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Preparation for Holy Communion 1804-1828
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Diary Divine Mercy in My Soul ( II: 522 600 ) |
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+The mercy of the Lord I will sing forever, |
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O will of God, be my love. My Jesus, You know that
of myself I would not have written a single letter, and if I do write, it is
only because of a clear command of holy obedience. |
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+ O Jesus, hidden God, |
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O Holy Trinity, in whom is contained the inner
life of God, the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, eternal joy,
inconceivable depth of love, poured out upon all creatures and constituting
their happiness, honor and glory be to Your holy name forever and ever. Amen.
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+ The 14th. This Thursday, when we were having
nocturnal adoration, at first I could not pray; a sort of dryness engulfed
me. I could not meditate on Jesus' sorrowful Passion. So I lay prostrate and
offered the most sorrowful Passion of the Lord Jesus to the heavenly Father
in reparation for the sins of all the world. When I
got to my feet after this prayer and walked to my kneeler, I suddenly saw
Jesus next to it. The Lord Jesus appeared as He was during the scourging. In
His hands He was holding a white garment with which He clothed me and a cord
with which He girded me, and He covered me with a red cloak like the one He
was clothed with during His Passion and a veil of the same color, and He said
to me, This
is how you and your companions are going to be clothed. My life from birth to
death on the Cross will be the rule for you. Fix your eyes upon Me and live
according to what you see. I desire that you penetrate into My spirit more
deeply and understand that I am meek and humble of heart. |
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On one occasion, I felt an urge to set to work and
fulfill whatever God is demanding of me. I entered the chapel for a moment
and heard a voice in my soul saying, Why are you afraid? Do you think that I
will not have enough omnipotence to support you? At that moment, my soul
felt extraordinary strength, and all the adversities that could befall me in
carrying out God's will seemed as nothing to me. |
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On Friday during Mass when my soul was flooded
with God's happiness, I heard these words in my soul: My mercy has passed
into souls through the divine-human Heart of Jesus as a ray from the sun
passes through crystal. I felt in my heart and understood that every
approach to God is brought about by Jesus, in Him and through Him. |
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On the evening of the last day [November 15] of
the novena at Ostra Brama,
after the singing of the litany, one of the priests exposed the Blessed
Sacrament in the monstrance. When he placed it on the altar, I immediately saw
the Infant Jesus, stretching out His little arms, first of all toward His
Mother, who at that time had taken on a living appearance. When the Mother of
God was speaking to me, Jesus stretched out His tiny hands toward the
congregation. The Blessed Mother was telling me to accept all that God asked
of me like a little child, without questioning; otherwise it would not be
pleasing to God. At that moment, the Infant Jesus vanished, and the Mother of
God was again lifeless, and Her picture was the same as it had been before.
But my soul was filled with great joy and gladness, and I said to the Lord,
"Do with me as You please; I am ready for everything, but You, O Lord,
must not abandon me even for a moment." |
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To the Glory of the Holy Trinity. |
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November 24, 1935. Sunday, first day. I went at
once before the Blessed Sacrament and offered myself with Jesus, present in
the Most Holy Sacrament, to the Everlasting Father. Then I heard these words
in my soul:
Your purpose and that of your companions is to unite yourselves with Me as
closely as possible; through love You will reconcile earth with heaven, you
will soften the just anger of God, and you will plead for mercy for the
world. I place in your care two pearls very precious to My Heart: these are
the souls of priests and religious. You will pray particularly for them;
their power will come from your diminishment. You will join prayers, fasts,
mortifications, labors and all sufferings to My prayer, fasting,
mortification, labors and sufferings and then they will have power before My
Father.
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After Holy Communion, I saw the Lord Jesus, who
said these words to me: Today, penetrate into the spirit of My
poverty and arrange everything in such a way that the most destitute will
have no reason to envy you. I find pleasure, not in large buildings and
magnificent structures, but in a pure and humble heart. |
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When I was by myself, I began to reflect on the
spirit of poverty. I clearly saw that Jesus, although He is Lord of all
things, possessed nothing. From a borrowed manger He went through life doing good to all, but himself having no place to lay His head.
