
physical strength is not a sufficient reason and does not release me from
this work that the Lord himself is carrying out through me. I am to be just a
tool in His hands. And so, O Lord, here I am to carry out Your will. Command
me according to Your eternal plans and desires. Only give me the grace that I
may always be faithful to You. |
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788 |
As
I was conversing with the hidden God, He gave me to see and understand that I
should not be reflecting so much and building up fear of the difficulties
which I might encounter.
Know that I am with you; I bring about the difficulties, and I overcome them;
in one instant, I can change a hostile disposition to one which is favorable
to this cause. The Lord
explained many things to me in today's dialogue, although I am not putting
everything in writing. |
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789 |
Always
and in all circumstances, yield the first place to others; especially during
recreation listen quietly, without interrupting, even if someone tells me the
same thing ten times. I will never ask questions about something that
interests me very much. |
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790 |
Resolution:
still the same; namely, to unite myself with the Merciful Christ. |
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791 |
Hide
me, Jesus, in the depths of Your mercy, and then let my neighbor judge me as
he pleases. |
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792 |
I
must never speak of my own experiences. In suffering, I must seek relief in
prayer. In doubts, even the smallest, I must seek only the advice of my
confessor. I must always have a heart which is open to receive the sufferings
of others, and drown my own sufferings in the Divine Heart so that they would
not be noticed on the outside, in so far as possible. |
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793 |
I
am reliving these moments with Our Lady. With great longing, I am waiting for
the Lord's coming. Great are my desires. I desire that all humankind come to
know the Lord. I would like to prepare all nations for the coming of the Word
Incarnate. O Jesus, make the fount of Your mercy gush forth more abundantly,
for humankind is seriously ill and thus has more need than ever of Your
compassion. You are a bottomless sea of mercy for us sinners; and the greater
the misery, the more right we have to Your mercy. You are a fount which makes
all creatures happy by Your infinite mercy. |
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794 |
Today
[December 9, 1936], I am leaving for Pradnik, just
outside Cracow, to undergo treatment. I am to stay there for three months. I
am being sent there through the great solicitude of my superiors, especially
that of our dear Mother General [Michael], who is so solicitous for the
sisters who are ill. |
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795 |
I
have accepted the favor of this treatment, but I am fully resigned to the
will of God. Let God do with me as He pleases. I desire nothing but the
fulfillment of His holy will. I am uniting myself with the Mother of God, and
I am leaving Nazareth and going to Bethlehem. I will spend Christmas there
among strangers, but with Jesus, Mary and Joseph, because such is the will of
God. I am striving to do the will of God in all things. I do not desire a return
to health more than death. I entrust myself completely to His infinite mercy
and, as a little child, I am living in the greatest peace. I am trying only
to make my love for Him deeper and purer, to be a delight to His divine
glance... |
|
796 |
The
Lord told me to say this chaplet for nine days before the Feast of Mercy. It
is to begin on Good Friday.
By this novena, I will grant every possible grace to souls. |
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797 |
When
I was somewhat overcome by the fear that I was to be outside the community
for so long a time alone, Jesus said to me, You will not be alone, because I am with you always and
everywhere. Near to My Heart, fear nothing. I myself am the cause of your
departure. Know that My eyes follow every move of your heart with great
attention. I am bringing you into seclusion so that I myself may form your
heart according to My future plans. What are you afraid of? If you are with
Me, who will dare touch you? Nevertheless, I am very pleased that you confide
your fears to Me, My daughter: Speak to Me about everything in a completely
simple and human way; by this you will give Me great joy. I understand you
because I am God-Man. This simple language of your heart is more pleasing to
Me than the hymns composed in My honor. Know, My daughter, that the simpler
your speech is, the more you attract Me to yourself. And now, be at peace
close to My Heart. Lay your pen aside and get ready to leave. |
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798 |
December
9, 1936. This morning, I left for Pradnik. Sister
Chrysostom drove me here. I have a private room to myself; I am very much
like a Carmelite. When Sister Chrysostom had left and I was alone, I steeped
myself in prayer, entrusting myself to the special protection of the Mother
of God. She alone is always with me. She, like a good Mother, watches over
all my trials and efforts. |
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799 |
Suddenly,
I saw the Lord Jesus, who said to me, Be
at peace, My child. See, you are not alone. My Heart watches over you. Jesus filled me with strength concerning a certain
person. I feel strength within my soul. A moral principle. |
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800 |
If
one does not know what is better, one must reflect, consider and seek advice,
because one must not act with an uncertain conscience. When uncertain, say to . yourself: "Whatever I
do will be good. I have the intention of doing good."
The Lord God accepts what we consider good, and the Lord God also accepts and
considers it as good. One should not worry if, after some time, one sees that
these things are not good. God looks at the intention with which we begin,
and will reward us accordingly. This is a principle which we ought to follow. |
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