And on the Cross, I see the summit of His poverty, for He does not even have
a garment on himself. O Jesus, through a solemn vow of poverty I desire to
become like You; poverty will be my mother. As
exteriorly we should possess nothing and have nothing to dispose of as our
own; so interiorly we should desire nothing. And in the Most Blessed
Sacrament, how great is Your poverty! Has there ever been a soul as abandoned
as You were on the Cross, Jesus? |
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Chastity. There is no need to explain that this
vow forbids all those things prohibited by the sixth and ninth commandments:
deeds, thoughts, words, feelings... I understand that a solemn vow differs
from a simple vow; I understand this in all its implications. While
reflecting upon this, I heard these words in my soul:You are My spouse
forever; your chastity should be greater than that of the Angels, for I call
no angel to such intimacy as I do you. The smallest act of My spouse is of
infinite value. A pure soul has inconceivable power before God. |
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Obedience. I have come to do My Father's will. I
obeyed My parents, I obeyed My tormentors and now I obey the priests. I understand, O Jesus,
the spirit of obedience and in what it consists. It
includes not only external performance, but also the reason, the will and
judgment. Obeying our superiors, we obey God. It makes no difference whether
it is an angel or a man who, acting in God's stead, gives me orders; I must
always obey. I am not going to write much about the vows; they are clear and
specific. I will rather put down a few general thoughts about this
congregation. |
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There will never be any splendid houses, but only
a small church with a small community consisting of a few souls, not more
than ten, plus two externs to look after the external affairs of the
community and the church. These two sisters will not wear the habit, but
secular dress; they will take simple vows, and they will depend strictly on
the superior who will be cloistered. They will share in all the spiritual
benefits of the congregation. There must never be more than two and,
preferably, only one. Each house will be independent of the others, although
they will be closely united by the rule, the vows and the spirit. In
exceptional cases, however, a sister from one community may be tranferred to another and also, if there is question of
founding a new house, some sisters may be transferred, if need be, from
another house. Each house will depend on the local ordinary. |
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Each sister will have a separate cell, but life
will be communal as regards prayer, meals and recreation. Each nun, after her
profession, will no longer see the world, even through a grill, as this will
be covered with a dark cloth, and even the conversations will be strictly
limited. She will be as if dead, not understood by the world and not
understanding the world. She is to stand between heaven and earth, begging
God constantly for mercy on the world and that priests be empowered so that
their words be not empty and that they, in their extraordinary dignity and so
exposed to risks, might keep themselves completely
stainless. Though these souls will not be numerous, they will be heroic
souls. There will be no room for cowardly or effeminate souls. |
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There will be no distinction between the sisters,
no mothers, [107] no reverends, no venerables,
but all will be equal, even though there might be great differences in their
parentage. We know who Jesus was, and yet how He humbled himself and with
whom He associated. Their habit will be like that worn by Jesus during His
Passion, and they will not simply wear the robe [He wore]; they must also
seal themselves with the marks He bore: suffering and scorn. Each one will
strive for the greatest self-denial and have a love of humility, and she who
will distinguish herself most in this latter virtue will be the one who is
capable of leading the others. |
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As God has made us sharers in His mercy and even
more than that, dispensers of that mercy, we should therefore have great love
for each soul, beginning with the elect and ending with the soul that does
not yet know God. By prayer and mortification, we will make our way to the
most uncivilized countries, paving the way for the missionaries. We will bear
in mind that a soldier on the front line cannot hold out long without support
from the rear forces that do not actually take part in the fighting but provide
for all his needs; and that such is the role of prayer, and that therefore
each one of us is to be distinguished by an apostolic spirit. |
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In the evening when I was writing, I heard a voice
in my cell which said, "Do not leave this Congregation; have mercy upon
yourself, such great sufferings are in store for you." When I looked in
the direction of the voice, I saw nothing, and I continued to write. Suddenly
I heard a noise and the words: "When you leave, we will destroy you. Do
not torture us." I glanced around and saw many ugly monsters. So I
mentally made the sign of the Cross and they disappeared immediately. How
terribly ugly Satan is! The poor damned souls that have to keep him company!
Just the sight of him is more disgusting than all the torments of hell. |
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A short time later, I heard this voice in my soul: Do not fear
anything; nothing will happen to you against My will. After these words of the
Lord, a strange power entered my soul. I rejoiced greatly that God is so
good. |
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Postulancy. [108] Age of admission: any person between the
ages of fifteen and thirty. Firstly, the spirit with which the candidate is
imbued and her character are to be taken into consideration, whether she has
a strong will and the courage to follow in Jesus' footsteps with joy and
gladness, as God loves a cheerful giver. She must despise the world and
herself. The lack of a dowry will never be an obstacle to admission. All
formalities concerning the candidate must be clear; no complicated cases
should be admitted. |
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The duration of the postulancy.
The postulancy will last one year. During this
time, the candidate should examine whether she is attracted to this type of
life and whether it is suitable to her. The directress should also diligently
consider whether or not the person in question is suitable for this type of
life. After a year, if the postulant shows evidence of a stable will and an
earnest desire to serve God, she should be admitted to the novitiate. |
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The novitiate [109] is to last one year, without any
interruption. At this time the novice should be taught about the virtues
relating to the vows and about the importance of the vows. The directress
should do her utmost to provide a solid formation. Let her train the novices
in the practice of humility, because only a humble heart keeps the vows
easily and experiences the great joys that God pours out upon the faithful
soul. The novices should not be burdened with duties that entail
responsibilities, so that they may be free to devote themselves to their own
perfection. They are obliged to observe the rules and statutes strictly, as
are the postulants. |
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After a year of novitiate, if the novice proves faithful,
she may be admitted to make her profession for one year. This is to be
repeated for three years. She may then be given duties of responsibility.
However, she will still belong to the novitiate, and once a week she must
attend conferences together with the novices, and she will spend the last six
months entirely in the novitiate in order to prepare well for her solemn
profession. [110] |
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Meals. We will have no meat. Our meals shall be
such that not even the poor will have any reason to envy us. Still, feast
days may differ slightly from regular days. The sisters will eat three times
a day. Fasts, especially the two great ones, will be observed strictly,
according to the original spirit. The food should be the same for all the
nuns without exception so that communal life may be kept pure. This refers
not only to food but to clothing and the furnishing of cells as well.
However, if a sister should fall ill, she should receive every consideration.
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Prayers. One hour of meditation, Holy Mass and
Holy Communion, prayers, two examinations of conscience, office, [111] rosary, spiritual reading, one hour of
prayer during the night. As to the horarium, it is
better to draw it up after we have begun to live this type of life. |
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Suddenly I heard these words in my soul: My daughter, I assure
you of a permanent income on which you will live. Your duty will be to trust
completely in My goodness, and My duty will be to give you all you need. I am
making Myself dependent upon your trust: if your trust is great, then My
generosity will be without limit. |
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Work. As poor persons, the nuns themselves will do
all the work in the convent. Each one should be glad when she is given some
work which is humbling or which goes against her nature, as that will greatly
help her interior formation. The superior will often change the sisters'
duties, and in this way help them to detach themselves completely from the
little details to which women have a great attachment. Truly, I often find it
amusing to see with my own eyes souls who have forsaken really great things
only to attach themselves to fiddle faddle; that
is, trifles. Each sister, including even the superior, shall work in the
kitchen for a month. Every one should take a turn
at every chore which is to be done in the convent. |
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And always and in everything, their intention
should be pure, for every sort of mixed motive is displeasing to God. They
should accuse themselves of all external transgressions, and ask the superior
for a penance. They should do this in a spirit of humility. |
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How great should each one's love for the Church
be! As a good child prays for the mother it loves, so also should every Christian
soul pray for the Church, its Mother. What then
should be said of us religious who have especially committed ourselves to
praying for the Church? How great, then, is our apostolate, hidden though it be. All our little daily nothings will be placed at the
feet of the Lord Jesus as a propitiatory offering for the world; but in order
that our offering may be pleasing to God, it must be pure. And for it to be
pure, the heart must be freed of all natural attachments, and all its
affections must be directed towards the Creator, loving all creatures in Him
and according to His will; and, acting thus, each with a zealous spirit will
bring joy to the Church. |
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In addition to the vows, I see one rule as most important.
Although all the rules are important, I put this one in first place, and it
is silence. Truly, if this rule were to be observed strictly, I would not
worry about the others. Women are very fond of talking, but the Holy Spirit
does not speak to a soul that is distracted and garrulous. He speaks by His
quiet inspirations to a soul that is recollected, to a soul that knows how to
keep silence. If silence were strictly observed, there would not be any
grumbling, bitterness, slandering, or gossip, and charity would not be
tarnished. In a word, many wrongs would not be done. Silent lips are pure
gold and bear witness to holiness within. |
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But I want to speak immediately of a second rule;
that is, speech. Keeping silent when one ought to speak is an imperfection
and sometimes even a sin. And so, let all the sisters take part in
recreation, and the superior should not dispense them from this except for a
matter of great importance. Recreation is an opportunity for getting to know
one another. Let each sister speak her mind in all simplicity for the
edification of the others and not in a spirit of superiority nor, God forbid,
in a quarrelsome manner, for that would not be in keeping with perfection and
the spirit of our vocation, which should be especially characterized by love.
Twice a day, there will be a recreation of one half hour. But if a sister
breaks silence outside that time, she must accuse herself before the superior
at once and ask for a penance, and the superior should punish these offenses
with public penances, or else she will answer for this before the Lord. |
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Enclosure. [112] No one may enter the enclosure without the
special permission of the Ordinary and under very special circumstances, such
as the administration of the Sacraments to the ill in order to prepare them
for death, and for the burial rites. There also may be need of letting in a
workman to do some repairs, but for this a specific permission will be
required. The door to the enclosure will always be locked and only the
superior will have the key. |
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The use of the parlor. None of the sisters will
make use of the parlor without special permission of the superior, and the
superior should not permit frequent visits. Those who have died to the world
should not be going back to it, not even through conversations. But if the
superior thinks it right to permit some sister to go to the parlor, let her
observe the following directions. She herself should accompany the sister,
and if she cannot do so, she should arrange to be replaced by a sister who
will be bound to confidence and must not repeat what she has heard, but who
is to inform the superior of everything. Conversations ought to be short,
unless there is permission for extra time for the sake of the person who has
come for the visit. However, the curtain is not to be drawn aside, except for
very special cases, as for example when a mother or father urgently asks that
this be done. |
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Letters. Every sister may write sealed letters to
the Ordinary to whom the house is subject. For any other letter, permission
is required, and the sister shall hand the letter unsealed to the superior.
The superior is to be guided by the spirit of love and prudence, and has the
right to send or withhold the letter, in the light of whatever is for the
greater glory of God. However, I would like very much that such communications
be as rare as possible. Let us help people by prayer and mortification, and
not by correspondence. |
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Confession. Both the regular and the extraordinary
confessors for the community will be appointed by the Ordinary [Bishop]. [113]
There will be one regular confessor, and he will hear the sisters'
confessions once a week. The extraordinary confessor will come once every
three months, and each sister is obliged to see him, even if she makes no
confession. The two confessors will hold their posts in the convent for three
years. Then there will be a secret vote, and the superior will submit the
results to the Ordinary. The confessor can be re-appointed for an additional
three years and even a third three-year term. The sisters will make their
confession through a locked grille. The conferences to the community will
also be given through a grille, covered with a dark curtain. The sisters will
never talk among themselves about confession or the confessors; rather, let
them pray for them that God may give them the light to direct their souls. |
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Holy Communion. The sisters should never talk
about who goes more and who goes less frequently to Holy Communion. They
should refrain from passing judgment on this subject which does not concern
them. All judgments in this matter belong exclusively to the confessor. The
superior may speak to a sister, not to inquire why she is not going to
Communion, but simply to make confession available to her. The superiors
should never dare to enter into the domain of the sisters' consciences. The
superior may sometimes arrange that the community offer Communion for a certain
intention. Each sister should strive for the greatest purity of soul, so that
she might receive the Divine Visitor every day. |
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On one occasion, when I entered the chapel, I saw
the walls of a building in a state of disrepair [a torn down building]. [114] The windows were without panes, and the doors had only frames with no paneling.
Then I heard these words in my soul: This is where the convent will be. I was a little
disappointed that these ruins were to be the convent. |
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Thursday. I felt urged to undertake as soon as
possible the task which the Lord was asking of me. While making my
confession, I was holding to my own opinion over that of the confessor. At
first, I did not realize this, but when I was making my Holy Hour I saw the
Lord Jesus as He appears in the Image, and He told me that I must repeat to
my confessor and my superiors everything He says to me or asks of me... and do only what you
receive permission to do. And He gave me to know how displeased He was with
persons who are self-willed, and I recognized that I was one of these. I saw
this shadow of self-will in myself, and I threw myself in the dust [115] before His Majesty and, with a broken
heart, begged His pardon. But Jesus did not let me remain in this state for
long. His divine gaze filled my heart with such joy that I have no words to
express it. And Jesus gave me to know that I should ask Him more questions
and seek His advice. Truly, how sweet is the look of my Lord; His eyes
penetrate my soul to its most secret depths. My spirit communicates with God
without any word being spoken. I am aware that He is living in me and I in Him. |
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All at once, I saw the image in some small chapel
and at that moment I saw that the chapel became an enormous and beautiful
temple. And in this temple I saw the Mother of God with the Infant in Her
arms. And a moment later, the Infant Jesus disappeared from the arms of His
Mother, and I saw the living image of Jesus Crucified. The Mother of God told
me to do what She had done, that, even when joyful, I should always keep my
eyes fixed on the cross, and She told me that the graces God was granting me
were not for me alone, but for other souls as well. |
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When I see the Infant Jesus during Holy Mass, it
is not always the same: sometimes He is very joyous, and sometimes He is not
even looking at the chapel. At present, He is often very joyful when our
confessor [Father Sopocko] offers Holy Mass. I was greatly surprised that the
Infant Jesus loves him so much. Sometimes I see Him dressed in a colorful
pinafore. [116] |
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Before I came to Vilnius and met this confessor, I
once saw a rather small church and near it, this congregation. [117] The convent had twelve cells: each nun
was to live separately. I saw the priest [Father Sopocko] who was helping me
to prepare the convent and whom I was to meet some years later, but whom I
already knew from the vision. I saw how he was arranging everything in the
convent with great care, assisted by another priest [
probably Father Wantuchowski [118] ] whom I have not yet met. I saw the
iron grating, covered with a dark curtain, and the sisters did not go out to
the church. |
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On the feast day of the Immaculate Conception of
the Mother of God, during Holy Mass, I heard the rustling of garments and saw
the most holy Mother of God in a most beautiful radiance. Her white garment
was girdled with a blue sash. She said to me, You give Me great joy when
you adore the Holy Trinity for the graces and privileges which were accorded
Me. And She immediately disappeared. |
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Interior mortifications take the first place, but
besides this, we must practice exterior mortifications, strictly determined,
so that all can practice them. These are: on three days a week, Wednesday,
Friday and Saturday, there will be a strict fast; each Friday, all the
sisters - each one in her own cell - will take the discipline [119] for the length of the recitation of
Psalm 50, and all will do this at the same time; namely, three o'clock; and
this will be offered for dying sinners. During the two great fasts, [120] ember days [121] and vigils, [122] the food will consists of a piece of
bread and some water, once a day. |
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One day, after Holy Communion, I suddenly saw the
Infant Jesus standing by my kneeler and holding on to it with His two little
hands. Although He was but a little Child, my soul was filled with awe and
fear, for I see in Him my Judge, my Lord, and my Creator, before whose
holiness the Angels tremble. At the same time, my soul was flooded with such
unspeakable love that I thought I would die under its influence. I now see
that Jesus first strengthens my soul and makes it capable of abiding with
Him, for otherwise I would not be able to bear what I experience at such a
moment. |
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All the sisters should respect the superior as the
Lord Jesus himself, as I mentioned when speaking about the vow of obedience.
They should behave toward her with childlike trust, and should never murmur
or find fault with her commands, as this is very displeasing to God. Let each
be guided by a spirit of faith in her relationship to superiors; let her ask
with simplicity for all that she needs. God forbid that it ever happen or be
repeated that any of the sisters would be a cause of sorrow or tears to the
superior. Let each one know that as the fourth commandment obliges a child to
honor its parents, in like manner is the religious bound to respect her
superior. Only a bad religious would take the liberty of judging her
superior. Let the sisters be sincere with the superior, telling her about
everything and about their needs with childlike simplicity. |
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The superior should be distinguished by humility
and love toward each sister without exception. She must not let herself be
led by likes and dislikes, but by the spirit of Christ alone. Let her be
aware that God will demand of her an account for each sister. She should not
moralize to the sisters, but rather set them an example of profound humility
and self-denial; this will be the most efficacious lesson she can give her
subjects. She should be firm, but never harsh. She should be patient when
bothered with the same questions. Even if she has to give the same answer a
hundred times over, she should do so with equanimity. Let her strive to
anticipate the sisters' needs rather than wait till they ask for this or
that, for people vary in disposition. |
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December 15, 1935. From early morning, today, a
strange power has been pushing me to action, not giving me a moment's peace.
A strange ardor has been lit in my heart, urging me to action, and I cannot
stop it. This is a secret martyrdom known only to God, but let Him do with me
as He pleases; my heart is ready for anything. O Jesus, my dearest Master, do
not abandon me, not even for a moment. Jesus, You know well how weak I am of
myself; that is why I know that it is my weakness that forces You to be with
me constantly. |
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On one occasion, I saw Jesus in a bright garment;
this was in the greenhouse. [He said to me,] Write what I say to
you. My delight is to be united with you. With great desire, I wait and long
for the time when I shall take up My residence sacramentally in your convent.
My spirit will rest in that convent and I will bless its neighborhood in a
special way. Out of love for you all, I will avert any punishments which are
rightly meted out by My Father's justice. My daughter, I have inclined My
heart to your requests. Your assignment and duty here on earth is to beg for
mercy for the whole world. No soul will be justified until it turns with
confidence to My mercy, and this is why the first Sunday after Easter is to
be the Feast of Mercy. On that day, priests are to tell everyone about My great
and unfathomable mercy. I am making you the administrator of My mercy. Tell
the confessor that the Image is to be on view in the church and not within
the enclosure in that convent. By means of this Image I shall be granting
many graces to souls; so let every soul have access to it. |
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O my Jesus, Eternal Truth, I fear nothing, neither
hardships nor sufferings; I fear only one thing, and that is to offend You.
My Jesus, I would rather not exist than make You sad. Jesus, You know that my
love knows no one but You. My soul is absorbed in You. |
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Oh, how great should be the ardor of every soul
who will live in that convent, since God desires to come and live with us!
Let everyone remember that if we religious do not intercede before God, who
will? Each of us should burn like a pure sacrifice before the majesty of God,
but to be pleasing to God, each one should unite herself
closely to Jesus. It is only with Him, in Him and through Him that we can be
pleasing to God. |
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573 |
December 21, 1935. One day my confessor [Father
Sopocko] told me to go and look at a certain house to see whether it was the
same house I had seen in my vision. When I went with my confessor to see that
house, or rather those ruins, at a glance I recognized that they were the
same as I had seen in my vision. The moment I touched the boards which had
been nailed together in place of the doors, a strength
pervaded my soul like a flash, giving me unshakable certitude. I went away
quickly from that place, my heart full of joy, for
it seemed to me that there was a certain force chaining me to that place. |
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574 |
From early morning, my spirit was immersed in God.
His presence pervaded my whole being. In the evening, before supper, I went
to the chapel for a minute to share the wafer, at the feet of Jesus, with
those who are far away and whom Jesus loves greatly and to whom I owe so
much. Just as I was spiritually sharing the wafer with a certain person
[probably Father Sopocko], I heard these words within me: His heart is for Me a
heaven on earth. When I was leaving the chapel, in an instant, God's omnipotence
enveloped me. I understood how greatly God loves us. Oh, if people could at
least partly comprehend and understand this! |
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575 |
Midnight Mass. During Holy Mass, I again saw the
little Infant Jesus, extremely beautiful, joyfully stretching out His little
arms to me. After Holy Communion, I heard the words: I am always in your
heart; not only when you receive Me in Holy Communion, but always. I spent these holydays in
great joy. |
|
576 |
O Holy Trinity, Eternal God, my spirit is drowned
in Your beauty. The ages are as nothing in Your sight. You are always the
same. Oh, how great is Your majesty. Jesus, why do You conceal Your majesty,
why have You left Your heavenly throne and dwelt among us? The Lord answered
me, My
daughter, love has brought Me here, and love keeps Me here. My daughter, if
you knew what great merit and reward is earned by one act of pure love for
Me, you would die of joy. I am saying this that you may constantly unite
yourself with Me through love, for this is the goal of the life of your soul.
This act is an act of the will. Know that a pure soul is humble. When you
lower and empty yourself before My majesty, I then pursue you with My graces
and make use of My omnipotence to exalt you. |
|
577 |
Once, when my confessor told me to say "Glory
be to the Father" as my penance, it took me a
very long time; and I began many times, but did not finish, because my spirit
became united with God, and I could not stick to the prayer. Quite
frequently, I am unwittingly enveloped by God's omnipotence and become
entirely plunged in Him through love, and then I do not know what is going on
around me. When I told my confessor that this short prayer often takes very
much of my time and that sometimes I cannot even finish it, he told me to say
it right away, there, at the confessional. However, my spirit became immersed
in God and, in spite of my efforts, I could not think as I wished. And so the
confessor said, "Please repeat after me." I repeated every word,
but while I was pronouncing each word, my spirit would be steeped in the
Person I was naming. |
|
578 |
On one occasion, Jesus told me, concerning a
certain priest [probably Father Sopocko], that these present years would be
the adornment of his priestly life. The days of suffering always seem longer,
but they too will pass, though they pass so slowly that it seems they are
moving backwards. However, their end is near, and then will come endless and
inconceivable joy. Eternity! Who can understand this one word which comes
from You, O incomprehensible God, this one word: eternity! |
|
579 |
I know that the graces given me by God are often
meant exclusively for certain souls. Awareness of this fills me with great
joy; I always rejoice at the good of other souls as if it were my own. |
|
580 |
On a certain occasion, the Lord said to me, I am more deeply
wounded by the small imperfections of chosen souls than by the sins of those
living in the world. It made me very sad that chosen souls make Jesus suffer, and Jesus
told me, These
little imperfections are not all. I will reveal to you a secret of My Heart:
what I suffer from chosen souls. Ingratitude in return for so many graces is
My Heart's constant food, on the part of [such] a chosen soul. Their love is
lukewarm, and My Heart cannot bear it; these souls force Me to reject them.
Others distrust My goodness and have no desire to experience that sweet
intimacy in their own hearts, but go in search of Me, off in the distance,
and do not find Me. This distrust of My goodness hurts Me very much. If My
death has not convinced you of My love, what will? Often a soul wounds Me
mortally, and then no one can comfort Me. They use My graces to offend Me.
There are souls who despise My graces as well as all the proofs of My love.
They do not wish to hear My call, but proceed into the abyss of hell. The
loss of these souls plunges Me into deadly sorrow. God though I am, I cannot
help such a soul because it scorns Me; having a free will, it can spurn Me or
love Me. You, who are the dispenser of My mercy, tell all
the world about My goodness, and thus you will comfort My Heart. |
|
581 |
I will tell you most
when you converse with Me in the depths of your heart. Here, no one can
disturb My actions. Here, I rest as in a garden enclosed. |
|
582 |
The interior of my soul is like a large and
magnificent world in which God and I live. Except for God, no one is allowed
there. At the beginning of this life with God, I was dazzled and overcome
with awe. His radiance blinded me, and I thought He was not in my heart; and
yet those were the moments when God was working in my soul. Love was becoming
purer and stronger, and the Lord brought my will into the closest union with
His own holy Will. No one will understand what I experience in that splendid
palace of my soul where I abide constantly with my Beloved. No exterior thing
hinders my union with God. Even if I used the most forceful words, they would
not express even a shadow of how my soul revels in happiness and inexplicable
love, as great and pure as the spring from which it flows; that is, God
himself. My spirit is so prevaded with God that I
feel it physically, and the body partakes of these joys. Although it happens
that God's touches vary in the same soul, they come, however, from the same
source. |
|
583 |
On one occasion, I saw Jesus thirsting and
fainting, and He said to me, I thirst. When I gave Him water, He
took it, but did not drink and immediately disappeared. He was clothed as He
was during His Passion. |
|
584 |
When you reflect upon
what I tell you in the depths of your heart, you profit more than if you had
read many books. Oh, if souls would only want to listen to My voice when I am
speaking in the depths of their hearts, they would reach the peak of holiness
in a short time. |
|
585 |
January 8, 1936. When I went to see the Archbishop
[Jalbrzykowski], I told him that Jesus was asking
that I pray for God's mercy upon the world and that there be a religious
congregation which would entreat the mercy of God for the world. I asked his
permission for all the Lord Jesus was demanding of me. The Arch bishop
answered me in these words: "As for prayer, I give my permission and
even encourage you, Sister, to pray as much as possible for the world and to
beg God's mercy, as mercy is what we all need; and I presume that your
confessor certainly does not forbid you to pray for this intention. But as
regards this congregation, wait a while, Sister, so that all things may
arrange themselves more favorably. This thing is good in itself, but there is
no need to hurry. If it is God's will, it will be done, whether it be a little sooner or a little later. Why shouldn't it be?
There are so many different kinds of congregations; this one too will come to
be if God so wills. Be completely at peace. The Lord Jesus can do all things.
Strive for a close union with God and do not lose heart." These words
filled me with great joy. |
|
586 |
When I left the Archbishop's house, I heard the
following words in my soul: To confirm your spirit, I speak through
My representatives in accordance with what I demand of you, but know that
this will not always be so. They will oppose you in many things, and through
this My grace will be manifest in you, and it will be evident that this
matter is My doing. But as for you, fear nothing; I am always with you. And
know this, too, My daughter: all creatures, whether they know it or not, and whether they want to or not, always fulfill My
will.
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|
587 |
Once, I suddenly saw Jesus in great majesty, and
He spoke these words to me: My daughter, if you wish, I will this
instant create a new world, more beautiful than this one, and you will live
there for the rest of your life. I answered, "I don't want any worlds. I want
You, Jesus. I want to love You, with the same love that You have for me. I
beg You for only one thing: to make my heart capable of loving you. I am very
much surprised at Your offer, my Jesus; what are those worlds to me? Even if
You gave me a thousand of them, what are they to me? You know very well, Jesus, that my heart is dying of longing for You.
Everything that is not You is nothing to me." -At that moment, I could
no longer see anything, but a strange force took over my soul, a strange fire
sprang up in my heart, and I entered into a kind of agony for Him. Then I
heard these words: With
no other soul do I unite myself as closely and in such a way as I do with
you, and this because of the deep humility and ardent love which you have for
Me. |
|
588 |
On one occasion, I heard these words within me: Every movement of
your heart is known to me. Know, My daughter, that one glance of yours
directed at someone else would wound Me more than many sins committed by
another person. |
|
589 |
Love casts out fear. Since I came to love God with
my whole being and with all the strength of my heart, fear has left me. Even
if I were to hear the most terrifying things about God's justice, I would not
fear Him at all, because I have come to know Him well. God is love, and His
Spirit is peace. I see now that my deeds which have flowed from love are more
perfect than those which I have done out of fear. I have placed my trust in
God and fear nothing. I have given myself over to His holy will; let Him do
with me as He wishes, and I will still love Him. |
|
590 |
When I receive Holy Communion, I entreat and beg
the Savior to heal my tongue, that I may never fail
in love of neighbor. |
|
591 |
Jesus, You know how ardently I desire to hide so
that no one may know me but Your sweetest Heart. I want to be a tiny violet,
hidden in the grass, unknown in a magnificent enclosed garden in which
beautiful lilies and roses grow. The beautiful rose and the lovely lily can
be seen from afar, but in order to see a little violet, one has to bend low;
only its scent gives it away. Oh, how happy I am to be able to hide myself in
this way! O my divine Bridegroom, the flower of my heart and the scent of my
pure love are for You. My soul has drowned itself in You, Eternal God. From
the moment when You yourself drew me to yourself, O my Jesus, the more I have
known You, the more ardently I have desired You. |
|
592 |
I learned in the Heart of Jesus that in heaven itself there is a heaven to which not all, but only chosen
souls, have access. Incomprehensible is the happiness in which the soul will
be immersed. O my God, oh, that I could describe this, even in some little
degree. Souls are penetrated by His divinity and pass from brightness to
brightness, an unchanging light, but never monotonous, always new though
never changing. O Holy Trinity, make yourself known to souls! |
|
593 |
O my Jesus, nothing is better for the soul than
humiliations. In contempt is the secret of happiness, when the soul
recognizes that, of itself, it is only wretchedness and nothingness, and that
whatever it possesses of good is a gift of God. When the soul sees that
everything is given it freely and that the only thing it has of itself is its
own misery, this is what sustains it in a continual act of humble prostration
before the majesty of God. And God, seeing the soul in such a disposition,
pursues it with His graces. As the soul continues to immerse itself more
deeply into the abyss of its nothingness and need, God uses His omnipotence
to exalt it. If there is a truly happy soul upon earth, it can only be a
truly humble soul. At first, one's self-love suffers greatly on this account,
but after a soul has struggled courageously, God grants it much light by
which it sees how wretched and full of deception everything is. God alone is
in its heart. A humble soul does not trust itself, but places all its
confidence in God. God defends the humble soul and lets Himself into its
secrets, and the soul abides in unsurpassable happiness which no one can
comprehend. |
|
594 |
One evening, one of the deceased sisters, who had
already visited me a few times, appeared to me. The first time I had seen
her, she had been in great suffering, and then gradually these sufferings had
diminished; this time she was radiant with happiness, and she told me she was
already in heaven. She told me that God had tried our house with tribulation
because Mother General [Michael] had given in to doubts, not believing what I
had said about this soul. And further, as a sign that she only now was in
heaven, God would bless our house. Then she came closer to me, embraced me
sincerely and said, "I must go now." I understood how closely the
three stages of a soul's life are bound together; that is to say, life on
earth, in purgatory and in heaven [the Communion of Saints]. |
|
595 |
I have noticed many times that God tries certain
people on account of those things about which He spoke to me, for mistrust
displeases Jesus. Once, when I saw that God had tried a certain Archbishop [Jalbrzykowski] because he was opposed to the cause and distrustful
of it, I felt sorry for him and pleaded with God for him, and God relieved
his suffering. God is very displeased with lack of trust in Him, and this is
why some souls lose many graces. Distrust hurts His most sweet Heart, which
is full of goodness and incomprehensible love for us. A priest should
sometimes be distrustful in order to better ascertain the genuineness of
gifts bestowed on a given soul; and when he does so in order to direct the
soul to deeper union with God, his will be a great and incomprehensible
reward indeed. But there is a great difference between this and disrespect
and distrust of divine graces in a soul simply because one cannot comprehend
and penetrate these things with one's mind, and this latter is displeasing to
the Lord. I greatly pity souls who encounter inexperienced priests. |
|
596 |
Once, a certain priest [Father Sopocko [124]] asked me to pray for him. I promised to
pray, and asked for a mortification. When I received
permission for a certain mortification, I felt a great desire to give up all
the graces that God's goodness would intend for me that day in favor of that
priest, and I asked the Lord Jesus to deign to bestow on me all the
sufferings and afflictions, both exterior and spiritual, that the priest
would have had to suffer during that day. God partially answered my request
and, at once, all sorts of difficulties and adversities sprang up out of
nowhere, so much so that one of the sisters remarked out loud that the Lord
Jesus must have a hand in this because everyone was trying Sister Faustina.
The charges made were so groundless that what some sisters put forward,
others denied, while I offered all this in silence on behalf of the priest. |
|
597 |
One day, after our Mass, I suddenly saw my
confessor [Father Sopocko] saying Mass in Saint Michael's Church, in front of
the picture of the Mother of God. It was at the time of the Offertory, and I
saw the Infant Jesus clinging to him as if fleeing from something and seeking
refuge in him. But when the time came for Holy Communion, He disappeared as
usual. Suddenly, I saw the Blessed Mother, who shielded him with Her cloak
and said, Courage, My son, courage. She said something else which I
could not hear. |
|
598 |
Oh, how ardently I desire that every soul would
praise Your mercy. Happy is the soul that calls upon the mercy of the Lord.
It will see that the Lord will defend it as His glory, as He said. And who
would dare fight against God? All you souls, praise
the Lord's mercy by trusting in His mercy all your life and especially at the
hour of your death. And fear nothing, dear soul, whoever you are; the greater
the sinner, the greater his right to Your mercy, O Lord. O incomprehensible
goodness! God is the first to stoop to the sinner. O Jesus, I wish to glorify
Your mercy on behalf of thousands of souls. I know very well, O my Jesus, that I am to keep telling souls about Your
goodness, about Your incomprehensible mercy. |
|
599 |
On one occasion, after a person had asked me for
prayer, when I met the Lord I said to Him, "Jesus, I especially love
those souls whom You love." And Jesus answered, And as for Me, I
bestow special graces on those souls for whom you intercede. |
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600 |
How wondrously Jesus defends me; truly this is a
great grace of God which I have experienced for a long time now. |
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